I am OPTimist

In 1976, I came to the United States of America to spend the summer. The funny part is that my mom, after my father died, decided to hire a Catholic nun from the United States. When I said “hire,” she actually sought an agency to see if there was a nun that could come and live in our house so we could practice English while my mother was working and would help us with our homework.

Alas, that didn’t last very long because we drove the nun, Sister Mary Hubert, crazy. She was probably around 55 years...

I

What we inherit from our family is not only material. It is the nervous system, the fear, the patterns carried in the body across generations.

Giving the body enough space to feel them, making a different movement, and finding the order of love is how we begin to receive.

II

When I am sleeping, I am not in my body. When I wake, I land softly. Looking around. Breathing. Feeling. Being.

I know I have said very few things these days as these are emotional and body experiences.<...

There is a figure in Buddhist cosmology called the hungry ghost. It has a vast, distended stomach and a throat so narrow that nothing can pass through. It is always reaching, as it has never felt fed. I did not know for a long time that I had organized a significant portion of my relational life around that figure. This time the story shows the same wound from a different angle, the degree itself rather than only the pattern, and the figures who have stood on that degree before.

I am very touched these days...

There is a sense of freedom that connects everything that I create, which mirrors how I think, and what emerges belongs to me, running on my machine, answering to no one else.

My telos is a local operating system that reflects my intelligence, my synthesis, my accumulated understanding across every domain I work in, maintained by my own hands.

My methodology is low time preference applied to infrastructure. I invest the time once to understand and build something correctly, and then it runs at zero ongoing cost, zero dependency. The upfront cost is attention and...

Hi. I can’t believe how fast this year is flying. We reached the solstice.

I am very happy to share that I am relaunching my website.

This is a soft launch, because I still have to update a lot of projects, and I will do that in due time, without going into crazy crisis mode.

I wanted this to come from a very personal place.

I started designing websites back in the 90s, learning code and creating these environments, or experiences, because I wanted to create something that di...

Another improvised rant

Have a great week 😍

listening to 👇

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This week, a fast recorded message, impromptu, unedited, with real life background noise.

Such is life!

Beautiful & messy.

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I forgot to mention the north node is in gate 55 and Venus now on gate 39 create the channel of emoting- play your favorite songs loud and allow the body to provoke deep emotions either dance or cry or both lol.

Jin shin Jyutsu chart.

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There is a big silence between words because there is a lot of space in my emotional body.

I do not want to talk about it. I want to feel it.

I am in reset. Calibration mode.

Feeling a shift. Now understanding more this period we are in, which is not about waiting but about small movements with purpose. The energy is moving, and when the energy moves, everything else comes along.

A smooth surface offers no challenge. Evolution needs contrast and right timing. I am calibrating...

Do you know the difference between a sacrifice and an offering?

I think we have gone a little bit cuckoo with the word sacrifice. You know, in essence, it comes from the word sacred, but it has been devoid of an important part of that sacredness that is transformational. Therefore it is lacking in full meaning.

Sacrifice is the action of consecrating. So what is it that one is consecrating without using a transformational part that has disappeared in the meaning of it? Now it reads as something you have to give up...

One of the things that I am deeply in contemplation about is what identity really means. Do I need to identify as a person? As my gender? As my vocation? Just as a human being? Or as a polymath that has so many different variations depending on which angle I am willing to serve and to express in that given moment.

"I thought of a labyrinth of labyrinths, of one sinuous spreading labyrinth that would encompass the past and the future and in some way involve the stars."

Jorge Luis Borges — The Ga...

"Seek and learn to recognize who and what, in the midst of inferno, are not inferno, then make them endure, give them space."

~Italo Calvino, Invisible Cities

Worth without witness... is that what value really is? Fire, then form. To go forth in trust, things I left behind. The uncomfortable angle of a quincunx is a pressure that is nameless. The space is generated to tweak slowly. Fearless in a dream as the snake tilts the lid, raw impulse unleashes an emergence. Profound perception: the light goes through the door identifying...

