System Speak: Complex Trauma and Dissociative Disorders
Diagnosed with Complex Trauma and a Dissociative Disorder, Emma and her system share what they learn along the way about complex trauma, dissociation (CPTSD, OSDD, DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personality), etc.), and mental health. Educational, supportive, inclusive, and inspiring, System Speak documents her healing journey through the best and worst of life in recovery through insights, conversations, and collaborations.
Recap: 2026 ISSTD Annual Conference (Part 1)
Our recap of the 2026 ISSTD Conference.
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Detachmenting
We share some recovery learning.
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Skate Park, Unedited
We share about recognizing our own timeline, the support of music, and bookending with islands.
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Facing Terror
We give a therapy update with some recovery support.
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Guest: Laura Brown
Laura Brown shares with our study group about her book Not the Price of Admission.
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Not the Price, Chapter 7, Part 2
We read and respond to chapter 7 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.
Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.
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Not the Price, Chapter 7, Part 1
We read and respond to chapter 7 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.
Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.
You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.
You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by j...
Limerence and Control, Part 3
We explore about “Limerence” as a trauma response.
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Limerence and Control, Part 2
We explore about “Limerence” as a trauma response.
Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.
You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.
You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!
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Limerence and Control, Part 1
We explore “Limerence” as a trauma response.
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You can submit an email to the podcast HERE.
You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!
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Rage
We share therapy updates about discovering “rage”.
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Someone
We share therapy updates about showing up for myself/ves, that it is only me who can, and what that means about partsiness as a system.
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Guest: Frank Putnam
We talk with our guest, Dr. Frank Putnam about his new book, Old Before Their Time(Routledge, December 2025).
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Uneven Mourning
We share words in response to what happened in Minneapolis.
CLICK HERE to see the names of known people who died-by-ICE in 2025.
I would add the name of Roxsana Hernandez, a trans woman from Honduras who died by medical neglect in ICE custody in 2018.
Song is a compilation of songs learned in my tribal experiences, originals by Carliza and Jesse. Duet sung with Kim Skeesick.
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Back to the DMV. Twice.
We go back to the DMV. Twice.
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Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening exper...
Four Compassions
We look at trying to see ourselves accurately using step four from recovery.
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Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this...
Hard Bread
We orient ourselves to the new year through recovery readings.
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Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and duri...
Emails
We read emails from listeners, including one about us being doxed again.
Link to BOOKS — System Speak
NOTE: We also talked in the community about how the year of the horse does not start until later in the winter due to following the lunar calendar. For me/us, that coincides with my "new year" (birthday, actual, not when celebrated) as well as our "new year" from when we moved last time (which brought the celebration back to actual). That led to a greater discussion about other cultures that also follow the lunar calendar, including both...
Flooded
The family talks about our experience in the PNW flood.
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Islands Unbanished
We share a therapy update about reconnecting to ourselves, and how that reconnects our timeline, too.
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Fantastic Bees
Flood.
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We share a therapy update about learning we are the only ones who can rescue our inner children (littles).
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The Hot Butler
The kids share about their summer, and we talk about untangling from shiny happy.
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Not the Price, Chapter 6
We read and respond to chapter 6 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.
Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.
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Emails - Hot Topic: News Cycle Response
We share a response to the current news cycle.
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Guest: Wendy Lemke
We talk with clinician Wendy Lemke about hypnosis.
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Guests: Matt Robinson & Milissa Kaufman from McLean
We speak with Matt Robinson & Milissa Kaufman from McLean.
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IndigeQueer
We share about the Canoe Journey with our tribe.
More information about the history of Two Spirit:
From The Indigenous Foundation
From Diverse Elders
From Wikipedia
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Guest: Sandra Simpson
We speak with lived experience guest, Sandra Simpson.
https://www.traumacontinuum.org/leap/
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Unconquerable
We explain about euphoric recall.
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Taylor’s Massage
We share our first experience getting a massage.
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Emails
We read and respond to listener emails.
Resources referenced:
The Unique and Its Property (Max Stirner)
Lucretius' poem De Rerum Natura
"Living for Pleasure: An Epicurean Guide to Life" by Emily A. Austin (Oxford University Press, 2022) for an easy textbook-esque introduction
"A Few Days in Athens" by Frances Wright (1822)
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Not the Price, Chapter 5
We read and respond to chapter 5 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.
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Annihilation Anxiety
We jump right into searching about "annihilation anxiety" after the previous podcast interview.
Referenced links in order of finding them:
Chicago Analysis
Encyclopedia
Moral Injury Layer
Journal Article
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Guest: Doris D'Hooghe
We talk with guest Doris D'Hooghe from the Trauma Center in Belgium.
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Emails: Healing Em, Healing Me
We read and respond to a listener email.
We do talk about protecting inside Littles and Babies.
Note: For clarity, the part of us referenced is “Em” who used to be our very depressed part (overwhelmed mom) and the community person we saw in a zoomies was “M”.
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ReEmpower-ing
We share a therapy update about power dynamics, exploitation, colonization, and taking back our own power.
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Free Pizza
We went bowling.
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Not the Price, Chapter 4
We read and respond to chapter 4 of Not the Price of Admission by Laura Brown.
Our website is HERE: System Speak Podcast.
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You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. Once you are in, you can use a non-Apple device or non-safari browser to join groups HERE. Once you are set up, then the website and app work on any device just fine. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, movie groups, social events, and classes. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by j...
Showgirling (Part 4 of 4)
We do our first listen to The Life of a Showgirl.
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