The Voice of Ash

With Halloween right around the corner, Ashley is asking a question that stopped her in her tracks during a recent coaching call: what is a witch?

Most of us grew up with the pointy hat, the cape, and the cauldron. We also inherited the history of women being silenced, punished, and burned for being different. That’s the witch wound. But Ashley’s coach invited the group to go beyond the wound and step into the greatness of the witch, and what came through for Ashley was a vision of a lighthouse and a simple message: follow the...

Someone said four words to Ashley that sent her into a full spiral.

She's angry at men.

And instead of firing back — which every part of her wanted to do — she did something different. She got curious. She went looking for proof. She asked the people in her life who would actually tell her the truth. And what she found was one of the most important lessons she's learned yet about triggers, projections, and the difference between information that's yours to work with and someone else's wound being handed to you.

This episode is r...

Ashley spent the weekend in a two-day shamanic training, journeying to the middle world — the world we actually live in — and what came through was something she wasn't expecting: a message about how much we take, and how little we give back.

In this quietly profound episode she shares what it means to journey in the middle world, why its energy feels different from the upper and lower realms, and the one simple practice that could change how you move through nature forever: asking permission.

She also shares the story of a baby sparrow she foun...

Content warning: This episode contains discussion of sexual trauma and manipulation. Please listen with care.

This is one of the most vulnerable episodes Ashley has ever recorded. No outline. No polish. Just her trusting the pull to share something she has been quietly processing in therapy for months.

In this raw and unfiltered episode Ashley opens up about a sexual trauma from her twenties — being manipulated into a sexual act after clearly saying no — and what it has actually looked like to process that through EMDR therapy, energy work, dreams, and shadow work. She talks abou...

There are two voices living inside of you. One is loud, constant, exhausting, and fills in every gap of uncertainty with a story — usually a harsh one. The other is quiet, calm, and tells you exactly what is true — even when it's scary to hear.

One is the storyteller. One is the truth teller. And most of us have been letting the wrong one run the show our entire lives.

In this episode Ashley breaks down these two powerful archetypes, where they come from psychologically and spiritually, and how to actually tell the difference between them...

During a meditation, Ashley saw a vision of a corset. Tight. Suffocating. And suddenly everything clicked — for generations women were literally structured into silence. When you can't breathe deeply, you can't speak fully. And that physical silencing became an internal one that so many of us are still carrying today.

In this episode Ashley gets personal about her own relationship with her voice — from a childhood car ride where she was told she had the voice of a backup singer, to the corporate world that taught her speaking up was a liability, to the slow, messy, unglamorous proc...

Everyone talks about healing like it's a staircase. You do the work, you climb the steps, you arrive. But what if it's actually a spiral staircase — and every time you go deeper, you meet an older version of yourself that you have to learn to let go of all over again?

That's where Ashley is right now. And in this deeply personal episode she's talking about the part of the healing journey that nobody prepares you for — grieving the versions of yourself that you actually love. Not the wounded parts. Not the broken parts. The parts that foug...

For most of her life Ashley thought chemistry was butterflies, racing sparks, and that electric pull straight out of a Hallmark movie. Turns out? A lot of that wasn't chemistry. It was anxiety. And her nervous system recognizing a very familiar, very unhealthy pattern.

In this episode Ashley breaks down one of the most important distinctions she's learned through her dating journey and shadow work — the difference between chemistry and safety. They sound like the same thing. They absolutely are not. And confusing the two might be exactly why you keep ending up in situations that feel ex...

Ashley went on a date. She was affectionate — which for her is a massive deal. She was present, quirky, fully herself. She held a boundary she's proud of, without apologizing for it. And less than 24 hours later she was in her bed, barely breathing, having panic attacks, with a friend on the phone telling her to breathe.

This is the episode nobody prepares you for.

We talk about boundaries like they're always this clean, empowering, triumphant moment. But sometimes holding your boundary means the other person leaves. And sometimes being your most authentic self is ex...

Here's the bad news: the person you've been waiting on to finally show up the way you needed them to as a kid? They're not coming. And here's the good news — you don't actually need them to anymore.

This week Ashley wraps up her four-part shadow work series with the concept that ties it all together: reparenting. She breaks down what it actually means to become the parent you never had, why it might feel awkward, silly, or bring up grief at first, and what it can look like in your everyday life in small, consistent, doable wa...

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Ever had a reaction that felt way too big for what actually happened? Spiraled because someone didn't text back? Gone completely silent in conflict instead of speaking up? Felt guilty for resting? That's not just you being dramatic — that's your inner child. And she's still in there, still waiting to be heard.

In this episode Ashley completes the shadow work trilogy she's been building over the last few weeks — the shadow is what got buried, projection is wher...

Think of someone who irritates you. Not a little — a lot. Got them? Good. Hold onto that person, because by the end of this episode they're not going to annoy you quite the same way.