What has initiated has been taking shape as it grounds. This is Taurus season. Full moon in Scorpio on May 1st, a lunation as when I was born 62 years ago, happy solar return to me. Living with a Scorpio moon in my 9th house has made me seek for deep truth, only to realize after a long journey, that it emanates from within.

There is a particular kind of discomfort that comes with understanding that something new is emerging from within.

My body has been recording this passage sometimes as tension in the...

Aries stellium season is here; a rare concentration. The energy is intense, and so is the opportunity to observe the speed of things on a moment-to-moment basis. New Moon conjunct Chiron on the 17th, wishing you take space for your individual self as you integrate your peace within. Stability grounds through what you value, while crisis reveals where your leverage is thin, as it also shows where perfection is inexistent.

The Fool moves with risk and rhythm, sometimes feeling butterflies in the stomach while leaning into the unknown and trusting it. I am sharing this beautiful song...

What happens when you leave space for yourself? You don’t do it in just one day that you cross off the calendar and cancel your appointments, so you decide to go out for a walk and keep walking the whole day without caring about the things that you’re leaving behind. No. I mean something more profound than that. What happens if you take time and space for that part of yourself that didn’t even know it needed that space? It needed that time. What happens? Something marvelous happens.

It feels like the space...

We are in the age of new beginnings after the several new/full moons this year that announced both dissolutions and brand new pastures. Pair the eclipses, the equinox and with the Saturn and Neptune new cycle, the upcoming weeks will show us an opportunity to show up and finally step UP to our new individual ways.

2027 is approaching and although it is not a prediction, ‘cause we are already wary of it, the cross of planning is closing. When Uranus finally enters Gemini at the end of April, and Jupiter moves to Leo this summer while th...

## Core Realization

I saw the truth of my own delusion.I was projecting and I was having a relationship with my projection and with my own shadow. What I wanted, like the kind of relationship that I was expecting, is something that I created in my head.It was a transactional thing. It was me trying to equate everything that I poured into the relationship and say, hey, you're not doing your part.The big awakening came when I took away the light over the surface and switched the focus towards me.That was the shift!

Hey, I thought I would jump in very quickly.

NOTE: I wrote part of this text as small posts that I shared in FOTT community, but I thought that it’s a universal thought process that I want to share with you as outer and inner conflict are one and the same. These days, I don’t feel like sharing that much. I’ve been in very slow-internal processes of decoding a bunch of projections that I didn’t know were my shadows hence decoupling from them has been extremely liberating. So when I saw the light, it was poof, like the brain emoji exploding 🤯 in slow-motion.

It cou...

“Time forks perpetually toward innumerable futures.”

— Jorge Luis Borges, The Garden of Forking Paths

In Borges’ story, Ts’ui Pên attempts to write a novel and build a labyrinth. Everyone assumes that the novel is chaotic and the labyrinth is never completed. The revelation is that they are the same thing, because the labyrinth is the novel and the novel is not linear. One storyline does not exclude the others, but every possible outcome occurs. In one version of reality, a character kills someone. In another one, he is killed. In another one, both survive. Re...

Note; this article has been sitting on the draft box since last Friday, but my only “excuse” is that I am feeling very self-oriented, self centered, what others would call selfish; the eclipses and the Saturn and Neptune conjunction have been both a culmination and initiation in my relational fields. Big shifts in my psychic - emotional terrains unfolding.

Enjoy this, I have another two articles waiting to be sent… no rush, time can wait lol…

Opening

“We cannot in good conscience accede to their request.”

— Dario Amodei, CEO of...

Movement I: Epistemology

Metacognition is the awareness of awareness itself; the capacity to observe the structure that generates thought while experience is unfolding.

The unconscious mind is capable of discernment; it has its own delicate sensibility. It knows how to choose, how to divine.

