Daughters Who Dare

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

Have you heard of the game ‘Never Have I Ever’? I have watched others play it. It tends to become an opportunity to unleash secrets or an open mic confessional booth. 

Yes. People could opt out, lie or not join in the first place. No one can force you to release your closeted skeletons.

In this episode, I created my own versio...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

As children raised by narcissists, we are in survival mode for the long haul…basically for a lifetime. Along the way, we encounter many individuals with many opinions on how we should deal with narcissists, how we could manage them and how they would cope if in our shoes.

I have listened to many shoulds, coulds and woulds. They are allowed to have their opi...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

Most days, I don’t think about my multiple narcissistic parents AT ALL. That may be difficult to believe, but it’s true. I said most days for a reason. 

Every now and again, it’s ALL that I can think about.

What causes those ‘every now and agains,’ you ask? Well…in this episode I tell you about those causes, how I learned to d...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

Everyone has feelings.

That may sound like a simple, obvious fact. But, the older I get, the more I realise just how complicated that statement truly is.

Everyone does have feelings and we often try to simplify them. In a Sunday School lesson, many years ago, I used paper plates to represent four of them…happy, sad, angry and surprised. If I had...

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I’m being honest when I say I had many dreams of running away, planning my escape and even being adopted. For the first 21 years of my life, I wanted to be anywhere but home…my very own Alcatraz. Some of you may be thinking, “Why run away? Why escape or imagine being adopted?” My answer is simple. Survival was my only option. How sad is that? No...

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In this episode, I want to talk about TRUST. To many listeners, that five letter word - TRUST - may sound like a swear word. I get it. With our experiences…with our trauma…with our narcissistic parents…why would we EVER want to trust someone?

Well, I am here to say, “Let them in. Dare to let people in. Dare to trust. Dare to trust...

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I wish I could say, “I can fly!” or “I’m invisible!,” but my superpower is not as unique or amazing as those. I know a few other people - personally - who also have this special power.

My superpower may not come as a surprise. I can spot a narcissist from a mile away. I can do it with my eyes closed, my nose pegged...

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Coming home, after an annual visit to my birth family, USED to be an exercise in healing and rebuilding. My husband and a handful of friends (those in the know) would reach for the mop and bucket, along with the glue. Each year they would willingly mop up all of my tears and help me gather the broken pieces of my heart, patiently supporting me as I...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

One lesson I learned…very early on…was that Life doesn’t stop just because you have some figuring out to do. Being raised by narcissists can be compared to living with grief. Life doesn’t stop for that either.

Whether living with narcissists or living with grief, you never get over it, it’s not a competition with others experiencing it, there are no rewa...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

As a child raised by narcissists, it is far too easy to remember the difficult stuff. There are good times. There are happy memories. But…connecting that happiness to those who inflicted so much pain can be very confusing for the mind and heart!

Why should I credit any of my narcissistic parents with my happiness? Gratitude feels wrong and uncomfortable. I mean…imagi...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

This topic may not apply to ALL children raised by narcissists, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it was experienced by many. Speaking from personal experience, my narcissistic parents’ favourite hiding place was/is religion.

For them - all of them - religion becomes an instant crowd of approval, a dedicated rule book, a crutch, a “See! I told you so!” reference, a threat of...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

As I have said in a previous episode, “Keep your receipts!” Receipts come in all shapes and sizes. Some look like damning letters or nasty texts, while others look like a harmless, thoughtful, sincere anniversary card. Looks are deceiving!

(as are those who sent it)

For those in the know, that Hallmark receipt is anything but harmless, thoughtful or sincere. It’s merely...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

This love letter may sound different to any you have heard before and that’s okay. This is the only “Dear Daughter” letter I will ever receive, so I poured my whole heart into it.

I imagined myself having a raw, honest, heartfelt conversation with younger me…but…younger me will change, age and transform as the conversation continues. 

