Alchemy of the Dark Feminine

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By: Gracen Kahn

Alchemy of the Dark Feminine is a deep and magnetic podcast here in Utah that focuses on transformative wisdom for the soul. If you're ready to step into your power, give this show a listen. Subscribe to my Youtube Channel to experience abundance, empowerment, and healing: https://www.youtube.com/@gracenkahn888Support the show here: https://venmo.com/u/Gracen-Anne-KahnGet my book on Amazon: There is No Energy More Powerful Than You By Gracen Kahn. Available as ebook on Kindle and Paperback.

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Emotional Shapeshifting: The Subtle Survival Pattern You Didn't Know You Had
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Have you ever noticed yourself changing your personality, emotions, tone, or energy depending on who you're interacting with? In this episode, I'm introducing the concept of emotional shapeshifting---a nervous system survival pattern where you unconsciously adapt your emotional expression to maintain connection, safety, or approval. 

We'll explore: 

what emotional shapeshifting isReal-life examples you may recognize in yourself why it develops the hidden cost of constantly performing for others what becomes possible when you become your own emotional reference point 

If today's episode made you realize how often...


You're Not Seeking Love, You're Seeking Orientation
06/19/2026

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Are you REALLY seeking love, or are you actually seeking orientation? 

In this episode, Gracen explores the hidden reason so many people become dependent on validation, approval, relationships, and external feedback to determine their worth and identity. 

You'll learn:

-why rejection can feel so disorienting 

-what it means to outsource your identity 

-the difference between external validation and self-authorship

-how your nervous system can become conditioned to seek orientation through relationships

-3 practical questions to begin becoming more self-referential 

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The Hidden Cost of Outsourcing Your Self-Worth
06/14/2026

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Do you ever feel confident one day and deeply insecure the next?

Maybe your self-worth changes depending on how much money you make, how many likes you receive, whether someone texts you back, or how productive you've been.

In this episode, we're exploring the hidden cost of outsourcing your self-worth and why external validation can never create lasting safety, confidence, or self-trust.

You'll learn:

 Why self-worth often becomes tied to achievement, relationships, money, and visibility  How validation temporarily soothes the nervous system but doesn't create lasting sec...


The Real Reason You Keep Losing Yourself in Relationships
06/11/2026

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Have you ever felt like you lose yourself in relationships?

Maybe you become hyper-focused on another person's needs, opinions, moods, or approval. Maybe you find yourself over-explaining, people-pleasing, shrinking, fawning, or abandoning your truth to maintain connection.

In this episode, we're exploring the deeper reason why so many people lose themselves in relationships—and why it has less to do with boundaries and more to do with where your nervous system has learned to source safety, belonging, and self-worth.

You'll learn:

 Why fawning is often a sur...


Reclaiming Authorship: Training Your Nervous System to Stop Questioning Your Existence
05/10/2026

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This episode is for the person who is exhausted from internally abandoning themselves. The one whose nervous system still defaults to shrinking, self-doubt, over-explaining, comparison, shame spirals, or feeling like their existence needs permission to take up space.

Today we’re talking about reclaiming authorship over your identity — not intellectually, but neurologically, emotionally, and somatically.

I’m sharing how trauma of unbelonging creates automatic survival pathways in the brain, why your nervous system keeps defaulting to old identities even when consciously you want more, and how to begin interrupting those...


Fawning Isn't Who You Are--It's What Covert Sabotage Trained Into You
04/29/2026

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Fawning isn’t just people-pleasing—it’s a nervous system response shaped by covert emotional dynamics.

In this episode, we break down how fawning develops in the presence of covert saboteur energy, why it’s so hard to “just set boundaries,” and the hidden pattern that keeps you over-accommodating while others stay unaccountable.

If you’ve ever felt like you lose your voice around certain people, second-guess yourself, or stay agreeable to keep the peace—this episode will help you understand why.

You’ll learn:
– what fawning actually is...


When Fathers Compete With Their Daughters: Why It Makes Women Feel Unsafe in Their Feminine Energy
03/13/2026

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There’s a dynamic that almost no one talks about — when a father unconsciously competes with his daughter.

Instead of protecting her softness, celebrating her joy, and helping her feel safe in her feminine energy… the daughter becomes something else in the father’s nervous system. A rival. A threat. Someone whose light needs to be dimmed.

