Self-Identities Podcast

Sarah reflects on growing up in Florida, losing her brother at a young age, and trying to make sense of grief before she was old enough to fully understand it. She shares memories of struggling in school, living in poverty, and constantly moving from place to place with her family.

In this episode, Sarah also opens up about her battle with heroin addiction and how it became a way to numb the pain and instability she carried from childhood. Her story is one of hardship, honesty, and resilience.

Thelma was first incarcerated at 16 and again at 21. In this episode, she reflects on a childhood shaped by instability, growing up in a home impacted by alcohol and a lack of structure, where she also experienced physical abuse.

Thelma shares that prison was the first place she ever truly felt safe. Inside, she discovered purpose and stability through the dog program, where she helped raise and train dogs. For Thelma, that work became a source of healing, responsibility, and connection. Looking back, she speaks honestly about how she believes her life could have taken a very different and...

As a child, Amy found joy and expression through music and dance, including ballet, tap, and jazz. It became one of her earliest forms of escape and identity. However, her upbringing was marked by a deeply unstable and unsafe home environment.

By her early teens, Amy was already facing significant struggles, including alcohol use at just 13 years old as she tried to cope with the challenges around her. As she got older, survival became her priority. She eventually made the difficult decision to leave home and spent time living on the streets and staying on couches to stay...

In this episode of Self-Identities, Kawania reflects on a life shaped by hardship, resilience, and survival. Incarcerated at 32 and now 65, she looks back on her upbringing in a dangerous, under-resourced environment where stability was rare and growing up meant learning quickly how to endure. Amid that instability, one teacher became a lifeline—mentoring her, strengthening her voice, and continuing to show up for her even years into her incarceration.

Kawania also opens up about the internal conflict she faced as a teenager coming to terms with her sexuality in a time and place where being gay was not ac...

Charmaine’s story begins in a deeply unstable and abusive home, where violence and control shaped her early life. Growing up in the 1970s and 1980s, she endured repeated abuse at the hands of her father during a time when there were few legal protections for children in Pennsylvania. Speaking out only led to harsher punishment, forcing her to run away again and again in search of safety.

In this episode, Charmaine reflects on how that trauma influenced her path and the ways it shaped her identity in harmful and lasting ways. Yet her story is not defined so...

Lisa became a mother at just 13 years old, stepping into adulthood long before she had the chance to be a child herself. Her life was shaped by cycles of intense partner violence and abuse—experiences that would ultimately lead her into the justice system. When she was incarcerated, she was pregnant, forced to navigate the harsh and unfamiliar reality of prison while carrying new life inside her.

In this episode, Lisa reflects on her journey with raw honesty—sharing what it meant to survive, to endure, and to reconcile her past while facing a future behind bars.

Melanie’s childhood was shaped by instability and exposure to environments no young person should have to navigate. At an early age, she was taught how to operate within the world of meth production, a reality that would heavily influence the direction of her life. Despite these circumstances, Melanie found strength in her mother, who raised her on her own and remained a steady source of resilience. As she grew older, Melanie faced deep internal struggles and profound loss, including the devastating death of her sister that marked a turning point in her life. At just 22 years old, she was se...

Join Dr. Kathryn Whiteley and AJ Nutter as they take Self-Identities to a new location— SCI Cambridge Springs.

In this next chapter, the conversation deepens inside the historic walls of SCI Cambridge Springs, offering an even more intimate look at the lives of women serving life sentences for murder. Drawing from nearly 20 years of criminological research in maximum-security prisons across Ireland, Australia, Pennsylvania, and Texas, Dr. Whiteley brings powerful insight into the complex realities behind these cases. But this season goes further—beyond crime and motive—into the lived experiences of the women themselves. Through stories of childhood, adulth...

At just 14 years old, Jamie was charged as an adult and sent to county jail—a decision that would shape the rest of her life. Shortly after, she was incarcerated at SCI-Muncy, where she has remained ever since. Now 23, Jamie reflects on her journey, the loving family she left behind, and the reality of serving a minimum 35-year sentence.

At 45, Shonda reflects on a life shaped by love, loss, and an unthinkable fate. Raised in a home filled with strong, caring women, her childhood was good, despite her parents' divorce. But at 23, everything changed. Arrested and sentenced to death, she spent 11 years on death row before her sentence was reduced to life without parole. Now, she shares her truth from behind bars. Join us as we uncover the complexities of Shonda’s journey.

