I Am Jewtiful Podcast
I Am Jewtiful is where ancestral wisdom and modern spirit meet. Through conversation and contemplation, we uncover the layers of. Jewish identity - mystical, cultural, and profoundly human. Each episode is an offering of light, bridging the old and the new, the sacred and the seen. Here, spirituality becomes story and story becomes soul.
What's The Nus?: Episode 19
A society reveals itself not only through its progress, but through what it chooses to ignore.
In this episode of What’s the Nus?, we explore the deeper patterns behind declining educational standards, the rapid expansion of technology, evolving health and consumer policies, and the geopolitical tensions shaping our world today.
From local decisions to global consequences, we examine how culture, responsibility, and awareness intersect—and what it means to remain grounded in truth while everything continues to move forward.
Spill The P: 5786 Bamidbar
A new book. A new cycle. A new level of responsibility.
This week on Spill the P, as we enter Bamidbar, we move from connection into structure—from being called into becoming who we were called to be.
This week, we unpack what it really means to be counted—not as a number, but as someone whose head is lifted, whose name carries purpose, and whose presence carries weight.
We talk about alignment, capacity, and why most people are asking for more without having the vessel to hold it.
Because the trut...
Whats The Nus?: Episode 18
This week on What’s the Nus, we’re covering a wide range of conversations—from emerging health narratives and the way they’re being presented, to government decisions that directly impact families, to cultural patterns that reveal where we are as a society, and global developments that deserve more than just a headline glance.
We take the time to slow things down and actually look at what’s happening beneath the surface—because the reality is, we’re constantly being given information in a way that encourages reaction instead of reflection. Whether it’s fear-driven health conversations, p...
Spill The P: 5786 Bechukotai
This week on Spill the P, we close out Sefer Vayikra with Bechukotai—a parsha that doesn’t just teach… it confronts.
At its core, this isn’t about reward and punishment—it’s about alignment and choice. What does it actually mean to “walk with” the Creator? And what happens when we don’t?
We unpack the deeper meaning behind divine law, free will, and the misunderstood language that has shaped generations of fear-based thinking. Because the truth is—you don’t get what you want… you get who you are.
This episode is an invitation...
Spill The P: 5786 Behar
In this episode of Spill the P, we understand that Parsha Behar isn’t just about land—it’s about alignment.
We’re shown cycles of rest and reset, but more importantly, we’re shown what happens when we interfere too much. Over-pruning. Overcorrecting. Trying to control growth instead of allowing it. And in that process, we lose ourselves.
Then comes Yovel—the return. Not a party. A reset. Everything goes back to its source. And that includes you.
This episode is your reminder: you don’t need to become anything new—you need to return to...
What's The Nus?: Episode 17
This week on What’s the Nus?, we’ve got a lot to cover—and a lot of it will probably make you pause for a second.
We’re looking at everything from redistricting decisions in the U.S. and what they reveal about how we approach race and representation, to major grocery chains suddenly deciding to clean up their products after years of questionable ingredients.
We also get into parenting culture and the way we’ve started overcomplicating things that used to be instinctual, along with a major lithium discovery that could shift the future of...
Still Salty. Still Lit. Still Chosen. Still Lielle.
There is a quiet shift that happens when you stop looking outward for direction—and begin listening inward.
In this episode of Still Salty. Still Lit. Still Chosen., Lielle and I explore her journey of becoming—moving through the layers of growing up, navigating community expectations, and slowly stepping into her own identity. We speak about the complexities of adolescence, the push and pull of belonging, and the process of building a connection with Hashem that feels aligned and true.
Her time in Israel became a moment of expansion—a place where clarity began to take s...
Spill The P: 5786 Emor
In Parsha Emor, we move beyond instruction and into connection—learning that holiness isn’t about perfection, but about presence. That impurity isn’t something to fear, but something to understand as a moment of disconnection.
We explore the beauty of human connection over rigid rules, the responsibility of holding light after receiving it, and the quiet power of simply being a steady presence in someone else’s darkness.
From the cycles of time to the process of the Omer, this episode reminds us that growth isn’t linear—and that every moment holds an opportunity...
What's The Nus? - Ep. 16 - 4.29.26
This week’s episode of What’s the Nus? sits in a space that’s a little less comfortable—but a lot more necessary. Because when you look at everything happening across politics, culture, and society right now, it’s hard to ignore that something feels off.
From major public events to everyday behavior, there’s a growing disconnect between what’s happening and how people are reacting to it. And instead of slowing down to examine it, most people are doubling down—on their opinions, their emotions, and their assumptions.
We walk through a range of stories...
Spill the P: 5786 Acharei
Acharei forces one question: Are you actually living in truth—or just pretending to look like you are?
You can wear the clothes. Say the right things. Look spiritual.
But what you give—your words, your actions, your energy—is what defines you.
