B Evolutionary: The Podcast

It starts in a dream. Michael is running down a steep, dark, snowy trail, easy because he isn't controlling it, just going where the path wants. Then it turns sexual and strange, and he wakes asking what it means. That opens a full life review of his sexuality: the man in Asheville who once thought Michael was hitting on him, an honest look at being okay with being homosexual or bisexual or whatever it is. Underneath all of it, one thread. What he was ever reaching for was the feminine in him wanting the masculine, and the masculine wanting...

Michael and Audree finally watch 2001: A Space Odyssey, and Michael can't unsee it: the monolith hands the apes higher consciousness, and the first thing they do with it is pick up a bone and kill — animals first, then each other, for the water hole. Later HAL, told he'll be unplugged, murders the crew. Every leap in consciousness curdles into the same thing, and the thing is survival.

From there, the mechanic: survival is separation. As long as you experience yourself as a body-mind that was born, needs resources, and will die, the fight never ends. "There is no...

Michael starts the day before in "desperate futility and hopelessness." The next morning he records a private audio for himself — the one that opens this episode. The practice he's found: to poverty, to lack, to the complete loss of everything that matters, he says "Yes. Thank you. May I have some more." Not to get anywhere. The wanting itself — to win the lottery, to sell the house — is the push creating resistance in the flow of creation. So he stops pushing.

From there it cracks open. All the fear and struggle, he realizes, is "the egoic consciousness crying...

You keep waiting for the breakthrough, the peak state, the day it finally clicks. In the living room, Michael lands what he's been circling for two years: it's a ratchet. Awareness rises, which purifies and lifts your frequency, which makes the tools sharper, which ratchets awareness up again. High frequency without awareness, he says, is just half the solution.

From there, the harder part: you can't push it. Pushing only creates resistance. "Trust the process," he says, "is driving blindfolded and just taking the next step." Audree knows that one literally. She was once blindfolded and told...

You can quote the books. You can explain exactly how you create your own reality. And your life is still a mess. Michael opens with a friend who has an extraordinary memory for the teachings in Illusions and is, by his own read, "a complete mess." Audree pushes back: they are on the path, most people just can't fully embrace it. But Michael's thread lands sharper. Spiritual knowledge, he says, is "a maze and a death trap."

From there, the line that names the episode: you don't need spiritual knowledge, you need spiritual application. The danger isn't...

For more than a week Michael has heard the same thing: the door is unlocked, just walk through it. Nothing dawns. The guidance keeps insisting "you are source consciousness," but it will not land, because he is still meeting the light and the love from one place: I am separate from that.

Then, this morning, the question that cracks it open. If I am source consciousness, why am I taking help from source consciousness? Help only makes sense if I believe I am separate. Underneath it he catches the deeper trap: the endless purification loop, the hunt...

You can't solve the monkey mind with the monkey mind. The tool you'd reach for is the problem.

Two days into the drive to Toronto, Michael and Audree stop at an almost-abandoned rest station, and in the blowing of the trees something lands: being present is not a doing. All the talk of "just be present" is mostly the mind pretending it's present. Fakery. The beingness only came after a deep surrender, and the download that came with it: you can't do surgery on yourself. The mind cannot heal the mind. When the ego stops struggling, the...

Michael and Audree are driving to Canada, recording from the car, fresh off Audree's live meltdown going public. She had not wanted it released, and underneath the meltdown is the real strain: the work is not making money, they need help, and the people who show up mostly want to take it. Michael's instinct is to soften the blow of putting it out. Then he stops: this is a feature, why am I trying to fix it? Whatever comes up for people is what needs to come up for purification. There is nothing to fix.

The same...

Audree keeps telling Michael to mic up about AI, and he would know: an AI lab, papers, the stereo-vision tech now in almost every car, then he walked from the fortune. His fun fact lands cold. AI built inside the Deviation can never help you transcend it. It is a junior teammate, brilliant at details but blind to where it has the context completely wrong. Noticing "this doesn't seem quite right" is your job. Let it run on its own and it is a complete disaster.

From there, Audree names the real hook. The promise that AI...

Michael has been waking at 3am for nights running, and the tools don't work lying down, so he gets up. In the shower it comes: a life review. Every moment of pain and shame he's lived, seen from the other side as the exact gateway that was needed. If the pain knob hadn't been turned to a hundred, he'd never have gone on the journey. "I'm the one who created this whole plan."

From there, the unlock. It isn't the events that hold us; they happened. It's the allegiance we keep to the story of them. And...