Once you have listened to...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

In this episode, I discuss one of the biggest struggles of children raised by narcissists…the struggle for self-love. Although the struggle is real, it does not mean it is impossible or that we are incapable of loving ourselves. Quite the opposite is true. Narcissists do their best to control or manipulate everything, including our self-worth and self-confidence, but they don’t get to define who we ar...

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So…if I told you that the title of this episode is, “There’s No Place Like Home,” would you close your eyes, click your heels together three times and hope for the best like Dorothy in the “Wizard of Oz”? I am quite fortunate. If I did that, I wouldn’t go anywhere. I am already home.

I can relate to Dorothy for many reasons. H...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

Why have I chosen the saying, “We’re like chalk and cheese “ for this episode, you ask? Because it is the best way to describe the stark differences between a narcissistic parent and child. This is a British idiom used to describe two things or people that are COMPLETELY different despite perhaps looking similar. 

On the outside, we both look like humans. But, on the insi...

Living in the UK comes with its perks. Sunshine isn’t one of them (haha). But, knowing that I will never encounter a venomous snake is a perk that I appreciate, even though I don’t often think about it. I can’t say the same about the narcissists in my life. Their bites - both poisonous and repetitive - happen anytime and anywhere.

Unlike most people in the wild, children of narcissists aren’t just thinking/worrying about ONE snake or ONE bite. No such luck! We are wondering when the NEXT bite is coming. For a huge c...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

One thing that has become perfectly clear to me is that narcissists are great performers. And, just like performers, they need an audience. Narcissistic parents only require an audience of ONE.

These narcissistic performers or, as described in this episode, puppeteers, need a WILLING assistant (puppet). It’s natural to want to place full blame on the puppeteer because it is traditionally their hand…their...

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My birth family has never met me. 

I can hear you saying, “What do you mean? You talk about them on every episode.” Let me clarify.

My birth family have never met the REAL me.

I wasn’t playing roles, nor was I incognito. I have only ever been myself - living my truth and being authentic - but, for some ine...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

Sometimes, I feel like I am sat in an eternal, never-ending waiting room on my own. I am anxiously awaiting my name to be called. I never know when it is going to happen or why. I can’t leave even though I am uncomfortable…so, I wait.

Sitting in that unique, imaginary waiting room evokes a mix of emotions…many of which are similar...

I have been dealing with my own worst enemy as long as I can remember. If I looked into mirrors, I would see her far too often. But, I didn’t need to see my reflection to know that she was right here. You guessed it! I am talking about me.

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

As children, we believe every word our parents say. Why doubt them? We don...

For those navigating toxic, narcissistic family relationships, we are all too aware of the price we have paid and continue to pay.
In some very real ways, it feels like we are being robbed every single day.

What can cost that much?

I am referring to the LOSS that happens when - as a child of narcissists - you choose to stand up, speak out, speak your truth and, if necessary, cut ties altogether.

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In this episode, I talk about the deep-seated sadness or grief experienced as children of narcissistic parents. It’s a heartache that lasts a lifetime.

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

You don’t have to be a parent yourself to ask the question, “Who is going to mother(parent) me?,” yet it is a familiar one asked by those raised by narcissists. We all know that being a child h...

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When I imagine myself as a Mama Bear, my mind is filled with animated, Disney-like characters, with a heart-warming soundtrack playing in the background.

However, if you asked my grown children for their versions of me as a Mama Bear, you would be transported to those infamous nature documentaries…the ones that should come with an 18 rating due to the copious amount of b...

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I know many people who detest swearing. I’m not one of them. I don’t swear to intentionally offend, upset or embarrass someone. But, I believe there are far uglier, more offensive and degrading words than the ones in my pirate vocabulary.

One of the nastiest words - in my opinion - isn’t even a four letter word. It has five letters.

...

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Narcissistic parents often choose to cross, ignore or erase one boundary…the EMOTIONAL boundary…and that is one too many. They do everything in their power to engage in emotional warfare. As the parent, they know their child’s weaknesses all too well, so will be sure to choose their words carefully…pushing as many buttons and pulling as many heartstrings as possible.

My mind was...

