The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast

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You can want your dream life with your whole heart and still keep stopping one button short. The wild part is that it often isn’t laziness or a lack of discipline. It’s a protective story you learned long ago that says, “That kind of life is for everyone else, not for me.” 

We get real about what the Penthouse Life practice reveals when you actually do it, not just journal about it. I walk through the moment I noticed my own “Ninth Floor” pattern and the fear underneath it: who do I beco...

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You can meditate, journal, manifest, and still quietly stop one button short of the life you say you want. That’s the tension we’re naming today with a simple image that lands fast: an elevator to your “penthouse life.” If you’ve ever felt like abundance is for other people, or you catch yourself saying “I’m fine right here” even when you want more freedom, money, joy, or space, this one is going to feel uncomfortably accurate in the best way. 

I walk you through why so many of us get into the e...

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Something feels heavy lately and not in a vague way. It’s the kind of weight that sits in your chest, tugs at old memories, and makes you wonder why you’re tired when nothing “big” happened today. I’m Julie Nguyen, and I’m sharing a message that came through after a conversation with a close friend, because it put language to what so many of us are moving through right now.

I walk you through a powerful image: all of us at an airport, each on our own moving walkway, tra...

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In this episode of The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast, Julie Nguyen breaks down the real difference between gratitude and abundance — and why abundance can actually feel "sticky" once you start really tracking it. Gratitude is easy: you're grateful for your health, your family, your shoes. But abundance? That requires you to notice what's overflowing around you — the apple tree metaphor, the sourdough starter phenomenon, the abundance that's already surrounding you if you just look. Julie unpacks embodiment, frequency, and why "I am" and "I have an abundance of" statements rewire how you experience abundance dail...

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Manifestation, embodiment, and abundance aren't three separate spiritual buzzwords — they're one continuous bridge, and most people are skipping the middle step.

In this episode of [Podcast Name], we're diving deep into Theme One: Embodiment — the missing link between wanting something and actually receiving it. You'll learn why manifestation isn't about what you want to call in, but about your ability to embody the felt experience of already having it. We break down the difference between vision-boarding a desire and energetically living inside of it — in your nervous system...

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If your life feels like it's falling apart — like something died, like nothing makes sense anymore, like you don't recognize the person in the mirror — this episode is for you.

In this first episode of The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast, we break down the Hero's Journey — the ancient storytelling framework found in nearly every myth, religion, and personal transformation story — and show you why feeling "lost" isn't a sign you're broken. It's a sign you're in Act Two.

Using real personal story (leaving home at 18, b...

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The hardest part of growth isn’t always the pain, it’s the moment you realize you might be ready for more. I had a realization this week that felt equal parts liberating and annoying: I keep thinking about my estrangement from my sister, and I keep asking when it ends. When do I stop replaying it, grieving it, trying to understand it, especially when the person is still alive? Then something clicked. Maybe the problem isn’t that the thought returns. Maybe the problem is believing I can’t move forward until it never...

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You know that moment when you wake up, stare at your calendar, and think: does any of this matter? That’s where I start today, raw and a little over the grind. After years of hustling in a past career and then being forced to rebuild, I hit the kind of frustration that makes you question your gifts, your worth, and whether your creative work is actually making a difference. 

Then my guides drop the most annoying instruction: “Just be.” No fixing. No transcending. No productivity mask. We talk about why “being” fe...

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The fastest way to suffer is to treat your first interpretation as reality. I’m sharing a phrase that has genuinely changed how I move through heartbreak, feedback, uncertainty, and those moments when my mind writes a whole negative story in seconds: “the truth has 144 faces.” When I remember that, I can feel the tight grip of certainty loosen and something better take its place: curiosity.

We explore why 144 (12 times 12) points to wholeness and expansion across spiritual traditions, and I walk you through the crystal metaphor that helps me reframe almost anythi...

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You can feel it in your body when you’re performing. The tightness, the self-editing, the constant scanning for how you’re coming across. I talk about that push-pull of wanting recognition while also being terrified of being seen, because being seen means people notice your mistakes, misunderstand you, and have opinions you can’t control.