We get into misalignment, accountability, lashon hara, emotional reactions, and the uncomfortable reality that most people don’t want to admit who they are… because then they’d have to change.
If you’re ready to stop hiding behind “that’s just who I am,” this episode is for you.
Spill The P: Kedoshim
Kedoshim is the moment where alignment becomes identity.
In this episode of Spill the P, we move beyond atonement into embodiment—exploring what it means to live as a vessel of light. From ethical laws to spiritual principles, we uncover how holiness is not a title, but a state of being cultivated through truth, accountability, and direct connection.
We also examine the deeper meaning behind sages and spiritual authority—why they are doorways, not destinations.
Because you were never meant to stop at the threshold.
You were meant to walk through it.
What's The Nus?: Episode 15 (April 22, 2026)
This week on What’s the Nus?, we’re looking at what “progress” actually means when policy, politics, and perception start to blur. From New York’s announcement of city-run grocery stores to broader infrastructure and childcare expansion plans, the conversation raises questions about government intervention, funding, and long-term impact.
We also zoom out to national economic updates, immigration-related security concerns, and recent international developments that continue to shape public discourse in complex ways.
As always, we connect the headlines to the deeper patterns underneath—what’s being said, what’s being missed, and what it all might be
Spill the P: 5786 Metzora
In this episode of Spill the P, Metzora takes everything from internal experience and shows us how it becomes external reality. What we carry doesn’t stay contained—it expresses itself in behavior, relationships, and the spaces we live in.
We break down the purification process as a map for change: releasing old patterns, interrupting automatic responses, and consciously choosing how you show up moving forward.
Because nothing in your outer world is random—it’s reflecting something that’s still active within.
Spill The P: Tazria
This episode we’re unpacking Tazria, and it comes down to one thing: what you absorb, you eventually become.
Tazria is about “seeding,” which means your environment is always shaping you—whether you realize it or not. We get into how emotions vs. actions work, why internal patterns take longer to shift, and how behavior is almost never random. It’s built. So when something shows up externally, it’s not who you are—it’s what’s been cultivated. The question is, are you paying attention to it?
What's The Nus?: Episode 14 (April 15, 2026)
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Welcome to What's the Nus? where we break down what's happening in the world without pretending it's neutral.
This week we cover proposed draft expansion policies, borders crossings that raise serious questions, a rising opioid crisis, visa bans, and a global shift toward stricter enforcement systems across immigration and national security.Â
From the US to Europe to the Middle East, one theme keeps showing up: accountability is being redefined, and governments aer starting to enforce boundaries more aggressively than before.
Spill the P: 5786 Shemini
Shemini is not about arrival—it’s about responsibility.
In this episode, we explore the eighth day as a state beyond creation—where alignment becomes embodiment and light becomes something you must carry, not chase. Through the story of Nadav and Avihu, we unpack the danger of misaligned desire, the cost of offering from ego, and how subtle moments of inauthenticity fragment the soul. We also talk boundaries, discernment, ego, and why “you are what you eat” goes way deeper than food.Â
From kashrut to consciousness, from boundaries to grace, this is a transmission on what it mea...
Whats The Nus?: Episode 13 (April 08, 2026)
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This week on What’s the Nus?, we’re covering everything from what’s hitting your wallet…to what’s happening across the world stage.
Tax credits, rebates, and policy shifts that actually affect your day-to-day—plus a very real conversation about microplastics and what we’re doing to our own bodies.
Then we get into leadership, systems, and the decisions shaping life in America right now.
And of course, we zoom out—because you can’t ignore what’s happening globally. Iran, strategy, and the reality on the ground in Israel—whe...
Still Salty. Still Lit. Still Chosen. Still Amy.
Amy's journey is a reminder that connection to Hashem is not one-size-fits-all.Â
In this episode of Still Salty. Still Lit. Still Chosen. -- Amy shares what it looked like to grow up less observant, leave home, find herself, and eventually step into a world much different than what she knew.Â
We get into the fear, the tension, and the growth, and how she ultimately found her own connection to Hashem without losing herself in the process.
Because we are all still becoming, still questioning and still chosen.
What's The Nus?: Episode 12 (April 01, 2026)
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This week on What's the Nus?, we're moving through a world that feels just slightly off-center. Where food is labeled wrong, "organic" may not be what it claims to be, and the things we're told are good for us might deserve a second look. It's a conversation about what we're consuming - physically, mentally, and culturally.
And then the stories unfold. The kind that make you laugh for a moment...before you realize you probably shouldn't be laughing. From bizarre crimes to global tension, from classroom culture to international power plays, it's all...
Spill The P: 5786 Tzav
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Parsha Tzav is where things get real. It's not just about offerings, it's about responsibility. Responsibility for your actions, your awareness, your growth, and your alignment. In this episode, we explore the deeper layers of the soul - nefesh, ruach, and neshama - and how each one plays a role in bridging intention into action. Through the lens of the Kohanim and their service, we begin to understand what it actually means to carry, process, and elevate life experiences instead of avoiding them.Â
We also challenge the toxic idea of perfection. Because the T...
