Super Feeler: A BPD Podcast
Dive into the experiences of living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).Hear powerful stories from individuals with lived experience, their families, researchers, and mental health professionals. Each episode provides a strength-based perspective on mental health, filled with humor, raw emotion, and validation.Every other week you will learn from a group of Super Feelers about how they navigate the world using Dialectic Behavioural Therapy skills. Whether you’re navigating these challenges yourself, supporting a loved one, or simply looking to understand more about the complexities of emotional regulation, Super Feeler is here to inform, inspire, and connect. Subscribe to the pod...
BPD Relationships: Chris and Christina
Christina and Chris (already off to an adorable start with the names) join the BPD Relationships Mini Series to talk about what is was like to finally find the emo boy of Christina's dreams, their nightly ritual to make sure there's open communication about how they're doing, and the huge importance of patience.
These two are relationship goals and I know you'll absolutely love this convo!
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Making Music in the Middle of the Mess (feat Alana Hil)
Singer-songwriter Alana Hil joins the show and chats about how her lived experience with BPD shapes her world and her art. Alana reflects on travelling the world, navigating challenging relationships and the complicated LA scene she finds herself in while pursuing her dreams.
We explore how music has become both an outlet and a mirror for her experiences, the role of self-help books in her healing, and the importance of being challenged and supported by her partner. Alana speaks candidly about the duality of BPD — how feeling deeply can be overwhelming, but also a powerful sour...
BPD Relationships: Brittany and Justin
Meet Justin and Brittany two awesome passionate people that Laurie actually knows IRL!
Last year Justin was diagnosed with BPD following a really chaotic period of their relationship that they had to work through together.
Justin describes feeling at times that being in a relationship is like being a wildhorse that Brittany is trying to tame and we discuss how easy it is to feel more comfortable chasing chaos.
Brittany talks about how she feels like she changed the rules to the game, knowing ho...
Processing Through Journaling (feat. Michelle)
Michelle (@the.mindful.wildflower) joins the podcast for a second time to talk all about how journaling has become a tool in our wellness journeys.
She started journaling in highschool, and I started a couple of years ago in my early 30's so our perspectives and process differs quite a bit.
Our hope is that this episode gives you some ideas for incorporating journaling into your life, with or without amazing journalling resources like The Mindful Wildflower's Big Feelings Journal or Journalling Sessions.
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BPD Relationships: Shannon and Scott
You know Shannon from our other mini series (literally all of them) and this time she's joined by her incredible husband Scott to talk all about their relationship!
The themes of their relationship success is lots of communication, honesty and a mutual commitment to learning more about borderline personality disorder and ways to regulate together.
Love these two and their love!
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Untangling Labels of Psychopath, Antisocial and Borderline Personality (feat. Nine)
Nine has been diagnosed with anti-social personality disorder, borderline personality disorder and labelled a psychopath by psychiatrists. We dive into the impacts of significant childhood trauma on their diagnoses, the cultural differences around mental health in Hong Kong and Canada, stigma that goes unspoken when it comes to psychopathy and anti social personality disorder.
Together we dive into what each of their diagnosed personality disorders (and psychopathy which is not actually in the DSM), how they manifest and intersect and what life looks like trying to navigate the world with all three.
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BPD Relationships: Aaron and Laurie
We're kicking off a brand new called BPD Relationships!
In this series we're diving into one of the most misunderstood areas of life for people living with Borderline Personality Disorder.
Relationships are often where stigma against people with BPD shows up the strongest — but we’re here to challenge that narrative. In this mini series we'll unpack the myths and misconceptions about BPD and romantic relationships, exploring what healthy love can truly look like when one partner lives with BPD.
In this first episode Shannon interviews Laurie and her husb...
First Survival, Then Self Discovery (feat. Danny)
Danny has a historical diagnosis of borderline personality disorder and works as a social worker in the mental health field. He is passionate about destigmatizing BPD and believes that validation is the key to working with BPD clients.