I also name the sneaky ways we try to earn visibility: “I’ll do it when I’m more polished,” “when I lose the weight,” “when I get the credential,” “when I say it perfectly.” That finish line never sto...

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Healing can turn into a loop that never ends: another thing to fix, another way to improve, another reason to feel behind. I’m sharing the moment I realized I don’t want to live there anymore, and why the next step isn’t “more healing” but remembering who I am and learning to love her again, even when she’s awkward, eager, messy, or wildly ambitious. 

We talk about the power of authentic community, the kind that actually helps you practice being seen without shame. I open up about how years of bein...

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The fastest way to change your life might be changing one sentence you keep repeating. I’m talking about the power of a reframe, not as fake positivity, but as a spiritual practice that shifts your energy, your focus, and your sense of what’s possible. When I catch myself saying “I have so much work to do” while I’m building and creating, I realize how quickly my own words can turn a dream into a burden. 

I share a real, gritty moment from my life: getting lost in building my website...

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Your past can teach you a lot, but it can also become a portal you keep reopening every time you’re scared to move forward. I’m Julie Nguyen, and I share what I’m living in real time: the moment my guides basically told me to “close the portal on your past,” and the uncomfortable truth that sometimes “I need to heal more” is just a polished version of fear. The real question isn’t what hurt you. It’s who you are now, and what it looks like to live from that place.

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Healing can save your life and still become a trap. We’ve both seen how easy it is to swap one kind of survival for another: scanning for what’s wrong, chasing the next supplement, the next diagnosis, the next nervous system technique, the next piece of trauma to uncover. When the “work” becomes your identity, it starts to quietly reinforce the belief that you’re broken. We dig into that uncomfortable turning point and the reframe that changes everything.

We also talk about the tenderness of returning home to yourself. The world...

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Four short lines can sound like a cliché until you try them when your chest is tight, your mind is spinning, and your body is still carrying the charge of what happened. We sit down with the Ho'oponopono prayer, an ancient Hawaiian healing practice, and share how “I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you” becomes less about performing forgiveness and more about clearing the energy inside us. The goal is not shame. The goal is returning to love.

We talk about why spiritual tools hit in layers and why...

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Your manifestations don’t just respond to what you write down, they respond to what you’re willing to feel. We’re sharing a channeled May message with one simple theme that keeps getting repeated for a reason: love and allowance. Not as a fluffy idea, but as a grounded practice that changes how you move through your day, how you make choices, and how safe your body feels while you’re growing. 

We start by gathering scattered energy back into the present moment, building an energetic container around the body, and creat...

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A stranger looks past my head and says I “brought a lot of people” with me. Minutes later, a mystic across a tea table asks the kind of question that makes your stomach drop: Do you know who you are? Not what you do. Not what you’ve survived. Not what your gifts are. Who you are. 

I’m Julie Nguyen, and I’m sharing a dreamlike night from 2020 when I was overseas teaching dance right before the world shifted. An invitation pulls me into a quiet tea shop down a dark alley...

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Holding a beloved pet through their final breath is one of the clearest, most heartbreaking mirrors life can offer. I’m recording for the first time without my little dog Jack beside me, and I share what it was like to walk him through the dying process after 17 years together, including the tender details we rarely say out loud: the pauses, the fighting, the peace, and the moment everything goes still.

As I stayed with him, I felt a spiritual download I can’t ignore. I heard the phrase “Great Creator” and a me...

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A goodbye can be the most honest spiritual practice you’ll ever touch. I’m sitting in my living room in Colorado with the window open on a snowy May day, recording while my sweet dog Jack rests beside me at the edge of his transition. This isn’t polished, and it isn’t meant to be uplifting in a performative way. It’s grief in real time, and it’s also a love letter to what it means to stay present when everything in you wants to outrun the ending. 

Jack has been...

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If you’ve been calling it “healing” but it feels like you’re stuck in a daily scan for what’s wrong, this conversation offers a different doorway. I talk about shifting from a healing journey to a remembering journey so your growth stops feeling like self-correction and starts feeling like coming home to your real identity, your life force, and your one of one uniqueness.