What's The Nus?: Episode 11
This week on What's the Nus?, we've got everything - tax plans, tech upgrades that are about 20 years late, dress codes causing identity crises, and global tensions that feel like high-stakes games≥
But underneath all of it, we're really talking about something bigger...responsibility. Personal, cultural, and governmental. Who actually has it? Who's avoiding it? And why are we so quick to believe that someone else is going to fix things for us?
Spill the P: 5786 Vayikra
This week on Spill the P, we dive into Vayikra. Let's be honest, most people want connection to the Creator without doing the work to become a vessel for it.Â
This episode challenges that. We dive into the meaning behind offerings, emotional regulation, and why alignment requires participation. Not just intention, not just words - action. Because the Creator doesn't call to chaos. He calls to consistency, discipline, and responsibility.
At the end of the day, the Creator isn't looking for perfection. He's looking for people who are willing to do the work.
What's The Nus?: Episode 10
From Sprang Break shutdowns to synthetic shortcuts and societal breakdowns, this weeks episode of What's the Nus? is a reality check.
We're talking beach bans, botox, emergencies and a culture that seems addicted to ease, attention, and instant gratification. Then we zoom out to Cuba, China, and Iran, and connect the dots on power, pressure, and patterns most people aren't paying attention to.
Spill the P: 5786 Vayakhel
In this episode of Spill the P, we step into the energy of Vayakhel through the lens of the divine masculine - discipline, structure, action, and purpose. What does it mean to build a vessel that can actually hold something sacred? Not conceptually, but through how you show up every single day.Â
This isn't about perfection. It's about alignment. It's about choosing persistence over passivity, clarity over chaos, and responsibility over reaction. Because the Mishkan wasn't built through intention alone, it was built through action.Â
When you begin to move with purpose, structure your life wi...
What's the Nus?: Episode 9
This week on What's the Nus? we're unpacking a week of chaos and contradictions. An AI chatbot sparks controversy with a brutal political roast, whispers about the 2028 presidential race start circulating, and new polling show Americans have increasing trust issues.Â
We also look at policy changes impacting green card holders, the continued rise of drug prices, and housing debates across the U.S. And overseas, updates on the war with Iran and some very Israeli innovations proving that even during wartime, creativity and humor don't start.
Spill the P: 5786 Ki Tisa
This week on Spill the P, we dive into the powerful and complex parsha of Ki Tisa. From the mystery of the half-shekel to the chaos of the Golden Calf, this portion reveals what happens when we forget our role in Divine partnership.Â
What does it mean to give our "half"? Why must we wash our hands and feet before approaching holiness? And what happens when we chase golden calves instead of stillness?
Through Moshe's bold conversations with the Creator, we're reminded that the relationship between humanity and Divine is not passive, it's participatory. Accountability l...
What's the Nus?: Episode 8
This week on What's the Nus? we review corporate accountability, government oversights, cultural fault lines, and geopolitical power plays that are all surfacing at the same time. From consumer-level concerns to policy decisions that could affect millions, there's an unmistakable sense that the ground is shifting, and quickly.Â
We're breaking down the week's biggest developments and the broader themes underneath them. Because whether it's infrastructure, identity, enforcement, or international security, the through line is the same: the systems are being challenged, and the consequences are real.
Spill the P: 5786 Tetzaveh
This week on Spill the P, Tetzaveh opens with olive oil for eternal light, and from there unfolds a blueprint for refinement. Pressure that produces clarity. Garments that represent responsibility. Stones that symbolize the traits we're meant to carry with balance. Orim and Tumim, light and truth, resting over the heart.
We talk about why darkness requires leadership and decisive action, and why light requires humility and trust. Why obedience is not control, but conscious alignment. And why nothing we release in the process of growth is ever truly a sacrifice. Everything is preparation.
What's the Nus?: Episode 7
This week on What's the Nus? We dig into the headlines that matter, and the ones that just make you scratch your head. From immigration policies to ICE detentions under scrutiny, to gender debates in Texas and property tax battles in New York, we break down the news, the logic behind it, and what it means for the real people. Plus, absurd stories from around the world and global tensions that keep escalating.
Still Salty. Still Lit. Still Chosen. Still Elinor.
In this episode, I sit down with my friend Elinor to explore her personal journey. From life growing up in Israel to her time in the IDF, to eventually finding her way to Kabbalah. She shares how each chapter of her life led her closer to deeper awareness and purpose.Â
We dive into motherhood, femininity, and the importance of reconnecting to femininity in a culture that often rewards hardness over softness. Elinor speaks about her classes on Yemima and how these lessons help women connect to their inner child through clarity, softness, strength, and spiritual depth. This c...