Danny is also an incredible advocate for better treatment for transgender people like himself in all aspects of life but in particular when accessing health services and within their workplaces.
Together we discuss the impact of childhood trauma and the complex intersection of gender identity and BPD.
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BPD Symptoms: ICD Criteria
Well it's officially our final episode of the BPD Symptoms Series! In this episode we technically aren't talking about DSM criteria for borderline personality disorder but instead we're talking about the different diagnostic model that is used primarily outside of North America.
We specifically talk about the concept of having a severity scale/continuum for personality disorders and the potential pros and cons for people living with BPD.
We also dive into three symptoms that aren't in the DSM that we find particularly interesting:
1. A view of self as bad, inadequate, guilty and con...
The Impact of Intergenerational Trauma on BPD (feat. Gwen)
Gwen's story is one that many Super Feelers can relate to. With many generations of complex trauma that impacted each generation in different ways, she came to the realization that the symptoms of borderline personality disorder (BPD) go back at least as far as her maternal grandmother, her mother and now herself.
BPD isn't an excuse for behaviours, it's an explanation - something that Gwen has had to come to terms with while learning more about the disorder, herself, and what it means to live as a Super Feeler with BPD.
BPD Symptoms: Self Harm
Self-harm is something that the majority of people with BPD experience at some point in their lives (prevalence estimates range from 50-80+%).
We decided to separate suicide and self-harm for the purposes of this mini series because the two things are often conflated and are actually super distinct phenomena.
Together we explore our personal experiences with self-harm, how they different from suicidality, and how we've learned healthier coping mechanisms.
Throughout our discussion we emphasizes the importance of harm reduction and the need for understanding and compassion in addressing self-harm (aka don't freak out if...
Being Open About Your Needs at Work (feat. Christina)
Christina joins Super Feeler to talk about her experiences navigating borderline personality disorder (BPD) in the workplace and relationships. We discuss her experiences with advocating for her needs at work, the importance of skills and sobriety, and finding her perfect partner.
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BPD Symptoms: Dissociation
Dissociation is one of the hardest to explain BPD symptoms. It looks different for everyone and sometimes we don't even know when we are in a dissociated state.
In this episode Laurie, Shane, Shannon and Kat discuss the complexities of dissociation by sharing our personal experiences and insights on how dissociation manifests and impacts us. We also explore how dissociation is often times a coping mechanism stemming from complex traumatic experiences and the fine line between it being a helpful protective factor and a "symptom" to be a target of change.
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When Childhood Trauma Leads to Multiple Identifies (feat. Kat)
Kat (they/them) joins to explore their journey of understanding their multiple alters/parts and how their suspected Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) works alongside their Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), and Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD).
Dissociative Identity Disorder is what was formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder. The name actually changed in 1994 but tons of people don't know that!
Kat shares their experiences of feeling different from others, the impact of significant childhood trauma, and the complexities of their internal world, including the presence of as many as 12 distinct par...
BPD Symptoms: Suicide (part 2)
In part 2 of the suicide symptom episode we give more into our personal stories with suicide ideation, attempts and survival.
We discuss the longstanding impacts on ourselves and our loved ones and the importance of connection, planning for crisis and recognizing our reasons to stay alive.
Of course this is a sensitive topic. Please listen with care or don't listen at all!
If you are in an immediate crisis please call 911 or go to your nearest emergency room. If you need someone to talk to about your suicidal thoughts please call 988 if you are...
BPD Symptoms: Suicide (part 1)
We're talking suicide - something that impacts almost everyone with borderline personality disorder in some way. A vast majority of us have experienced suicidal thoughts and as many as 10% of us will die by suicide at some point.
Naturally this episode gets deep and you should listen with care.
In part 1 (of 2) we talk language around suicide, stigma, shame, and start to get into our personal experiences with suicide.