We go deep into the roles we play to survive and belong: the fixer, the caretaker, the strong one, the healer, the people pleaser, the “one who hold...

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Family estrangement is a kind of grief that doesn’t fit neatly into the usual boxes. When the person you miss is still alive, still nearby, and still tangled up in your history, the sadness can feel endless and strangely invisible. I open up about my own rupture, what it cost me to leave an emotionally abusive and financially abusive relationship, and the deeper family fallout that left me feeling alone, blamed, and unmoored. 

We sit with the raw truth of missing my sister while also knowing the relationship carried unhealthy dyn...

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You are not here to become someone else. That is the heartbeat of this Spiritual Shit Show solo, where I get blunt and tender about what self-love actually is and what it is not. If you have been treating your healing like a constant self-improvement project, consider this your reset: the whole journey is learning how to love yourself, not fix yourself into a perfect, polished, “enlightened” version.

We talk about why self-love does not equal arrogance, selfishness, or being the loudest person in the room. Real love is humble. It is q...

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Your nervous system might be the real narrator of your life and if it never learned safety, it will keep writing every scene like a threat is coming. We get honest about what it feels like to live revved up all the time, how that shapes relationships and self-image, and why “doing more healing” can turn into another survival strategy instead of real relief.

I walk through the turning point that changed everything for me: realizing I wasn’t actually trying to forgive everyone else, I was trying to forgive myself. The ve...

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Your life can fall apart and still be a gift, but only after you stop trying to rebuild the same old version of you. I’m sharing the raw story behind a major rupture in my world: building a successful dance studio in my twenties, living in nonstop pressure, then being forced to walk away and losing far more than a job. When the community disappears, the identity dissolves, and the nervous system stays stuck in fight or flight, it can feel like you’re drowning even when you’re still standing. 

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The weirdest part of healing is when it finally works. The chaos quiets down, your nervous system stops scanning for danger, and instead of instant bliss you feel… disoriented. If you’ve spent years doing therapy, trauma healing, inner child work, journaling, retreats, plant medicine, and personal development, that empty space can mess with your head. Your mind starts whispering: Are you delusional? Are you missing something? Don’t you have something to fix? 

We unpack why “being okay” can feel unsafe after a life in survival mode and how hypervigilance trains you...

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Healing can feel amazing right up until it starts to feel like a drug. On 4/20, we play with the idea of “getting high” in a different way: getting so hooked on personal growth, therapy, journaling, shadow work, manifestation, and spiritual work that we forget how to simply live. If you have ever thought, “I have done the work… so now what?” you are going to feel seen. 

We dig into the quiet pressure to chase the next breakthrough and the next level, like there is a finish line where nothing ever triggers yo...

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Your mind can understand what happened and still feel hijacked by it. That’s the reality of rupture and repair, and it’s why I keep coming back to the nervous system. When a relationship breaks, a family bond strains, or grief hits out of nowhere, the hardest part isn’t always the story. It’s the body reliving the charge through triggers, contraction, panic, numbness, or sudden tears that make no sense on paper. 

I share a deeply personal pattern I couldn’t explain at first: every year, like clockwork, I’d cry thr...

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The fastest way to lose yourself is to confuse your role with your essence and the slowest way back is learning who you are without the title. I’m recording from my dining room table, no lights and no performance, because this story needs the kind of honesty that can actually hold it. 

I start with a question that can change everything: what identity feels most comfortable for you, not necessarily most aligned? We talk about the “strong one,” the “responsible one,” the caretaker, the achiever, and all the labels that once kept u...

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The fastest way to feel lost is to forget how supported you are and the fastest way back is to remember where you can actually touch that support. We’re sharing a recorded April channeled message from Julie Nguyen titled “The Great Remembering: See The Light,” and it lands like a calm hand on your shoulder when the world feels loud.

We explore what “the guides” really are, not as a faraway hierarchy, but as a living field of intelligence you can experience through ancestors, spirit guides, angels, nature, and your own quiet...

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A polished life can look convincing from the outside, but your nervous system knows the truth. Today I’m sharing something tender and unfinished: how losing my mom when I was three still ripples through my life, even 44 years later. I walk through the memory as I hold it, the sensory snapshots, the confusion, and the quiet ways grief keeps resurfacing when I least expect it.