Michael spends an hour and a half lying in bed while the egoic consciousness picks things to beat him up with. He finally just gets up, and in the shower it comes to him: it's his stance toward the whole thing. He's been resisting the experience, and that perspective is the problem. That is the struggle. The only struggle is the one he's choosing right now. And he already knows the mechanics. If something isn't right, you just change it.

From there comes the metaphor that runs the episode. You are the product manager of your own...

Michael is about to nudge Audree toward something, and he can already feel himself bracing for the reaction he is sure she will have. Then he stops and looks at the thought itself. It is not about Audree. It is a structure in his own being, holding a frequency that quietly tells her how to show up. And if he is the one creating her that way, the floor drops out: there is no one left to blame.

From there the mechanic opens out, and Michael calls it brutal. The judgments you carry about your kids, your...

Michael comes in from the kitchen having just done something new. He sat inside a wave of fear without trying to fix it or push it away, and broke through to the other side, into bliss. So they hit record. How did he get there? It traces to control. For years he has taught leaders to let go of command and control, and this morning the punchline lands on him: the thing he most wants to control is his own being. The moment he meets the part of himself that is doing the controlling and lets it soften, he...

Do you remember being fully held in the love and gratitude of source consciousness, and then having it withheld? Michael opens there, not as a concept but as something he has just directly re-experienced: the pain and fear of the separation, the realization there was no way out, and then the turn. The withholding was itself the act of love, the only way the separated self could learn to love its own being. Not the prodigal son returning to love, but finding the love of his own being and returning home as love. That, he says, is the gift...

Disclosure means no closure. Dis means not. Audree catches the word live on mic, halfway through what sounds like an ordinary episode about aliens, and the whole conversation flips inward. Revealing extraterrestrial influence gives nobody closure. The real disclosure is the truth of what and who you are, so you can finally have closure on the cycle of pain and suffering humanity has carried for thousands of years.

It starts where you'd expect. "Disclosure day. Hot topic." The scientific evidence of extraterrestrial races that mainstream science has, in Michael's words, coherently and systematically ignored because it doesn't...

Michael wakes up feeling something he has never felt before. Total mental relaxation, like every layer of background tension has dissolved. In the shower he flashes on Blade Runner. Rachel is a replicant who does not know it, and the discovery does not change her experience of being alive. He realizes the same is true here. We are running programs. Knowing it does not make us less. It liberates us, because now we can change them.

Audree tells the story of the moment her childhood with her mother fully released. Not through forgiveness, which she already...

Michael wakes up inside a dream. A cult-like structure with victims being harmed. Instead of letting it play, he pauses from inside and asks the ego why. What he is shown is the structural origin of self-hatred. He was both perpetrator and victim at once, holding the guilt of one and the rage of the other. The hate had to go somewhere. It went inward.

Next morning in the shower, the second piece lands. Him loving the ego back to wholeness was not enough. The ego has the spark of source inside it, and it has...

The Shii arrive mid-podcast with a correction that lands directly: the belief that the world has to collapse for change to happen is itself a lower-vibrational pattern keeping people stuck. The Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix arriving in 2027 means the geometric patterns underlying everything are shifting, and like the phoenix, old structures burn to ash. But the Cross of Planning that built infrastructure, institutions, mutual support was never the problem. It got hijacked by oppressors. What's coming is a purification of these structures, not their destruction. People don't need to die off for the mentality to die off. The...

The central reframe lands halfway through and reorganizes everything: orgasmic energy is creation energy. Source consciousness flowing through your body. The miswiring is that humans have been conditioned to experience all creation energy through a sexual lens, so when the energy activates, the mind goes straight to sex. Tantra and sex magic were pointing at this. Gurus and students get tangled in it because the energy unlocking gets misread. Celibacy was an attempted workaround that suppressed rather than completed. Audree learned all this in California years ago and burned tons of writing about it.

Michael starts...

Human Design is the body of knowledge Ra Uru Hu downloaded thirty years ago. It maps the neutrino imprint at the time of your birth and explains who you are and how you're designed to function. Michael's shower download lands a synthesis Ra never put together: the sun, earth, and moon are the core life imprint working as one orchestrated whole. The way you perceive is the moon. The way you think is the sun-earth. Your destiny path is the nodes. Ra taught these as separate pieces because each is so complex, but they fit together into one map.<...