When this happens, it creates a subtle but profound imprint in the body.

Many women grow up feeling like their joy is “too much,” their beauty is unsafe, or their feminine ene...


If You've Been Listening... This is the Step
02/03/2026

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This podcast is for those who are deeply aware...and quietly exhausted from circling the same insights without real movement. 

Here, we don't chase healing, hustle transformation, or perform evolution.

We work at the level of the nervous system, identity, and energetic authority---where real change actually happens. 

These episodes are not meant to inspire you. They are meant to reorient you.

If you've outgrown consuming content and are ready to step into embodied leadership of your life, your voice, and your choices---you're in th...


For People Who See the Truth But Don't Yet Feel Safe
02/01/2026

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Seeing the truth of your family or personal dynamics is one thing—feeling safe enough to act on it is another. Many people can notice patterns, understand what’s unhealthy, and even imagine healthier boundaries—but their nervous system or inner child doesn’t yet feel ready to step fully into that clarity.

That’s why I’m hosting a free live webinar: Safe After Seeing. In this episode, I share what the webinar is about, who it’s for, and why creating a safe container is so important w...


62 Countries, 381 Cities, 1 Body.
01/23/2026

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I want to pause and say thank you to everyone listening---from every corner of the world. Knowing this space is shared across 62 countries feels humbling and deeply human. 

Shoutout to #Belgium, #Cambodia, #Canada, #China, #Colombia, #Crotia, #Cyprus, #CzechRepublic, #Denmark, #Egypt 💖

Share this episode & show with your friends and aligned people and keep a lookout for your country shoutout! :)

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When Your Body Wants Comfort, Not Discipline
01/21/2026

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What if cravings weren't a lack of discipline---but communication? 

In this episode, we explore how the body speaks through appetite, especially during luteal phase, periods of stress, trauma processing, and grief. We talk about why cravings often increase when the nervous system needs safety, how shame around food actually worsens regulation, and why nourishment is a stabilizing force in healing---not a failure of willpower. 

This is a conversation about listening instead of of forcing, comfort instead of control, and trusting the body's intelligence when it asks for warmth, and fo...


If Healing is Bringing Up Nausea, Cravings, or Disconnection--This is Why
01/16/2026

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Have you ever noticed that when you start healing — emotionally, spiritually, or through nervous system work — your body seems to respond in unexpected ways?

Nausea. Food cravings. Fatigue. Feeling disconnected from practices that used to feel nourishing. Even moments of emotional flatness or confusion.

In this episode, we explore why these sensations often show up during healing — and why they don’t mean that anything has gone wrong.

We talk about:
    •    Why the body often responds before the mind during emotional healing
    •    How the nervous system communicates through...


No Wonder You HATE Clowns 🤡---You Were Raised By Narcissists 🎭 HALLOWEEN SPECIAL EPISODE 🎃🕸️👻
10/29/2025

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If clowns creep you out, you’re not alone — and it’s probably deeper than bad makeup and balloon animals.

In this special Halloween episode, we’re talking about why scary clowns hit so close to home for survivors of narcissistic trauma.
The fake smiles. The unpredictable moods. The way you never quite know if you’re safe — sound familiar? 😅

We’ll explore how growing up in emotional chaos can wire your nervous system to associate playfulness with danger and why “funny” can sometimes feel terrifying.

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I Had a Somatic Breakdown at my 9 to 5
10/21/2025

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I never thought healing would look like crying uncontrollably at my 9 to 5 job, wondering if I would ever feel normal again. But that moment...was my body saying "it's finally over." 

This week's episode is the most vulnerable one I've ever recorded---about what it really feels like when trauma leaves the body, and how the universe held me through it. I spent YEARS trying to forget, and my body finally said "enough is enough. It's time to let this go." 

#somatichealing #traumarelease #healingjourney #podcast #healingpodcast #somaticrelease #emotionalhealing

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Rest as a Spiritual Practice
10/09/2025

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What if resting and sleeping MORE would bring you MORE? Sometimes, we are called to pause in our lives and rest in the void between versions of ourselves. This is your sign and reminder to give yourself FULL permission to do absolutely nothing but rest and surrender control so that you can receive more and better. Try not to beat yourself up and be hard on yourself because you're tired. It's human and totally natural and normal if you need several days of just sleep. You're doing alot of DEEP energetic work and...