I also wrestle with a big question many of us carry: what if healing doesn’t mean the sadness goes away? We live in a cult...

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Close your eyes, slow your breath, and step onto a beam of light that carries you beyond the skyline, past the clouds, and into the quiet of space—then home again to a future that feels both surprising and familiar. We guide you through a calm, evocative meditation designed to lower stress, widen perspective, and help you meet a wiser version of yourself who has already lived through what you’re facing today.

We start by settling the body with smooth, even breathing and a ripple image that melts tension from head...

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We share the story of walking away from a 17-year dream and the long desert that followed, where anger, grief, and panic became guides instead of enemies. We show how somatic therapy, self-forgiveness, and honest permission to feel helped us stand again.

• why spirituality can feel messy and human
• the earthquake moment that ends an old life
• the cost of refusing to let go of identity
• anger as boundary intelligence and fuel
• the desert after shock and how to endure
• depression, anxiety and nervous system overload
• why ea...

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We trace Julie’s path from burnout to embodied success and guide a full future self meditation that turns vague goals into grounded choices. Listeners learn to choose a physical anchor, ask focused questions, and align ambition with what actually feels true.

• chasing goals without fulfillment
• strategy versus soulful alignment
• guided future self visualization
• noticing sensory details of a desired day
• asking what to focus on and release
• receiving a symbol and its meaning
• choosing a daily physical anchor
• integrating calm, joy and presence

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Ever feel like you’re sprinting toward your dream life while your body quietly begs you to slow down? We dig into the quiet power of “chop wood, carry water” and show how ordinary actions can become the most reliable engine for extraordinary growth. Instead of pushing harder, we walk through a grounded approach to manifesting that starts with taking honest inventory of what you already have—home, breath, relationships, energy for creative work—and letting your nervous system register safety and sufficiency before you reach for more.

Together we unpack why future...

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Ever feel the surge of clarity after journaling, meditating, or a retreat—only to get smacked by an old trigger and wonder if anything worked? Julie Wynne takes us straight into the messy middle where growth actually happens, unpacking why resistance spikes right after momentum and how to meet it without making it mean you failed. Using the vivid metaphor of life as a video game, we talk about new levels, tougher bosses, and the art of replaying without shame—because challenge is part of the design, not a detour.

We dive...

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Healing explains the past, but it doesn’t automatically teach you how to live. Julie opens up about the strange calm that follows years of inner work—the moment when the breakthroughs slow, the nervous system keeps scanning for danger, and you wonder if stillness means you’re stuck. Instead of chasing one more revelation, we explore how to cross the bridge from healing to living with practices that are humble, repeatable, and powerful.

We dive into a compassionate life review that doesn’t excuse behavior but releases the shame and guilt st...

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The headlines keep peeling back layers, and many of us feel the ground tremble under what used to seem solid. I open the door to a different kind of stability: a living life review that softens the grip of stubborn righteousness and rebuilds identity from love, not armor. Instead of pouring energy into outrage alone, we trace the mirror back inward and ask a brave question—what am I gripping that I no longer need in order to exist?

Across this conversation, I share where I’ve clung to the story of m...

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What if healing isn’t about deleting the past, but letting love reshape it into something you can live with—beautifully? Today we sit with the hard truth that control can’t finish what love begins. We talk about the hidden contracts we make with healing—find the root, pull it out, be done—and why that plan stalls when our hearts are still gripping righteousness, the apology we never got, and the safety of being understood. Instead of forcing closure, we explore how surrender invites transformation that analysis alone can’t deliver.

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What if the most powerful move you can make today is to stop trying to fix yourself? We open a spacious, honest conversation about radical acceptance, the limits of constant self-improvement, and how love transforms in ways hustle cannot. Instead of stacking more tools and tasks onto an already full life, we practice letting the present moment be enough and discover the quiet intelligence that rises when we loosen our grip.

We walk through the subtle trap of “doing” even in spiritual work—always healing, manifesting, protecting, improving—and explore why that pac...