Suicide is a real thing and it's important we talk about it openly. It may be hard, but it's the truth.
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Sexual Assault and Fighting for Justice (feat. Molly)
Molly has experienced plenty of her own BPD stigma including as part of the legal system following a rape.
We also discuss the importance of therapy, the challenges of finding her biological family, and her discovering that she was Indigenous as an adult.
Molly's story highlights the complexities of mental health, drug use, trauma, and the search for self-acceptance.
This episode discuses rape and sexual assault in detail - please listen with caution and take care of yourself while you listen.
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The History and Development of the ISSPD and Studies of Narcissistic Personality Disorder (Feat. Dr. Elsa Ronningstam)
Dr. Elsa Ronningstam is an expert in narcissistic personality disorders, an Associate Professor of Psychology at Harvard University and the former president of the International Society of the Study of Personality Disorders (ISSPD). She joins the podcast to discuss the history and evolution of the International Society for the Study of Personality Disorders (ISSPD) and the importance of international collaboration in research and advocacy.
Dr. Ronningstam emphasizes the significance of psychoeducation and the various treatment modalities available for individuals with personality disorders, particularly focusing on narcissistic personality disorder. The conversation highlights the importance of empathy and understanding in...
BPD Symptoms: Intense Anger
Intense, uncontrollable anger is the scariest part of borderline personality disorder for a lot of people. And I don't mean scary for those around us (although them too) but for many of us it's a shameful, uncontrollable rage that feels like it will ruin our lives - and it absolutely ruins our happiness.
Dave, Shannon, Laurie, Heather and Kat talk about what anger looks like in their lives, the differences between the internal and external expressions of anger, and how we have learned to manage our anger and unproductive coping mechanisms that often come with it.
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Resilience and the Study of Suicide in Teens (feat. Dr. Shirley Yen)
Dr. Shirley Yen, is a clinical psychologist and researcher at Harvard Medical School and board member of the International Society of the Study of Personality Disorders (ISSPD) in addition to so many other roles and publications that you can learn about here.
In this episode we discuss the critical issues surrounding adolescent mental health, particularly focusing on suicide, non-suicidal self injury (NSSI) and the importance of resilience-based interventions.
Dr. Yen shares her personal motivations for studying these topics, the complexities of self-harm, and we discuss two of the most a...
BPD Stigma and Changing the Narrative (feat. Ciara)
Ciara Toddington, is a new registered clinical counselor who is passionate about destigmatizing borderline personality disorder (BPD) for her clients and providing dialectic behavioral therapy (DBT) in a way that works for them.
Together we discuss what led Ciara to becoming a counsellor, the stigma around BPD in education and clinical settings, and the importance of working to change the narrative.
To find out more about Ciara's work and to reach out about her therapy services you can find her at the Unitive Wellness Clinic in Vancouver British Columbia Ca...
Meet the Man Walking Across Canada for BPD Awareness (feat. Rakesh)
Rakesh Kumar (@healingwitheverystep) is currently walking across Canada to raise awareness about borderline personality disorder.
Rakesh shares his personal journey, the cultural challenges surrounding mental health in the South Asian community, and the impact of finding peer support.
Rakesh's inspiring mission just goes to show the incredible perseverance that people with BPD embody.
As of October 2nd 2025 - Rakesh has walked 2,798km (1739 miles) for which he brought no money and has been relying on generous donations of food and spaces to sleep by strangers he meets along the way.
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BPD Symptoms: Unstable Self Image/Identity Disturbance
Who am I? That's a question a lot of people with borderline personality disorder find themselves asking. We're expert chameleons in ways that are really helpful but our shifting self-image can also cause a lot of distress.
In this episode, I'm joined by Dave, Kat, and Shannon to explore the BPD symptom of identity disturbance (aka unstable self-image). We talk about all of the existential questions, fears of our own inauthenticity, and the ways people with BPD often shape-shift to fit in, be accepted and survive.