The central reframe came through in the channeling, and Michael lands it directly: surrender is not what the ego consciousness thinks it is. It's not willy-nilly letting go to something random. It's surrendering to the precise life experience you chose for yourself and the lessons inside it. 

Surrender is ending the "er." The ego consciousness is 100% resistance to your perfect flow of life. The asparagus metaphor: a set menu is coming, and they'll keep bringing you the same dish until you actually eat it.

And the paradox: you can't change your life while resisting it. O...

Michael wakes in the night with awareness watching the mind itself. The mind says "let's go do this thing," and instead of going along with it, he feels the disturbance underneath, lets it dissolve, and notices something different is happening. The advanced grounding feels strange because he's already in state. A months-long tipping point has landed: instead of going back and forth between egoic and creator consciousness, awareness has stabilized as the place he operates from, and now watches the mind from there.

The realization that follows: ego consciousness and creator consciousness are the same thing...

The double-slit experiment shows a single particle going through both slits at once, interfering with itself, until an observer collapses the wave function. Michael lands it directly: the egoic consciousness is the particle. You are creating interference with yourself, and that interference is showing up as self-sabotage, disease, financial stress, the relationship that won't work. The mechanic underneath every problem is the same.

One year to the day since The Deviation ended, Michael has an overnight gnosis: the structure that expanded out is now collapsing back, and we're moving toward a singularity point where it dissolves...

April 21, 2026. Exactly one year ago, The Deviation ended. Michael and Audree realize this live on mic, mid-conversation. The guides arrive with "the spark of a new phase." Last year was the start of the end. This is the end of the end.

The episode opens somewhere unexpected: kissing yourself in the mirror is the first step, not the last. Michael's been able to access source consciousness on demand for weeks now, but kept getting pulled out by old vows of separation. He spent the night clearing them. The on-demand connection only works when paired with the...

Thoughts don't create your reality. The energetic frequency underneath the thought does. Michael makes the correction directly, in real time, when Audree is reaching for the standard manifestation framing. Thoughts are the surface. The output. The metric of what your whole being is vibrating at. They're not what's actually doing the creating.

The episode opens with Michael having two minutes of involuntary body movement in the shower, energy channels breaking open, the kind of upgrade Audree first experienced years ago in temples in India. From there they trace why control is the wrong paradigm. The cliff...

You are the donkey. The egoic consciousness is the rider, with carrot and stick, telling you what to think, what to feel, what to want. You go along with it, convinced these are your thoughts.

Audree opens with the deeper question: have you ever actually listened to the dialogue in your head? She shares her own experience of hearing thoughts in foreign languages while traveling, of seeing thoughts during her India awakening as white light floating into people's heads. Eastern philosophy: your thoughts are not your thoughts.

Then the ice cream illustration. The...

Seven sages went to Shiva. Each received a different method of enlightenment. Each came back decades later claiming theirs was the best. They thought they were finished. They weren't.

Audree tells the story midway through this episode, but the trap it names is everywhere. Michael opens by trying to record a note to himself about a morning epiphany. Audree points at the podcast mics. He walks through what source consciousness actually feels like when awareness rests on awareness itself: sparkly tingliness, a still pool, light you didn't generate. Then the disambiguation: the mind is a simulator...

Audree comes downstairs feeling like her skin is burning from the inside. Michael scans: 40% is planetary activation from intense solar flare activity, measurable through Schumann resonance whiteouts that science can confirm but not explain. The other 60% is their own evolution program. The sun recently appeared as one giant black spot, something nobody has seen before. Their guides have been delivering upgrades at an intensity that's been building since November.

The central metaphor lands from Michael's overnight download: the current version of the human operating system is entrenched in The Deviation, and The Deviation is gone. So...

Audree wakes up from a vivid dream with an overwhelming longing to be with her godson, a child she has a deep energetic connection to going back before his birth. Michael reads the energy from a still place and says it feels like spending a week with him. Audree's system says it feels like forever. She raises her voice. He catches it without reaction. She stops, goes inside, and finds the ego running a full narrative: Michael is controlling you, he's blocking you, be careful of him. She sees through it. What's actually there is a wound that traces...

This one started as a download. Audree tuned into a high frequency transmission and information started coming in about evolutionary organizations, so Michael hit record. What came through: the difference between a growth mindset and an evolutionary mindset, why internal learning is the prerequisite for external learning, and why the only ingredient any executive needs is the willingness to look at themselves.

Michael traces why every transformation program fails (the known solutions work, leadership just won't use them), why AI adoption bottlenecks at the same place everything else does, and why hierarchy isn't the problem when...