Spill the P: 5786 Terumah
Mishpatim was about refining the inner world. Terumah is about building the vessel to hold it.Â
Gold. Measurements. Direction. Balance. Nothing is random. The Ark protects your values. The Cherubim teach harmony. The table holds the "bread of faces" -- not who you pretend to be, but who you actually are.Â
Because structure without heart is empty. And heart without structure collapses.Â
This week on Spill the P, we're talking divine architecture...how to build a life that can actually protect what's sacred inside.Â
So what's in your Ark?
What's the Nus?: Episode 6
This week we're taking a wide look at a world in motion. From major policy debates in the U.S. to rising global tensions, cultural flashpoints, and stories that reveal how quickly things are shifting, this episode covers it all.Â
As always, we're here to connect the dots, question the narratives, and explore what these headlines might really be telling us. Welcome back to What's the Nus?
Still Salty. Still Lit. Still Chosen. Still Leila.
In this episode, I'm joined by my friend Leila for a conversation that weaves together culture, consciousness, and spiritual evolution. Growing up in Los Angeles with an Iranian mother and American father, Leila shares her experience navigating identity, faith, and what it meant of her family to grow closer to the Creator over time.Â
We dive into her exploration of Kabbalah, her practice of Chinese medicine, and the ways different wisdom traditions intersect and illuminate one another. From mysticism to personal growth, this episode is a thoughtful exploration of what it means to seek truth across cultures a...
What's the Nus?: Episode 5
This week's What's the Nus? takes you from grocery pilesÂ
to geopolitical frontlines.Â
We're discussing FDA policy shifts on artificial dyes, food recalls affecting households nationwide, and major national headlines shaping conversations around public safety, policy, and cultural accountability. From California legislation to SNAP changes and difficult social realities, we examine not just what's happening, but what it reflects.Â
Then we move internationally, covering the ongoing Russia-Ukraine conflict, terror attacks abroad, Iran's strategic posturing, and key developments impacting Israel.Â
Clear updates. Honest perspective. And the context you need to stay informed without the n...
Spill the P: 5786 Yitro
Parshat Yitro is the moment everything changes.Â
On this episode of Spill the P, we unpack the journey from burnout to balance, from noise to revelation, and from fear to conscious connection. As the Israelites stand at Sinai and hear the Ten Sayings, we're reminded that divine guidance was never about control, it was about choice.Â
We dive into the symbolism of Yitro's return, the necessity of boundaries before revelation, and why true spiritual connection required both discipline and feeling. Because when you strip away the noise, the message is simple:
You were given fre...
What's the Nus?: Episode 4
Are we heading toward conflict with Iran - or being kept in suspense while everything else unravels?
This week on What's the Nus?, we cover a targeted incident at Chabad headquarters in New York, buried crime reports, policy shifts, global antisemitism, and rising geopolitical tension. This week's headlines raise questions about safety, leadership, and responsibility.Â
When everything feels like chaos, clarity becomes your responsibility.
What's the Nus: Episode 3
This week on What's the Nus?, we're covering a lot - ICE, welfare bills, "free" childcare, government kill switches, media spin, terrorist glow-ups, and why nuance keeps getting buried under ideology. From Minneapolis to London to Tehran to Jerusalem, the throughline is the same: when people stop thinking ,chaos fills the gap. Complex realities don't disappear just because they're uncomfortable.
Spill the P: 5786 Bo
In this episode of Spill the P, we dive into Parsha Bo, the moment where exile begins to loosen its grip and identity is reclaimed. From the final plagues to the first mitzvah given to Israel, Parsha Bo isn't just about leaving Egypt - it's about learning how to leave constriction. We explorer choice, free will, time, fear, and what it means to mark yourself as aligned when darkness passes through. This parsha asks us a powerful question: when freedom arrives, are you ready to receive it?
Still Salty. Still Lit. Still Chosen. Still Sandy.
This week’s episode is a beautiful conversation with Sandy, a woman whose life spans continents, histories, and identities, yet whose sense of self has never wavered.
Deeply knowledgeable, strong-willed, and endlessly curious, Sandy brings history to life — not as something distant, but as something lived. We speak about Zionism, identity, courage, and how strength can coexist with deep compassion. Sandy shows us what it’s like to live with clarity, integrity, and fully aligned with who you are.
What's the Nus: Episode 2
In this episode of What's the Nus?, we stop confusing discomfort with oppression. While much of the West debates feelings, others are living under regimes that rule through execution, censorship, and terror.Â
We unpack Iran's protests, global political maneuvering, U.S. immigration realities, misinformation, and the difference between leaders who calculate reactions and those who act with intention. From Israel to Los Angeles to Europe and beyond, this episode challenges moral laziness and reminds us that not all power structures, or consequences, are the same.