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Swinging, Parenting, Addiction and The Chaos of it All (feat Heather)
Heather the self proclaimed chaos goblin shares her story of self-discovery, learning how to deal with BPD and sobriety and finding her voice to raise awareness about Super Feelers like us.
You'll recognize Heather from the BPD Symptoms and DBT Skills mini series but in this episode we dive even deeper and discuss her life as a swinger, a parent and a person who is just starting to learn the skills that are already helping change her life.
We discuss the challenges of self-doubt, the impact of childhood experiences on...
BPD Symptoms: Intense Mood Swings
The emotional rollercoaster, intense mood swings, affective instability, over reacting, moody, etc. We've heard it all and we've lived it.
In this episode the whole crew gets into what it's like to struggle with intense mood swings as part of BPD.
We get into the importance of understanding subjective units of distress (SUD) scale, the stigma surrounding BPD and the misconceptions that often arise in discussions about emotional instability.
We also talk about the impact of intense emotions on relationships, our own self-worth and our ability to use our skills.
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My Best Friends Interview Me (feat. Beth, Patrick and Sara)
My incredible friends of 16+ years are my chosen family and have been with me through some of the hardest parts of my life.
Many people with BPD struggle with maintaining friendships and I hope this episode provides some insights into what supportive friendships look like, the work that goes into maintaining them, and gives you some good laughs to start off the season.
In this episode my friends ask me questions like:
You’re really good at making friends, how do you do it?What do you do when all of your friends are rea...Summer Announcements!
Super Feeler is out for the summer!!!!!
I'll be back in September with some of the best episodes yet and even more opportunities to connect with the community through peer support.
Find the links to all of the announcements in this episode below!
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Queer, Neurodivergent and Finding Community (feat. Shane)
Shane (@cvvnty_boi44) joins for a solo episode to share about his life story. From experiencing a hard divorce as a child, to cross country moves, breakups, navigating substance use, transitioning, and discovering his BPD and ADHD, Shane's personal journey is a rollercoaster that led him to finding the Queer community he so loves and becoming a Super Feeler!
Shane's story highlights the challenges faced by the queer community and the ongoing journey of self-discovery and acceptance as well as the struggle that self-medicating with substance use can add to mental health issues.
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BPD Symptoms: Impulsivity
Impulsivity is so much fun and so harmful often at the same time. It is really the most dialectic of the borderline personality disorder symptoms.
Together the panel shares about our experiences with impulsivity and how it presents as part of BPD and ADHD.
We finish off the episode sharing how we have learned to manage our impulsivity to prevent some of the harms associated without losing our fun and exciting lives that are often brought in through impulsivity.
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Using Your Platform to Raise Awareness (feat. Darcy)
Darcy is Miss Personality Northern Alberta and uses her platform to talk about borderline personality disorder.
While Darcy hasn't been diagnosed with BPD she identifies with the disorder. Together we explore the impact of her childhood circumstances including a really challenging divorce, and how she found her voice through pageantry.
Learn more about personality pageants click here.
Find her on instagram @darcystanly and @catchthesplit
Find her blog here.
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BPD Symptoms: Chronic Feelings of Emptiness
Chronic feelings of emptiness are a tough symptom to describe if you haven't experienced it before. In the third episode of the BPD Symptoms Mini Series Laurie is joined by Kat, Shane, and Shannon to talk about one of the lesser understood but deeply impactful symptoms of BPD.
We touch on where this feeling (or lack of feeling) shows up in our lives, its connection to dissociation and childhood trauma, and what helps when the emptiness feels overwhelming.
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No Longer Denying Diagnosis Leads to Normal-ish Parenting (feat. Jennifer)
Jennifer is a marriage and family counsellor living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). She shares her personal journey, including her experiences with therapy, the importance of receiving the correct information/diagnosis in order to plan treatment, parenting, and the stigma she’s experienced.
