lovelustfear
lovelustfear exposes real stories about toxic dating and relationships. Host Jake Deptula (Strictly Stalking) welcomes storytellers into candid conversations, revealing the decisions they made and dilemmas they faced when better judgment got lost in a haze of desire. Every episode explores true dating and relationship stories—from the awkward and uncomfortable to the shocking and bizarre to the disturbing and downright dangerous. lovelustfear is a compelling, terrifying, but always insightful exploration into toxic dating and relationships that will have you abandoning courtesy and listening with caution. If you would like to share your story on lovelustfear or would like your st...
lovelustfridays x Weird True Crime | Unbearable Pain, Unbreakable Spirit: Judy Malinowski’s Battle for Justice

In this episode, Jake and Michele are joined by Gina and Amber from the Weird True Crime podcast to discuss the tragic story of Judy Malinowski, a mother of two who was set on fire by her abuser, Michael Slager, and bravely fought for 696 days to survive—ultimately making legal history by testifying against him.
The discussion delves into the devastating impact of domestic violence, the legal significance of Judy’s case, her brave testimony, and the historic role she played in speaking out against her abuser. The panel also explores the warning signs of abusive relationships, the diff...
lovelustfear | presents | You Probably Think This Story’s About You

Introducing: You Probably Think This Story’s About You — This isn’t your typical true crime story. Brittani Ard steps back into the shadowy labyrinth of memories, scars, and fragile ties that bind us to our past. Where wounds still ache and the bonds of connection blur between salvation and entrapment. After revealing her own story in the first 8 chapters, she’s pulling at the threads of the past—threads so delicate they threaten to unravel everything. This time, it’s not just her story. It’s the stories of others whose lives intertwine with hers in ways no one could have pre...
lovelustfridays | From Tragedy to Advocacy: How Peggy Klinke Inspired a Movement

In this episode of lovelustfridays, host Jake Deptula and producer Haley Gray discuss the importance of National Stalking Awareness Month. They discuss the legacy of Peggy Klinke, whose tragic murder led to the establishment of National Stalking Awareness Month, and discuss the significant work done by advocates like her sister, Debbie Riddle, and organizations such as SPARC. They delve into the often-overlooked crime of stalking, its relationship with domestic violence, and the misconceptions surrounding it. Haley shares her personal experience with stalking, highlighting the realization and challenges faced by victims. The conversation emphasizes the need for awareness, better legal support...
lovelustfridays x The Consult | FBI Profiling and Domestic Violence: The Deadly Case of Vashti Forrest

In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michelle Locke sit down with retired FBI agent and profiler Julia Cowley, who reflects on her 22-year career investigating serial killings, sex offenses, and other violent crimes. Julia discusses the realities of working as an FBI profiler, sharing her insights into high-profile cases, including those involving intimate partner violence. They cover the heartbreaking case of Vashti Forrest, a mother of two killed in 2011 after filing for divorce from her abusive husband, Brett Seacat, a police officer. Julia sheds light on the warning signs of domestic violence, the psychology of offenders, and...
lovelustfridays | Dating, Drinking, and The Challenges of Sobriety

In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke are joined by Debra, who shared her harrowing story in lovelustfear Episode 12, “I’ve Always Seemed To Attract The Crazy Type.”
Debra talks about her journey to get sober after a tough first marriage and dealing with toxic relationships. They dive into the challenges of staying sober, how addiction can impact relationships, and how important it is to have self-worth and resilience in recovery. Michele and Jake also share their own experiences with alcohol and dating and the pressure to drink at social events. They also discuss online...
lovelustfridays | Reflections, Connections, Dating Deal Breakers, and the Problems with People Pleasing: A Look Back at 2024

In this lovelustfridays 2024 Year-End Wrap-Up, Hosts Jake, Michele and Producer Haley engage in a candid conversation about relationships, personal growth, and the valuable lessons they've learned throughout 2024.
Jake opens up about his three dating rules—and why they still keep getting broken. Michelle reveals her essential dating hygiene must-haves, while Haley reflects on her people-pleasing tendencies and where they stem from. In addition, they delve into the application of AI—specifically ChatGPT—to analyze their personalities and uncover surprising insights. The conversation wraps up with an exciting announcement: a brand new podcast series for 2025, aimed at demystifying the legal...
lovelustfridays | Overcoming Toxic Love: From Heartbreak to Healing

Host Jake Deptula and family law attorney Michelle Locke are joined by Lauryn from Episode 17 of lovelustfear, titled “You Have to Learn to Trust Me.”Â
Lauryn reflects on her first toxic relationship, sharing the emotional toll of repeated breakups and reconciliations that led her to question her self-worth. She describes how these painful cycles pushed her to emotional extremes and behaviors she didn’t recognize in herself. Lauryn also opens up about her struggles with body image, self-confidence, and how societal pressures influenced her perception of beauty. The conversation delves into the challenges women face today, the journey to self...
lovelustfear | lauryn | you have to learn to trust me

Lauryn’s romance with her movie theater coworker spirals into a toxic cycle of heartbreak, doubt, and obsession, leaving her emotionally crushed but driven to prove her instincts right.
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(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(02:08) about lauryn
(03:14) lauryn’s story
(31:26) questions & answers
(38:49) closing thoughts
(39:53) charity & organizations
(40:23) submit your story
(40:34) disclaimer
quotes
"...in middle school when girls and boys were starting to pay more attention to each other. And I had crushes, but they were not reciprocated..." - Lauryn
“At the time, I was ju...
lovelustfridays x The Unlovely Truth | Faith, Hypocrisy, and Spiritual Abuse

Host Jake Deptula and family law attorney Michele Locke are joined by Lori Morrison, a retired private investigator, speaker, author, podcaster, and church safety coach.Â
Lori shares her insights into spiritual abuse, the role of women within religious communities, and offers advice for those seeking guidance in handling church-related disputes. The episode also covers Lori’s journey into private investigation and her continued dedication to helping victims through her podcast, The Unlovely Truth. The conversation emphasizes the gender-based power dynamics prevalent in many faiths and how women need to challenge such oppressive structures respectfully but firmly, highlighting the par...
lovelustfear | presents | Terra's Baddy Club feat. Jake Deptula

Jake Deptula, host of lovelustfear and cohost of Strictly Stalking, sits down with Terra Newell to discuss his journey and the inspiration behind his podcasts. Jake opens up about his own experiences with toxic relationships and how they shaped lovelustfear, which delves into the darker side of dating. Terra and Jake discuss the importance of providing survivors with a platform, creating safe spaces for sharing, and the challenges of covering such sensitive topics. Their conversation also touches on self-discovery, setting boundaries, and the impact of generational trauma.Â
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