This week Ashley goes deep on one of the most powerful concepts in shadow work: projection. That sneaky psychological move where the traits you've buried in yourself show up in other people and make you absolutely furious — without you ever realizing why. She breaks down how to spot it, what it's actually telling you, and the important line between a real reaction and...

Picture two versions of yourself. The polished one sitting in a job interview, carefully choosing every word. And the one lying awake at 1am, scrolling, thinking thoughts you'd never say out loud. They're the same person — but which one is actually you?

That's where this episode begins. As a certified shadow work coach, Ashley finally dives into the heart of what this podcast is all about: the shadow. What it is, where it comes from, how it sneaks into your life without you noticing, and what it's quietly costing you every single day you keep it buried.

This one is short. It is punchy. And Ashley needed it just as much as you do.

In this mini episode, Ash delivers a raw, straight-from-the-heart message about the dream you've been sitting on — the one you keep saying you'll start when the time is right, when you're ready, when things calm down. She's here to tell you the time is now, the path won't be pretty, and the only thing worse than failing is never trying.

She talks about breaking promises to yourself, what it would feel like to cross over one day and me...

For years Ashley told herself she'd do a boudoir photo shoot after she lost the weight. Then one day she asked herself a question that changed everything: does my body not deserve it right now?

In this short, spicy, and surprisingly moving episode, Ashley shares the story of finally booking the shoot — stretch marks, curves, rolls and all — and what she saw when she looked at the photos afterward. Spoiler: she didn't recognize herself. In the best possible way.

She gets honest about a lifetime of body struggles starting at age six, the unhealthy goal-setting, the...

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A month ago Ashley announced she was going on a social media detox. Now she's back to report what actually happened — and spoiler: she just swapped one distraction for another. Netflix, a mediumship challenge, commenting on everyone's posts, dating apps — turns out when you take away one escape route, you find another pretty fast.

But somewhere between an ayahuasca retreat where she happily handed over her phone all weekend and a quiet moment watching ducks by the water, something shifted. This episode is Ashley's honest, unfiltered debrief on what a month offl...

He planned the date. Sent the reservation. Then his mom had a stroke, he went out of state, and when he came back — something felt different. Ashley's intuition knew it immediately. But she didn't fully listen. And a week and a half later, she got ghosted by someone she'd been more vulnerable with than almost anyone in her life.

In this tender and honest episode, Ashley shares the full story — the connection that felt real, the moment she abandoned her own instincts, the anger, the sadness, and the audiobook line that cracked something open in her: trust that...

Ashley was in her cocoon you know that that messy, uncomfortable in-between place before transformation when her gut told her to do something a little out there: get an intuitive dark goddess reading from a stranger on Etsy. What came back stopped her in her tracks.

In this raw and deeply personal episode, Ashley shares what the reading revealed the rage she's been calling "frustration," the six-year-old who had too much spark and learned to dim it, and the gift of the "wild tongue" she's been suppressing her whole life to keep people comfortable. She also connects...

It started with a simple realization: Ashley came home from work full of energy, ready to hit the gym and two hours later she was lying in bed, drained, having done nothing but scroll. That was the moment she decided to do something uncomfortable: a full month-long social media detox.

In this impromptu episode, Ashley gets real about how attached we've all become to our phones, why it's not entirely our fault, and what scrolling is actually costing us. She breaks down the psychology behind why we can't stop: the slot machine effect, the dopamine hits, the...

Too exhausted to even take a shower. That's where Ashley found herself after a weekend of non-stop doing — and it's what inspired this episode. If you have a little voice in your head that whispers you should be doing something every time you sit still, this one is for you.

Ashley digs into why so many of us are addicted to busyness — from hustle culture and millennial productivity conditioning, to watching our parents grind, to the social media highlight reel that makes everyone else look like they have it all together. And then she goes deeper: what if s...

For years, Ashley could spot it in her coworkers. She could see the traits, connect the dots, and even ask them directly. But she couldn't see it in herself. In this deeply personal and vulnerable episode, Ash shares the full story of how a single comment from her shadow work coach sent her down a research rabbit hole that finally gave her the answers she'd been searching for her whole life.

From a misdiagnosis of borderline personality disorder, to testing off the charts for Asperger's and high masking, to deciding she doesn't need a piece of paper...

For most of her life, Ashley said she didn't like hugs. Long ones, anyway. But what if that wasn't actually true. What if it was just a protection? In this raw and vulnerable episode, Ashley takes you through a years-long journey of trying to understand what love even is, and the moment at a shadow work retreat that cracked everything open.

She shares the activity that had her (someone who squirms out of long hugs) running into people's arms and not wanting to let go. And the hug that made her break down crying because it felt...

