But Did YOU Die Tho? Confessions of a Widow by Carmen Barton
But Did You Die Tho... Confessions of a Widow is the unfiltered, hilarious, and deeply human podcast from comedian Carmen Barton, marking the four-year anniversary of the sudden loss of her husband, podcaster Anthony Carthan. Broadcasting from the very LA home where Anthony built his podcast dreams, Carmen steps up to the mic to share her own journey—this time, blending gut-busting comedy with raw confessions, unexpected hope, and unapologetic truth.Through laughter, tears, and a little bit of side-eye, Carmen invites listeners into her world as she navigates widowhood, healing, and the wild road back to truly living. Whether sh...
Episode 11: New Beginnings: Reflections and Resolutions
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In this thoughtful and hope-filled episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Comedian Carmen Barton reflects on life after the holidays and what it means to enter a new year with renewed purpose, new expectations, and a commitment to personal growth.
Carmen opens up about spending New Year’s Eve alone in bed, and surprisingly finding peace, renewal, and clarity instead of sadness. She shares how this season feels like a time of major transition — emotionally, spiritually, and professionally — and ho...
Episode 10: The Gift of Grief for the Holidays
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The Gift of Grief for the Holidays
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In this reflective and heartfelt episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Comedian Carmen Barton talks honestly about what happens when grief shows up anyway — even after you’ve made plans, booked trips, stayed busy, and tried to distract yourself through the holidays.
Carmen shares how, despite intentionally filling her calendar, grief still found her — because grief doesn’t ask for permission or follow schedules. From Thanksgiving in St. Louis to trave...
Episode 9: Forget the Rules: Real Grief, Real Fashion, Real Talk
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Episode 9: Forget the Rules: Real Grief, Real Fashion, Real Talk
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In this powerful, myth-busting episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Comedian Carmen Barton throws the whole “rulebook” out the window — starting with fashion rules and ending with the 5 Stages of Grief that people pretend are one-size-fits-all.
From “don’t mix prints” to “you’re supposed to feel anger before bargaining,” Carmen breaks down how both fashion and grief come with a lot of pressure...
Episode 8: Bracing for the Holidays w Carmen Barton
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Episode 8:
Bracing for the Holidays
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In this deeply emotional and timely episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Comedian Carmen Barton opens up about the unique weight the holiday season carries for those grieving. With a mix of honesty, humor, and heartfelt storytelling, she prepares her listeners for the emotional complexity of this time of year — sharing three powerful videos, one special photo, and wisdom from her own journey.
Carmen highlights the voices within the grief com...
Episode 7: Carmen & Nick on Sherri!
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🎙️ Episode 7: Carmen & Nick on Sherri!
It’s a celebration! In this uplifting episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Comedian Carmen Barton shares one of the most exciting weeks of her life — her daytime TV debut on The Sherri Shepherd Show (@sherrishowtv) and her return as a Season 3 regular juror on BET’s Ms. Pat Settles It! Both appearances aired the same day, and Carmen reflects on the journey, the bumps and bruises along the way, and how God’s hand has been g...
Episode 6: Second Wave of Grief w/ Carmen Barton
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Episode 6: Second Wave
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In this heartfelt and transparent episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Comedian Carmen Barton opens up about what she calls the “second wave” of grief — the unexpected emotional surge that can hit long after the initial loss.
After missing last week’s episode due to this wave, Carmen shares what it feels like to experience grief in layers, why the second year can often be the hardest, and how she’s learning to give hersel...
EP 5: Grief be Griefing
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Episode 5:
Grief Be Griefing
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In this emotional and powerful episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Comedian Carmen Barton takes us back to the first 90 days after losing her husband, Anthony “Nick” Carthan. She shares the raw, pivotal moments of early grief — from the overwhelming weight of daily life to the small victories of survival.
One of the most life-changing experiences she highlights is attending Camp Widow, a program designed to connect widows and widowers through communi...
EP 4: Deal Breakers
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🎙️ Episode 4: Deal Breakers
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In this episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Comedian Carmen Barton hilariously breaks down the deal breakers she now carries into dating and friendships after experiencing love, loss, and life. What might seem petty at first actually carries some real meaning — and Carmen keeps it 100 about what she will and will not put up with anymore.
Plus, she takes us into a fashion-focused Report Card segment, paying tribute to her favorite designer out of Inglewood, California — Philthy R...
Episode 3: From Struggle to Success
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In this episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow, Carmen takes a candid journey through her past, reflecting on her roots and the experiences that shaped her identity.
From childhood memories of growing up in North County, St. Louis, to the challenges of becoming a young mother in Ferguson, Missouri, Carmen shares how her resilience and faith carried her through tough seasons and fueled her rise in comedy. She opens up about the lessons she’s learned, the hardships of grief, and the pivotal moments that led he...
Episode 2: Dating While Dead Inside
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Episode 2:
Dating While Dead Inside
In this episode, I open up about navigating the dating scene after loss — from short relationships to funny (and sometimes narcissistic) encounters. Along the way, we’ll talk about other widows in the public eye, like Lauren London and Vanessa Bryant, and the very different ways they’ve processed love, loss, and moving forward.
What You’ll Hear in This Episode:
Dating While Dead Inside – My unfiltered perspective on dating as a widow, plus why Lauren London...Episode 1: Rest in Peace...NIck Carthan
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Welcome to the very first episode of But Did You Die Though: Confessions of a Widow. I’m your host, Carmen Barton — comedian, TV personality, and now your podcast guide through a mix of humor, real-life stories, and heartfelt reflections.
In this debut episode, I honor my late husband, Anthony Nicholas “Nick” Carthan, on the 4-year anniversary of his passing. Recorded in the very space he used for his own creative work, I share stories, laughs, and a glimpse into what’s ahead for this show. From my journey as a widow...