Tequilla, now 52, has spent nearly two decades behind bars after entering the prison system at 33. Raised by her grandmother while her mother was incarcerated, her story is one of generational cycles, resilience, and the harsh reality of a life sentence without parole.

Trisha grew up in a close, loving family, but at 25, her life took a devastating turn. Convicted and sentenced to mandatory life in prison, she was forced to leave behind her 18-month-old son in the care of his father. Now 50, she reflects on the past, the impact of her incarceration, and the life she continues to build behind bars.

Brenda, now 64, was just 25 when she was first incarcerated. She cherished her childhood on the family farm, surrounded by her siblings, but her life took a dark turn as addiction took hold. Now serving a life sentence, her story is one of nostalgia, struggle, and resilience.

Dorothy, now 75, is a former nurse and Vietnam War veteran. For the past 43 years, she has been incarcerated, serving a life sentence without parole.

Beth, now in her late 50s, has endured a lifetime of hardship, including physical, emotional, and sexual abuse, as well as struggles with addiction. At 34, she was incarcerated and spent approximately five years on death row. Though her sentence was later commuted, she now serves life without parole.

Celeste, a vibrant only child who once cherished life’s joys, has spent the last 30 years behind bars. Now 73, she was incarcerated at the age of 43, facing a life sentence without parole. Her story is one of resilience, reflection, and the complexities of a life forever changed.

Michelle, now 55, has lived a life shaped by unimaginable challenges. Convicted at 31 and sentenced to death, she spent 14 years on death row before her sentence was commuted to life without parole. Her story begins in a troubled home, marked by substance abuse and physical and emotional trauma. Join us as we delve into Michelle's past, her time on death row, and the resilience it takes to navigate life behind bars.

62 years old, witnessed and suffered abuse from the age of ten. Incarcerated at 21 in a county jail, and at 23 at SCI-Muncy. She has served 41 years of her life without parole sentence.

Join Dr. Kathryn Whiteley and AJ Nutter in an eye-opening exploration of the lives of women serving life sentences for murder. Drawing from nearly 20 years of criminological research in maximum-security prisons across Ireland, Australia, Pennsylvania, and Texas, Dr. Whiteley shares insights into the complex realities behind the crimes. Moving beyond the surface of motive and crime, this season delves into the lived experiences of these women—examining their childhoods, adult lives, and incarceration stories. Together, Kathryn and AJ challenge societal perceptions, revealing that these women are far more than their convictions.

Heather was arrested when she was 35, and at 36 he was incarcerated at SCI Muncy. She is 53 years old, and has served 18 years of her sentence of life without parole.

Jessica was incarcerated at age 16 and has served approximately 25 years of incarceration. She was originally to serve a life without parole sentence, however, was resentenced as a juvenile and is now serving a 35 year to life at SCI Muncy.

Erica was 29 when she was arrested, and she is now 43 years old. She has been incarcerated for approximately 14 years. She is serving a life sentence in SCI. Muncy.

Jean was arrested in 2004 at the age of 45. She is now 64 years old and has been incarcerated for just over 18 years, and is serving a life sentence at SCI. Muncy.

Nacola was 32 when convicted and she has served approximately 11 years of her life sentence. She is incarcerated at SCI Muncy.

Marilyn was arrested in 1972, when she was 19. She has been incarcerated for approximately 52 years and serving two consecutive life sentence in SCI Muncy.

Tanya was incarcerated in 1989 at the age of 19. She has served approximately 35 years of her life sentence. She is currently incarcerated at SCI. Muncy.

Incarcerated at 21, Elena has served approximately 6 years of her 20 to 40 year sentence at SCI.
Muncy.

At 33 Patricia received a double life sentence. Today she is 59 and currently incarcerated at SCI
Muncy.

Terri was arrested at 22 and charged with 2nd degree murder. At 24 she was sentenced to serve life at SCI. Muncy. Today at 54, she has been incarcerated for approximately 32 years.

A conversation with Dr. Kathryn Whiteley and AJ Nutter.

Kathryn Whiteley Ph.D. originally from Australia, is one of a few criminological researchers
who have meet individual women convicted of murder, serving life, life without parole sentences
for almost 20 years, in maximum security prisons in Ireland, Australia, Pennsylvania and Texas
in the United States.

Her goal is to avoid the gravitation towards the crime and motive and learn
more of the entirety of the women’s lived experience, from childhood, adulthood and their
incarceration experience. Her contention is that a focus li...