A peek Under the rainbow
A Peek Under the Rainbow is a solo monologue podcast hosted by Cush, exploring the lives and realities of queer Nigerians, told through a perspective of personal reflection, intelligence, and emotional precision — aimed at helping Nigerians understand the lives, realities, and humanity of queer people in Nigeria. The show does not ask the listener to agree. It asks them to understand. The tone is that of a trusted friend speaking honestly across the table. Not an activist lecture. Not a courtroom argument. A conversation. One that starts where the listener already is, and walks them slowly, episode by episode, into a...
The problem of the gay Christian ✝🏳️🌈
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Can you be gay and Christian?
For many queer Christians, this isn't simply a theological question. It can become a deeply personal conflict between two fundamental parts of their identity: their faith and their sexuality.
In this episode of A Peek Under the Rainbow, Kush explores what happens when someone grows up believing that God loves them unconditionally, only to later be taught that something fundamental about who they are is unacceptable to God.
The conversation looks beyond the usual arguments about sexuality and doctrine to...
KITO (Not the Shoe)
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This is the most visceral episode in the series. Where earlier episodes examined identity, family, healthcare, and culture, this one is about organised predation — a specific, documented pattern of violence directed at queer Nigerians who are forced by law and stigma to seek connection in the shadows, and whose vulnerability is deliberately exploited as a result.
Key moments in this episode:
What kito is and why it begins not with a crime but with lonelinessWhy secrecy does not cause violence but helps predators exploit vulnerabilityHow kito uses hope as a weapon — the conv...Queerlthcare
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This is the most urgent episode in the series. Where earlier episodes examined identity, family, and culture, this one is about life and death. Cush builds the argument through a real story — a person who stopped collecting their HIV medication because the hospital felt too unsafe, whose viral load progressed, who could have died — and asks what it means that a healthcare system produced that outcome.
Key moments in this episode:
The calculation a queer person makes before speaking to a doctor — should I say partner, should I avoid pronouns, should I change...Heteronomativity -- Who's the Man?
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This episode takes on one of the most layered ideas in the series — that the heteronormative framework does not only shape straight people. It shapes everyone, including the queer people who are supposedly outside it.
Cush builds the argument carefully, starting with the most familiar entry point — the "who's the man" question — and moving through the inherited frameworks that queer people carry into their own relationships, the roles and labels that attempt to recreate heterosexual structure inside queer spaces, and the specific prejudice that emerges when masculinity is treated as more desirable, more credib...
The secret is you
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DESCRIPTION
Every family has secrets. Affairs. Debts. Illnesses nobody names out loud. Things that happened, mistakes that were made, moments that became shame. But most secrets are attached to an event. Something you did. Something that can, eventually, be left behind.
Being queer in a Nigerian family is different. The secret is not something you did. The secret is you. And you cannot leave yourself behind.
In this episode, Cush explores what it means to love a...
The bullying of Effeminate men
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Every Nigerian school had one. The boy who walked wrong, talked wrong, sat wrong. The one who cried too easily, spoke too softly, avoided the rough games. You know exactly who this is. You probably remember his name.
In the first episode of A Peek Under the Rainbow, Cush examines the specific, sustained cruelty directed at effeminate boys and men in Nigeria — where it comes from, who participates in it, and what it quietly produces in everyone involved. Not just in th...