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In this episode, I am going to explore why a certain two letter word used to get stuck in my throat.

As a child of narcissistic parents, NO really wasn’t an option. In my mind, that would lead to more rejection, more arguments and more alienation. However, once I realised that I was on this emotional rollercoaster ride ALONE, I knew that I had...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

Can you believe it? We are celebrating 50 episodes of Daughters Who Dare!

In this episode, I am sharing a short story I felt compelled to write. I listened to my heart and put the words down on paper. 

Have a listen.

I hope it helps to demonstrate how it felt and continues to feel to be a daughter of narcissistic pa...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

We spend our lifetime ‘building ourselves’ …who we are - what we believe - what we think - who and what we love…and so on. If we step back a moment and look at what we’ve built - or should I say - who we built, we can be proud of the person we built…the person we have become. Whether we do that at 18, 25, 30...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

For the purpose of this episode, I want you to imagine me stood on my soapbox. 

I am about to preach!

I say these things to all of us…including me.

Having reached the ripe old age of 60, I have come to many conclusions. Today, I present you with 10 of them. I encourage you to listen and - if you want...

Join Erin and her guests, as they delve into what it means to be a child of a narcissistic parent.  Each fortnightly episode is crammed full of honesty, humour and hope.

In this episode, I am discussing the biggest decision I ever had to make and, the crazy thing is, I had to make it on four separate occasions. 

No one can tell you if, how or when to do it.

I am going to walk you through each decision…all 4 of them…because they all happened at different stages of my life and ea...

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This will come as no surprise!

No matter where we turn, there are countless injustices in the world. Whether we are walking down the high street in major cities, turning on the news or scrolling on our phone, we are bombarded with many examples of injustice.

All of the scenarios I mentioned are injustices that are happening around us. They ar...

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One of my favourite childhood books was written by Dr Seuss. I remember it being both endearing and hilarious. A baby bird falls out of the nest and begins a quest for his mother. Along the way, he asks a kitten, a cow, a plane, a tugboat and a digger. As he confronts each one, he asks, ‘Are you my mother?’

I didn’t fall ou...

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When I think about my grandparents, I am amazed at their choices…their actions…their words…and their gift of being truth seers.

What I love about those who dare, including my grandparents, is that there isn’t one script, one method or one set of rules. Those who DARE can look very different and sound very different.

The way my grandparents DARED loo...

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I can’t imagine that I am the only child who spent hours constructing the ‘perfect’ house of cards. It took patience, concentration and skill. Every time I found myself staring at a huge puddle of playing cards, I would become even more determined to make the next one stronger and more robust.

The more houses I built, the better my construction would become. It all...

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I need to have a serious conversation with my body - especially my heart. We have had different agendas for most of my life. I have only ever wanted to live a happy, peaceful, fun-filled life. My heart, on the other hand, decided to turn things into a life-long game of cat and mouse…without a reason to run. Somehow, my heart has convinced me that I a...

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One word that has been with me…every step of the way…is BELIEVE. It isn’t  just  about others believing me or believing in me, but is also about my journey of self-belief. I learned, early on, that trying to convince narcissistic parents to see the real me and recognise my truth was a hopeless cause. I had to look outside my given family to find those...

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We all have a story to tell. 

But, that doesn’t mean we HAVE to tell it.

Some stories have been written and never told…ever. Some have been told to a few trusted souls. And, some have been shared publicly, having been documented in print and/or on the screen.
There was a HUGE shift in my life when I realis...

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I believe everyone has one.

I say one, but, make no mistake. That one can encompass a minefield of things.

They can be played…and, goodness me…are they played! But, the many facets of who, why and when they are laid on the table can make all the difference.

Ironically, we don’t often see them. If we stood in a la...

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We all have a mountain to climb.

I feel like I am on the top of the mountain-the same mountain I have been climbing all my life. I look down and see many more climbers - all doing their best to overcome obstacles, face their demons and beat the odds, while demonstrating resilience and determination. I find myself shouting words of encouragement and affirmation...