Jennifer has spent a lot of time talking to her kids in an age appropriate way about her BPD and explaining what it means. This is helpful to her so she can stop the "hand-me-down" disordered thinking.
*just a note that Laurie refers to Jennifer in the episode as a counsellor rathe...
BPD Symptoms: Unstable and Intense Interpersonal Relationships
It's week 2 of the BPD Symptoms mini series! This week, Laurie, Heather, Kat, and Shane sit down to talk about the rollercoaster of intense relationships — you know, the ones that swing between idealization and devaluation, splitting, with favorite people and kind of take over our lives....
We unpack what it’s like to move through the world with the ability to connect deeply in the first moment, the fear of losing it, and the positives and negatives of the intensity of the relationships.
We talk A LOT about splitting and favorite people/persons.
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Why Certification Matters: Discussing DBT-LBC Certification (feat. Meredith Meyer, LMFT)
Meredith Meyer, LMFT, from the DBT Linehan Board of Certification comes on The Super Feeler Podcast to talk about the significance of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) certification and full DBT programs that are properly aligned with Marsha Linehan’s vision.
We also discuss what brought DBT into Meredith’s life, its application in marriage and family therapy, the importance of peer support,
If you’ve always wondered what it means to have “full/comprehensive” DBT, why certification is a thing, how to find the best DBT therapists, or are looking into certification for yourself this is episode...
BPD Symptoms: Frantic Efforts to Avoid Real or Imagined Abandonment
Welcome to a brand new Super Feeler mini-series!
Every other week, we're diving deep into the nine symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) with a panel of people who live it!
In our first episode, we’re talking about frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment — a symptom that many of us feel in our bones. We get into what this looks like in relationships, parenting, friendships, and how we've started to build more self-trust and resilience.
This series will feature some Super Feelers you already know and love...
Creating a Life Worth Living Through DBT (feat. @the.mindful.wildflower)
Michelle, the creator of the IG page @the.mindful.wildflower shares about her journey with BPD, diving head first into DBT and what it was like to move across the country, quit her job and go through a breakup all at once.
Michelle shares her journey of navigating friendship, healing and recovery in a new place and how it has motivated her to help others learn DBT skills.
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Diana Partington is back to talk with our DBT Skills cast about what it was like to listen to us work through her book together!
Together we discuss about the transformative power of DBT and the importance of community support in the journey of recovery.
A lot of tears are shed - thank you for being on this beautiful journey with us.
Check out Diana's new project at community.dbtforlife.com !
Throughout this series we're using the book 'DBT for Life' by Diana Partington to guide our discussions. Get your own cop...
Mental Health Advocacy on Campus (feat. Kails)
Kails (@prettybpdpisces) joins the pod to share about her BPD journey and how it led her to mental health advocacy. She discusses her work with NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) and her efforts to create a more supportive mental health community on her university campus.
To learn more about her university club click here!
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DBT Skills: Alternate Rebellion
Let's chat about Alternate Rebellion - could this be the most important time in recent history to be talking about this DBT skill?
The conversation explores the complexities of rebellion, bravery, and the importance of sharing personal stories in the context of mental health and healing.
Trigger warning: Throughout the episode we speak about sexual assault, abuse and other potentially triggering topics. Please listen with caution and take good care of yourself if you listen.
Throughout this series we're using the book 'DBT for Life' by Diana Partington to guide our d...
The Power of Accessible DBT Skills (feat. Dr. Kiki Fehling)
Dr. Kiki Fehling, a super feeler psychologist, author, influencer, and super feeler joins the pod to talk all about Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT), its accessibility, and the importance of skills for all parts of life.
Kiki shares about their journey learning DBT while training as a psychologist and their desire to develop more accessible DBT-based resources.
Laurie and Kiki also compare notes on their heart issues (Kiki’s heart attack and Laurie’s heart rhythm disorder) and how they used DBT skills to cope through the attacks themselves and the subsequent treatm...