— Jules Henri Poincaré, “Mathematical Creation,” lecture delivered to the Société de Psychologie de Paris, 1908; later published in Science and Method (1908).

As I was browsing X, I bumped into Eileen Gu [Watch video at the end of Movement I,] who had just won Olympic medals. She was a...

The word comes from the Latin incentivum — that which sets the tune. From incinere: in, into; canere, to sing. It means to set the pitch. To begin the song.

An incentive is a motivating force that moves someone toward a specific action. It can be material, emotional, intellectual, or spiritual. In economic language, it refers to a reward or consequence that influences behavior. In a broader sense, it is the internal or external stimulus that activates desire and decision. Incentive answers a simple question: why act.

Most people inherit their incentives wi...

I know the title sounds very dark, but actually when things collapse, other things emerge, so I am more focused on the emergence part rather than the collapsing. Yet it is here, the famous ultra-famous season of eclipses and the conjunction of a life time cycle.

Today I will not speak that much. It is a small reflection, a very tiny one.

What do you want to be?

How do you want to contribute?

What is it that you observe that can be completely different in your landscape?

In this flow, mind and matter are not separate substances. Rather, they are different aspects of one whole and unbroken movement.

-David Bohm from Wholeness and the Implicate Order

So what happens when you come down off the tower into the battlefield and your point of view changes from overall to, I’ve got to deal with the next thing. Have any of you ever done either Taijiquan, shadowboxing, or Aikido’s Randori. They teach adaptability, spatial awareness, and non-resistance, requiring the defender to redirect energy, stay mobile, and constantly face new threats. In t...

Man can choose either to identify himself with the results of the past, or to become a creative participant in the unfolding of a new cycle.

Dane Rudhyar, The Pulse of Life

The question these days that arises inside of me is how do you rebuild when everything is crumbling and what stands up is just the columns of old structures that no longer stand. How do you rebuild, what do you save, what do you actually eliminate for good.

Because of having been under the weather for over three weeks, it was...

At the beginning of the year, when I wrote January Initiations, I spoke about timing; I spoke about how this year would not open with a single event, but with a sequence of initiations and activations that unfold gradually. What we are living now is part of that sequence, the Full Moon in Leo on Feb 1st, is a culmination, depending on how one experiences it, because it is preparing us for what comes next.

On February 17, we have the first eclipse of the year, a solar eclipse at 28 degrees of Aquarius, this is a very important...

Small rant: I recorded myself spontaneously. 👆👆

In the past, I was used to guilt and duty as the way I showed up, where I would bring structure, solidity, integrity, and behavior in exchange for acceptance and love. Right now, what people respond to is when I open my heart, and that’s where I feel much better. I just have to slowly start trusting myself to move from one side of the neural axis to the next.

Bitcoin is love. That’s how I felt this weekend.This is lived experience.

I’m in Medellín, the last ho...

You are about to enter into Monika’s universe, where her inquiry may align you to new dimensions. You are about to cross a threshold into the unknown; (surrender to the experience).

The body is a temple, it’s the vessel that has density and allows us to really experience, through our senses, the nature of our reality. The body as the logos is also the doorway of incarnation, the place where consciousness becomes experience. It is the body that is also miraculous, and it has such an incredible genetic imprint, at the same time the...

You are about to enter into Monika’s universe, where her inquiry may align you to new dimensions. You are about to cross a threshold into the unknown; (surrender to the experience).

Hello everybody. Today when I write this is the 1st of January. Even though in antiquity many cultures did not start the year on January 1st, the Western world normalized this date across the globe through the Julian and later the Gregorian calendar, a civic agreement that shaped how time is counted, how administration moves, and how decisions are timed. The Ro...

Stanza I

Embodying my nervous system

Oh Lord, this one is curvy and bold, sincere and curious, courageous and soft, strong when needed. This is my song for 2025.Lord, I do thank you for remembrance. I do thank my soul for listening to my inner voice screaming silence and no more attention, where distracting factors kept me from being kind to my beautiful self.