This week Ashley is getting woo-woo and she's not apologizing for it. After taking a shamanic journeying course this past weekend, she's sharing everything: what journeying actually is, what happened in the breakout rooms, and the moment a smell she couldn't explain turned out to be a deceased person's favorite drink.

If you've ever wanted to explore journeying, mediumship, or psychic abilities but didn't know where to start or felt frustrated that you couldn't just see things when you closed your eyes — this episode is for you. Ashley breaks down why being in your body matters more th...

After a year of silence, Ashley is back> She's not the same person who left. In this relaunch episode, she pulls back the curtain on why she walked away from the podcast, the friendships, and the projects she'd built, and what the past year of deep shadow work actually looked like from the inside.

Ashley opens up about feeling like a fraud, losing herself behind layers of masks and archetypes, and the moment she realized she'd been living entirely in her head. She shares how learning to sit with sadness, trust her own instincts, and stop asking 500...

In this deeply personal episode of You Are Them Now, Ashley explores the simple yet profound act of giving yourself a hug—and how it can reconnect you to your power, your presence, and your inner safety. She shares a transformative story from an ayahuasca retreat, where one self-embrace cracked her heart wide open and revealed the love she had been seeking all along.

This isn’t just about comfort—it’s about coming home to yourself when no one else is around. It’s about reclaiming your softness, honoring your shadows, and learning to be the one who ho...

In this deeply raw and vulnerable episode, I take you on a journey through one of the most profound realizations of my shadow work practice—uncovering the feeling of irrelevance that has shaped my life in ways I never fully understood.

It all started with two back-to-back intuitive readings, both revealing the same message: something happened when I was 12 years old that left a deep imprint on my heart. But as I dug deeper, I discovered that this wound went back even further—to my earliest years, where I learned to take care of others but never trul...

In this episode of You Are Them Now, we’re diving deep into one of the hardest truths to accept — the idea that life isn’t happening to you, it’s happening for you. I know, it sounds cliché when you’re in the middle of chaos, heartbreak, or yet another plot twist you didn’t ask for. But what if I told you there is purpose in the mess? That even when it feels like the Universe is snatching things away, it’s actually guiding you back home to yourself?

I’m sharing some of the most personal mom...

Everyone talks about “stepping into your highest self” like it’s as easy as flipping a switch—but let’s be real… that’s bullshit. Becoming them isn’t just about deciding to be different. It’s about unlearning, unraveling, and sitting in the discomfort of breaking old patterns that have kept you stuck.

In this episode, I get raw and real about what this process actually looks like—the deep shadow work, the messy in-between, and the fears that come up when you finally stop running from yourself. I talk about overcoming addictions (yes, even the sneaky ones like peo...

 In this episode of You Are Them Now, Ashley LaButte dives into the heavy but crucial topic of shame—what it is, how it operates as a form of self-oppression, and why we often blame ourselves for feeling it. Discover how shame keeps you small and hidden by suppressing your authentic self and how to start breaking free from its grip. With personal stories and powerful insights, this episode is your guide to reclaiming your power and embracing who you truly are.

Have you ever felt disconnected from your body, like your mind and body are living separate lives? For so long, I protected myself by staying in my head, avoiding the emotions stored within me. My body held onto past fears, discomfort, and self-judgment, making it hard to feel safe in my own skin.

In this episode, I dive deep into why so many of us struggle with feeling safe in our bodies, the signs that show we’re disconnected, and how to begin the journey back to self-trust and embodiment. I share my personal experiences—moments when I re...

Ever find yourself spiraling in overthinking, completely disconnected from your intuition? That’s exactly where I was when I created this meditation. I had journaled about something deeply personal, realizing I was stuck in my head and suppressing emotions that needed to be felt. Instead of staying in that loop, I decided to make this meditation to guide myself—and now you—back into the body, where true healing happens.

This episode is a sweet and spicy journey: the sweetness of self-compassion and the spice of facing what’s been hiding in the shadows. Through guided visualization, deep ref...

Today on You Are Them Now, we’re tackling something that holds so many of us back—self-trust. How often do you second-guess yourself, only to later realize your gut was right all along? Or maybe you find yourself constantly seeking outside validation, afraid of making the "wrong" choice? If this sounds familiar, you’re not alone.

In this episode, we’re breaking down:
 ✨ Why you struggle to trust yourself (hint: it started way before adulthood)
 ✨ How to rebuild that trust with small, everyday decisions
 ✨ What happens when you finally stop second-guessing and start owning your choic...

Meditation is more than just a wellness trend—it’s a proven way to reclaim your peace, improve focus, and connect with your true self. In this episode of You Are Them Now, we’re exploring the science behind meditation and its profound impact on your mind, body, and emotional well-being. Did you know meditation can literally rewire your brain, boosting areas responsible for self-awareness and reducing those linked to stress? I’ll share these insights and why meditation has been a cornerstone in my personal healing journey.

Plus, I’m inviting you to join my 7-Day Medit...