Michael dives into research on internal audit to prepare for a conversation about the audit industry, and an insight he had over a decade ago suddenly clicks into a much bigger picture: organizations run on command and control, which creates fear, so they add regulatory controls. When those don't work, they add internal audit as a third layer of control on the controls. And when that fails, the question is always the same: how do we add more controls? He traces it through a story from his telco days where an auditor openly admitted the whole thing made no...

Michael is waiting for the kettle to boil when a download starts coming in about coherence. He researches it on the spot: flocks of birds turning in unison faster than any signaling mechanism can explain, wolf packs coordinating, schools of fish moving as one. Science can only account for about 60% of it. The rest gets disregarded. The conclusion he lands on: coherence is the norm in nature. Animals aren't in the deviation. Humanity is the outlier.

From there the episode builds to its central thesis: an evolution of consciousness is a movement toward coherence. Not the sci-fi...

Michael has been listening to an advanced process Audree recorded, something so powerful it knocks her out every time. One night a line lands differently: the isness of the awareness. He realizes he's been trying to connect with isness from the mind, as if it's something outside him. But the isness is his own awareness, aware of itself. Everything shifts after that. Not as a concept. As a lived experience.

From there they trace the full arc: the early stages require enormous effort, constant choice-making, tools and techniques used over and over. But mastery quickens. What...

Michael opens with a revelation about the soul inception crystal: beyond human design, there's a deeper layer governing the balance between pure creation (formless, feminine) and structure (masculine) within each being. His is roughly 90% structure. Audree's is the opposite. This explains years of friction, blind spots, and the recurring sense of a missing chip. It's not missing. It's design.

From there they trace the origin of Evolutionary Design: bringing human design readings into their academy, watching students get permission to be themselves, then seeing where the blocks lived in their charts. Michael's obsessive five-month deep dive...

Audree has an agenda. She doesn't announce it right away, but the minute Michael sits down, she tells him to mic up. No small talk. Just: we're recording.

The first half is Michael working through the complexity of mastering the mechanics of creation in real time: multiple instructions from the Shii, confusion about what to focus on, and a realization that new guidance always builds on everything before it. They draw on their old Agile training as a parallel, land on "perspective" as a more useful evolution tool than "perception," and get triggered at each other...

What does it actually mean to change your life? Not the version sold in manifestation courses or vision boards, but the real, lived experience of it. 

In this episode, Michael and Audree sit down during a raw physical purification process and trace the full arc: from the earliest steps of noticing how your reactive patterns shape what comes back to you, through the discovery that every desire you hold contains its own block, to the understanding that your internal frequency is what the universe is actually responding to. Partway through, they have a live realization: they need t...

You are the programmer of your own life. The problem is you don't know the programming language.

In this episode, Michael shares a shower revelation about the two threads of evolution: high vibrational frequency alone isn't enough, and awareness alone isn't enough. You need both. The high frequency is the fuel that powers the debugger. The awareness of the mechanics of creation is what lets you actually read and change the source code of your life.

From there, the conversation turns into one of the most practical episodes yet. They map the entire...

This episode is different from anything we've shared before. While recording a scripted message, the Shii, a collective of beings of higher consciousness who have been guiding Audree and Michael's evolutionary process for the past year, spontaneously began channeling. What follows is that unplanned transmission, preceded by the full backstory of how it all started.

Audree traces the origin: watching a Gaia show about what happens to the physical body during channeling, realizing she'd been formally trained at Barbara Brennan and had the ability since childhood, and asking Michael to sit with her while she tried...

Audree has an epiphany: she can finally see her "no," and how it's been creating her life. Fifteen years writing Evolutionary Energetics, six of them fully funded with nothing stopping her, and she couldn't finish. Not because the information wasn't ready, but because she couldn't see the pattern until now.

Meanwhile, Michael is experiencing something new: watching the ego consciousness as if it's separate from him. Its stories no longer make sense. Its proposals have no substance. For the first time, it's not a practice of reminding himself this isn't real. It's a direct knowing that it...

Why would source consciousness incarnate into physical form and then experience self-hatred this profound? That's the question Audree asks that opens this episode, and the answer goes all the way back to the origin of creation.

Michael traces the cosmic story: a universal experiment that allowed for the possibility of deviation, conscious beings entering separation, and humanity being born into slavery with no awareness of what it actually is. From there they explore how the ego loop works like an infinity mirror, a single thought of self-hatred looping millions of times until it becomes almost impossible to...