Embracing a softer edge has been the challenge, since I thrive in structure, order, and support. Yet trust needed wisdom that is lived, not read or transmitted even. It...

The Beach; the Vortex; the Field

Today’s Monday, just came back from the beach. It was such a beautiful moment. It was very windy, and it was very sunny, and the air was crisp, and the water was salty, crisp as well. A little bit violent, but not too much for me not to venture in. At times I think about the vortex where I live, where these lines meet and create this energy field that makes me feel so home, connected, and where I can almost measure the qualitative energy that ma...

I feel that it is imperative to move towards a complete integration of what we call the divine to what people call the source, where some more religious call G*d, Christ, Jesus, the Buddha, Mohammed, Shiva, the light, the divine, WUJI anything you can call what is sacred.

What we call the core of it all, All that Is, aka consciousness. Instead of staying in a place where we are completely divided inside and out of ourselves because of ideologies, rituals, perspectives, that they don’t seem to make any more sense. So there is an ur...

Here I am sitting in the middle of the night, probably 9 PM, and I changed all the bulbs in my house to red light, so it looks a little bit like the red district, but it has really helped me change my sleeping patterns, because as soon as I turn on the lights I feel like winding down. And I am also waking up really early, so I can see the sunrise, and it just changes everything.

I’ve been wanting to stay quiet, but then there are other things that I need to process, so basically wh...

Is your value pegged to your priced possessions, your cherished relationships, your status, or simply to your truth? How can you trust yourself to make the right decisions about your time on earth?

Current Experiment: echoing July 1944, when forty four allied nations met in Bretton Woods, New Hampshire, to design a new monetary order that pegged their currencies to the dollar and the dollar to gold.

In my current limited and still studying understanding I am watching two structures being built at the same time and together they change what the...

Behavior

What does that even mean, to behave?

We can start with the premise of what behavior means etymologically. In English, to behave comes from Old English “behaven”: be and have together, to hold, to surround, to contain, to have oneself in a certain way, the way we carry and conduct ourselves in front of others and in front of life. In French we would say comporter, which is to bring together, to gather who we are and how we act into one gesture. So behavior is how we hold ourselves and how we carry ours...

The Tenth house is the performing persona. How do I portray myself out there? Am I writing the best article? Am I speaking the right way? Am I at the right party? Am I meeting the right people? Am I climbing the ladder? Tenth house is b******t, especially in a place like New York. It can eat you up from the core, from the heart. But guess what, you do it. You do it because your ambition is so big that you are so ready to sacrifice everything else just to be in a position. And then when...

What kind of silence in the outside world can teach the inner world of curiosity? There are so many things that I would like to share, but I have decided to withhold them for a bit because I want to savor the insights and the transformations that I am feeling, which have been rewiring my nervous system. Two thousand twenty-five will prove to be a very profound year for my own life, where I actually re-parent myself and really hold my space as a sacred one. I will come back with more information, but that is all I am...

note when I was recording the article, I went rogue in many parts, and I decided to leave the text as is, and the recording aswell…

Time and Frequency

I knew I had to get on the road again. I remember years ago when I used to love to travel, open my suitcase, drop some clothes, and put myself on an airplane, just going to the next adventure. I have done a lot of traveling since I was a little girl. Once my father died, my mom taught us that the best way to...

“As I wrote in The Nature of My Reality energy, power, and motion intertwine within the realm of creation. The same process that transforms effort into value is the one that animates consciousness itself, a continuous act of weighing options and arriving at a choice.”

Every thought, instinct, emotion, and consideration forms a current of movement within consciousness, an energetic economy of decision-making.

What is Praxeology? the study of intentional human behavior.

“It recognizes that our choices aren’t arbitrary but purposeful, driven by subjective needs, all within the context of scarce r...