Breaking Free from Psychological Servitude in Narcissistic Abuse
09/24/2025

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Have you ever felt trapped in a relationship with your parent or significant other and knew the person isn't good for you? That's psychological servitude...and it's a lot more common than you think.


I created a mini course that helps people release these chains and reverse all hexes from your narcissistic parent in just a few, practical nervous system friendly steps. If you are ready to untangle these layers: psychological, energetic, and subconscious so you can fully reclaim...


Boundaries Without the Guilt
09/09/2025

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It's time to say NO to toxic ties: family, old platforms, and energy drains. NO is a full, valid, healthy sentence. If the other person does not respect your NOs, then they are not aligned to be apart of your life anymore. They do not have the PRIVILEGE to experience you and your energy anymore. Let go of old platforms where you used to seek external validation and pour into those that are aligned, if any. Connect more with joy, expansion, and freedom in your day to day life. Charge your water with...


The Narcissistic Hijack of Spiritual Spaces (How Leo Season is Helping Me Reclaim My Radiance)
07/23/2025

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Not all narcissists scream—some wear white linen + call it healing. In this Leo season episode, I’m exposing spiritual narcissism, sharing red flags to watch for, and reclaiming my radiance after false light. If you’ve ever been shamed, silenced, or gaslit in a “healing” space—this is for you. 🖤

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Being Truly Seen: Why Your Raw Humanity is Your Greatest Magnetism
07/16/2025

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In this episode, we dive deep into the tender art of being truly seen — not just in your healed, polished moments, but right in the middle of your raw, messy, human becoming.

I share how allowing yourself to be witnessed exactly where you are doesn’t repel the right people…it calls them in closer. Whether you’re a healer, creator, coach, or simply navigating your own transformation, this episode is here to remind you:

✨ Your vulnerability is magnetic.
✨ Your humanity is medicine.
✨ The real you is what your soul...


Peeling Off the Armor to be Seen in Softness & Wealth
07/09/2025

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In today’s episode, we dive deep into peeling off the energetic armor that keeps us small — the fear of being seen, of shining too brightly, of becoming the rich friend.

I share my own tender breakthroughs around releasing shame, softening into my core, and allowing luxury, wealth, and attention to flow to me with ease.

If you’ve ever felt afraid to fully step into your magnetism or worried what people will think if you succeed wildly… this episode will open your heart.

🎧 Tune in to reclaim you...


Why Cutting Energetic Cords Can Make You Feel Sicky: The Truth About Somatic Purging After Soul Severance
07/02/2025

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Have you ever felt sicky in your throat or sinuses after writing a cord cutting letter or ending an energetic contract with someone? In this episode, we explore why somatic detox symptoms like throat tightness, sinus drainage, or flu-like feelings are actually signs of spiritual healing. You’ll learn how the nervous system processes emotional release, what grids are connected to your throat nexus, and how to move through the purging phase with softness, power, and grace.

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Nervous System Healing for Soft Women After Emotional Abuse
06/25/2025

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This episode is for the woman whose body still feels frozen, braced, or anxious… even though he’s gone.

For the ones who were emotionally punished through silence, withdrawal, or manipulation — and who learned to self-abandon just to keep the peace.

In this soft nervous system healing, I guide you back into safety — through breath, gentle EFT tapping, and a remembering:

You are not too sensitive. You are wired for real love.

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Joy Was the Target: How Malignant Narcissistic Mothers Condition Us to Dim Our Light
06/18/2025

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In this soul-activating episode, we unravel the hidden truth most never speak about:
When you’re raised by a narcissistic mother, your joy becomes the target.
Not your failure. Not your pain. But your radiance.

I dive into how emotional abuse, control, and manipulation often begin the moment you start shining — laughing too loudly, feeling too free, or expressing your natural glow.
This episode will help you finally understand why your nervous system braced in the presence of your own happiness — and how reclaiming your joy is the...


You are NOT Too Much---You Are Returning to Radiance
06/12/2025

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Welcome to Return to Radiance — a sanctuary for sensitive, powerful women rising beyond survival and reclaiming their softest strength.

