Kadabiyu's journal

Today is not a planned episode, but an episode from the heart, thinking about the the excuses we made to cover our fear or underlying issues that needs address.

Inspired by a child through her courage in the face of shame, disgrace and disappointment. Kadabiyu talks how and why he was blessed by her so much 

Ever felt so scared to make a bad decision that you fail to make a decision at all? 

In today's journey, Kadabiyu talks about how the fear can often make us fall for a much worse decision than a bad one which is called indecision.

Patience is often praised as a virtue, but is waiting alone enough? In this episode, we dive into why patience without accurate knowledge can lead to wasted time and missed opportunities. True patience isn’t passive—it requires clarity, wisdom, and the right understanding to ensure that the waiting is worthwhile. We’ll explore how knowledge gives patience direction, and how the two together create lasting results.”

Life can feel heavy when every mistake feels like a crisis and every choice feels like a test. But what if taking things too seriously is what’s holding us back from joy, creativity, and connection? In this episode, we explore why so many of us slip into “serious mode,” the hidden costs of carrying that weight, and how to bring more lightness, humor, and play into our daily lives. From reframing setbacks to learning to laugh at ourselves, this conversation is about finding balance — between caring deeply and remembering not everything needs to be so deep.

We all face doubt—whether it’s doubting our choices, our abilities, or even our dreams. In this episode, I dive into the nature of doubt: when it protects us, when it holds us back, and how we can learn to move forward despite it. I’ll share some personal reflections, practical ways to deal with self-doubt, and why doubt often means you’re actually on the right path.

If you’ve ever second-guessed yourself or felt stuck because of uncertainty, this episode is for you.

Growth is beautiful, but it isn’t always glamorous. Sometimes, the more you evolve, the fewer people around you seem to understand. Old friendships may drift, your environment may no longer fit, and the journey can feel painfully isolating. In this episode, I reflect on the quiet loneliness that comes with becoming someone new—and why that loneliness is often proof that you’re on the right path.

In this episode, I reflect on the quiet but heavy fear of being forgotten. It’s that haunting thought of fading into irrelevance, of not leaving a trace. Together, we’ll explore why we carry this fear, how society amplifies it, and what it truly means to leave a legacy. More importantly, I’ll share a perspective shift: that maybe the real measure of a life isn’t whether we’re remembered, but whether we lived with presence, love, and authenticity in the time we were given.

In this episode, I talk about the invisible burden we carry when we measure our lives against others. Through the story of David, who constantly compared himself to an old friend’s success, I explore how comparison blinds us to our own journey and keeps us stuck in feelings of inadequacy. This episode is a reminder that the real race isn’t against anyone else—it’s against who we were yesterday. When we learn to define life on our own terms, the weight of comparison begins to fall away.

In this episode of Kadabiyu’s Journal, I open up about the quiet pressure we all feel to stand out, to be special, to leave a mark that proves our lives mattered. But behind that chase is a hidden fear—the fear of being ordinary. I explore where this fear comes from, how it silently shapes our choices, and why maybe “ordinary” isn’t the curse we think it is. Sometimes, the most beautiful parts of life are found in the moments that don’t make headlines.

Self-doubt is a quiet battle most of us fight. It holds us back, makes us second-guess ourselves, and convinces us to play small. But what if doubt didn’t have to decide for you? In this episode, I share reflections on recognizing self-doubt, understanding its grip, and learning to move forward despite it.

"Why does choosing yourself feel so heavy? In this episode of Kadabiyu’s Journal, I share the story of Daniel—a young man torn between following his own path and living up to everyone else’s expectations. Through his struggle, we explore the guilt that comes with putting yourself first, and why choosing yourself isn’t selfish—it’s necessary."

Have you ever felt like time is slipping away—that you’re behind, or that you’ve lost years you can’t get back? In today’s episode of Kadabiyu’s Journal, I talk about the fear of wasting time, why it lingers in the back of our minds, and how we can begin to see time differently. Maybe what we call ‘wasted’ wasn’t wasted at all—it was shaping us in ways we didn’t notice."

"This episode marks the start of a 30-day challenge: 30 episodes in 30 days. In today’s journal entry, I share why I’ve decided to take on this challenge, what I hope to learn from it, and what it could mean for you, my listener. It’s not about perfection—it’s about showing up, every single day."

We grow up with voices around us—parents, friends, society—all telling us who we should be, what we should achieve, and how to live. But what happens when those expectations don’t match who we truly are? In this episode of Kadabiyu’s Journal, I explore the weight of other people’s expectations, the silent pressure it places on us, and how we can slowly reclaim our right to live authentically. If you’ve ever felt like you’re living someone else’s story instead of your own, this one’s for you."

Ever been so busy you feel like life is happening to you and not through you ?

I guess we all need moment to reflect on how our lives and I did find that sleep in the end lol.

When life leaves you powerless, it can feel like the pen has been ripped from your hands and your story is being written without you. But healing isn’t just about surviving what happened—it’s about taking the pen back. In this episode of Beyond the Blame, we explore what it means to reclaim your agency: the quiet but powerful act of choosing for yourself again.

You’ll learn how to recognize the subtle signs that your power is returning, why agency often gets lost after pain, and the practical steps you can take to rebuild self-tru...

After the storm, there’s a silence we don’t often talk about — the space between what ended and what’s about to begin. In this episode, Kadabiyu shares a heartfelt story about sitting in that quiet, learning to breathe again, and finding the courage to take the first small step toward a new chapter.

In this closing episode of Beyond the Blame, we explore one of the hardest yet most freeing steps in healing—learning to forgive yourself. We talk about why self-forgiveness isn’t about excusing your mistakes, but about releasing the weight of self-judgment and allowing yourself to move forward. This is your invitation to stop replaying the past, start showing yourself compassion, and finally take ownership of your healing without carrying the chains of guilt.

In a world obsessed with being exciting, interesting, and “always on,” we often overlook the quiet courage it takes to live a steady, grounded life. In this episode, I explore why embracing the “boring” parts of ourselves can be a powerful act of self-respect. We’ll talk about slowing down, saying no to unnecessary drama, and finding meaning in the ordinary. Sometimes, the bravest thing you can do is stop performing and simply be.

What do you do when the apology never comes? When the people who hurt you keep moving like nothing happened—while you're left holding the broken pieces?

In this powerful episode of Kadabiyu’s Journal, we dive into the hard truth about closure: most times, it doesn’t come the way we expect. Through a fictional story about Tariq—a man holding onto a phone number and a hope for an apology—we explore what it really means to let go, move forward, and reclaim your peace even without the answers you thought you needed.

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