Hosted by Gracen, a psychic intuitive, author, and guide for women healing after narcissistic family systems, this podcast is your space to feel, release, and remember who you truly are — radiant, sovereign, and divinely enough.

Here, we explore the soul alchemy of:
    •    Emotional healing and nervous system repair
    •    Leaving behind survival identities (like fawning, fixing, and performing)
    •    Reclaiming your voice, your glow, and your intuitive power
    •    Living a spiritually grounded, feminine-led...


The Dream That Showed Me How to Leave
06/05/2025

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In this episode, I share a vivid dream that revealed a hidden exit from the energetic trap I've felt stuck in---a place where most people stay because it feels "easier". But, I found the way out...not through logic, but through energy. 

I talk about: 

The symbolic meaning of the strange elevator, the underground laundry, and the grassy portalHow this dream mirrors the real-life escape I'm walking right nowWhy so many of us stay in survival mode even when our soul is ready to leaveThe energy alchemy that turned red in...


Crown Chakra Alchemy: EFT Healing & Hypnosis to Reclaim Divine Connection
05/21/2025

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In this powerful episode, we journey into the luminous realm of the crown chakra—your portal to divine wisdom, spiritual clarity, and cosmic trust. Through guided EFT tapping and a deeply soothing hypnosis, you’ll clear out stored trauma, energetic fog, and limiting beliefs that block your connection to the divine.

This is your sacred space to release heaviness, restore your intuitive channel, and reclaim your soul’s truth from the top down.

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Your Narcissistic Family is Making You Sick: The Hidden Link Between Emotional Abuse & Chronic Illness
05/14/2025

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Struggling with IBS, fatigue, anxiety, or chronic health issues that doctors can’t explain? Your narcissistic family might be the root cause. In this powerful episode, we explore the link between narcissistic abuse, trauma, and physical illness—especially gut issues. Learn how chronic stress affects your nervous system, why your body holds onto pain, and how subconscious healing, hypnosis, and nervous system regulation can restore your health.
If you’ve felt unseen, unheard, and physically unwell—this is your message.

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Reclaiming the Mother Within: Healing, Lineage, and the Sacred Feminine
05/11/2025

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This Mother’s Day, we go beyond surface celebration and into soul-level remembrance. In this sacred episode, I hold space for the grief, beauty, and truth this day can bring—especially for those healing from mother wounds, ancestral pain, or the ache of never being truly nurtured.

Together, we explore what it means to reclaim the Inner Mother, break generational cycles, and awaken the Divine Feminine archetype within. This is for the cycle-breakers, the soft warriors, and the ones who are here to alchemize pain into power.

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The Cost of Freedom: Grieving, Surviving & Rebuilding After Going No Contact
05/07/2025

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In this episode, I open up about what it’s really like navigating financial hardship without family support—after going no contact. From student loans to phone bills, to feeling the crushing weight of doing it all alone, I share the emotional side of debt and the grief of financial survival after breaking generational cycles. If you’ve ever felt alone in your money journey, this episode is for you. You are not weak. You are powerful—and not alone.

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Narcissistic Abuse is Mind Control---And Here's How to Break Free
04/30/2025

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If you’ve been feeling like something deep within you is ready to shift — like the version of you that’s been surviving, over giving, or staying small is no longer welcome in your future — you’re not alone.

So many people I work with are wildly intuitive, powerful, and meant for so much more… but they’ve been stuck in old energetic loops, family conditioning, or trauma bonds that keep them playing small or attracting the same painful patterns.

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Escaping the Patriarchal Cage: A Dream About Power, Control, and Freedom
04/23/2025

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In this powerful episode, I take you inside a vivid dream that revealed deep ancestral patterns of control, silence, and escape. I share how this dream helped me decode patriarchal programming, the narcissistic wound, and the deeper truths about reclaiming feminine freedom. If you’ve ever felt trapped by family expectations, haunted by old power dynamics, or pulled between staying small and breaking free—this one’s for you. Come listen, reflect, and remember who you truly are beneath the noise.

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Dismantling the Pattern of Not Being Believed: Breaking the Ancestral Silence
04/16/2025

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For generations, women have been silenced, dismissed, and told their truth was “too much,” “too emotional,” or simply not real. In this powerful episode, we dive into the deep ancestral patterns of the feminine being invalidated—and how to break that cycle within ourselves and our lineage.

This is for the woman who has ever felt unseen, unheard, or doubted when she stood in her truth.
This is for the feminine energy rising to reclaim its voice, worth, and wisdom.

Your voice is medicine.
Your truth is sacred.


The Journey to Soul Sovereignty: Healing Generational and Personal Wounds
04/09/2025

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In this powerful episode, I dive deep into the concept of soul sovereignty and how to break free from limiting cycles and generational wounds. If you’ve ever felt controlled by external forces or disconnected from your true essence, this episode is for you. Learn how to reclaim your inner power, align with your authentic self, and step into a life of empowerment and freedom. I explore practical strategies for healing the wounds around soul sovereignty and offer actionable insights to help you live in divine alignment with your soul’s true...


Why Survivor's Guilt Happens After No Contact
04/02/2025

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In this powerful episode, we explore the complex emotions tied to survivor's guilt after implementing a "no contact" rule. If you've experienced feelings of guilt after cutting ties with a toxic person or abusive relationship, you're not alone. We break down the psychological reasons behind survivor's guilt, why it arises when you leave someone behind, and how to navigate these emotions for healing. Whether you're recovering from a breakup, a toxic friendship, or a family dynamic, this episode offers insights into why survivor's guilt occurs and how to cope with it. Tune in...


From Survival to Financial Power: How I Built My Freedom on a Server's Salary
03/26/2025

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In this empowering episode, I discuss the financial struggles of leaving your narcissistic abuser, shifting from survival to strategy, building a foundation for financial freedom, and my personal lessons for those of you in similar situations. You can break free and establish financial independence for yourself. Is it scary? Absolutely. Is it totally liberating and freeing? Fuck yes it is. 

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Taking the Leap: Leaving Your Narcissistic Abuser and Thriving on Your Own
03/19/2025

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In this powerful episode, I’ll talk about the life-changing decision to finally leave a narcissistic abuser and take that bold step into a new chapter of your life. Whether you’re still contemplating it or have already made the decision, you are stronger than you think, and the life you’ve been dreaming of is within reach.

Leaving a narcissistic relationship is incredibly difficult — filled with fear, doubt, and uncertainty. But I'm here to remind you that you are not alone and that you will be fine<...


Navigating the Workplace with Narcissists: Strategies for Survival and Success
03/12/2025

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In this episode, I'm diving into the difficult and often draining topic of navigating the workplace when dealing with narcissists. Whether it’s a narcissistic boss, a manipulative coworker, or even toxic company culture, you don’t have to let narcissistic behavior derail your career or mental health.

I’ll discuss practical strategies for managing relationships with narcissists at work, setting healthy boundaries, protecting your reputation, and maintaining your peace while still advancing professionally. If you’ve been feeling overwhelmed by narcissistic behavior in the workplace, this episode will give you actionab...


Reactive Abuse Cycle: The Manipulation Tactic That Turns the Victim Into the Villian
03/06/2025

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This episode will educate, validate, and empower listeners who have experienced reactive abuse---a tactic narcissists use to make their victims look like the aggressor. 

*Important Notes*

-Many victims of narcissistic abuse feel shame and guilt for how they reacted. 

-Narcissists weaponize your emotions against you to maintain control. 

-I'm here to help you understand what's happening and take your power back. 

If you've ever felt like YOU became the villain in your own story, this episode is for you. Have you ever experienced this...


*Trigger WARNING* This is Why You Are Getting Re-Triggered in the Bedroom
02/26/2025

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I found myself questioning why I kept getting re-triggered in the bedroom in my sex life. It turns out there is an answer to this problem. After spending time conducting research and practicing energy healing on myself for the past several years, I learned about the role of the key regions of the brain and how sexual trauma/abuse affects us on a mental and physical level. Give this a listen if you dare. 🥀

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Break Free From Narcissist's Control: Reclaiming Your Soul
02/19/2025

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Have you been or are you currently entangled in narcissistic relationships? Listen to this episode to experience the alchemical process of freeing yourself from the psychological, emotional, and energetic control of a narcissist. 

Get my book 📖 There is No Energy More Powerful Than You by Gracen Kahn on Amazon. Kindle & Paperback available. 

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