The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast
The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast— where the magic meets the mess.This is my little corner of the podcast universe, where we make personal growth feel a little more human — and a lot more fun. Here, I share the ups, downs, sideways spirals, and surprising sparkles of healing, self-discovery, and spiritual misadventures — all with a wink, a laugh, and a whole lot of heart.Because here’s the thing: healing doesn’t have to be so serious. It can be joyful, playful, messy, beautiful, and unapologetically real. Self-development isn’t about coloring inside the lines — it’s about love, connection, freedom, and daring to te...
Am I Too Much? | People-Pleasing, Self-Abandonment & the Freedom to Be Yourself
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Have you ever left a conversation wondering, “Did I talk too much? Was I too loud? Did I overshare? Was I too much?”
What if the greatest thing holding you back from experiencing true freedom isn't your circumstances, but the fear of being fully yourself?
A simple morning conversation with my husband about freedom turned into an unexpected realization: How often do I abandon myself just to feel accepted?
In this deeply personal episode of The Spiritual Shitshow, I'm exploring the connection between peop...
Who Am I Without My Survival Mechanisms? | Identity, Healing & Self-Awareness
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Who are you when you no longer need the survival mechanisms that helped you become who you are?
In this deeply personal episode of The Spiritual Shitshow, Julie Nguyen explores the uncomfortable, messy, and sometimes hilarious process of shedding old identities, recognizing survival patterns, and discovering what it means to simply BE.
After an emotional weekend of self-reflection, a powerful experience during yoga's corpse pose (Savasana), and an unexpected lesson while walking around a lake, Julie begins questioning something profound:
How do you know...
Ignorance is Bliss- my substack audio
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“Coming home to yourself” can sound like a pretty slogan until you realize it asks for something raw: honesty about the parts of your story you still judge. I’m unpacking what that phrase means for me in real time, including the uncomfortable truth that I’ve carried a quiet weight of shame for years.
I take you back to a moment that felt like pure freedom: three days after high school, driving a cherry red 1989 Ford Escort toward an unknown future with music blasting and the past shrinking in the rearview...
My Personal Process and Check in with Guides aroung MONEY
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Money shows up… and then it’s gone. If you’ve ever watched your bank account do that weird magic trick, you’re going to feel seen here. I’m talking out loud through my own “money in, money out” pattern and letting my guides help me look under the surface without handing them the steering wheel. The big reminder I keep coming back to: guidance is a perspective, but I’m the authority in my life, and so are you.
We dig into manifestation through the lens of the energy body, especially...
Pivoting into Authentic Manifestation Dialogue
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Your intuition says “pivot,” and your brain replies with a full courtroom drama about commitment, reputation, and letting people down. That tension is where we start. I walk through a real decision to change the plan for Energy Club and why listening to what feels honest is not quitting, it is practicing self-trust in real time.
From there we zoom out to something bigger: how we show up for each other without shrinking. When we are afraid of being “too much,” we stay trapped in a version of safety that keeps us disco...
Anchored In Your Deepest Desire- A pivot in the Podcast/Manifestation Series
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The weirdest part of manifestation is not the dreaming, it is the moment right after things start going well. I share what it feels like when life looks amazing, momentum builds, and then suddenly everything contracts and it feels like a door shuts in your face. If you have ever been close to a goal and then hit a wall, you will recognize this season immediately.
We lean on guidance that cuts through the panic with one simple idea: anchor. I keep hearing the question “What are you anchored to?” because when...
Nervous System and Soulful Manifesting Part 4
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The wild part about manifestation isn’t setting the goal, it’s what happens when you’re close to receiving it and your body goes, “Wait… are we safe?” I’m talking through that exact moment in real time, because I just watched a money goal come within reach and my first response wasn’t excitement, it was panic. If you’ve ever asked for more and then immediately questioned whether you can handle it, this conversation will feel uncomfortably familiar in the best way.
We dig into the role of the nervous system...
The Manifestation Gap- Manifestation Series part 3
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You know that maddening moment when you’re doing the “right” manifestation work, you feel aligned and even joyful, and still… nothing lands? No new clients. No money surge. No clear sign. I’m back with more channeled guidance from my guides, and we get honest about that collective stuck feeling and why it can hit even when your mindset feels solid.
We talk about “the gap” as a real part of the manifestation process, not a punishment. Sometimes the pause is where you catch up, clean up limiting beliefs, and build the capac...
Manifestation Series- Part 2
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“Divine timing” can sound comforting, but it can also quietly keep us stuck in waiting, second-guessing, and low-grade suffering. I walk through questions four, five, and six of my manifestation series by talking directly with my guides, and we land on a reframe that feels both spiritual and practical: swap divine timing for perfect timing, where what matters most is your readiness to hold what you’re asking for.
We get specific about how to recognize readiness, using joy, fun, and genuine excitement as real-time signals that you’re tuned to what you...
A Guided Meditation For Creating From The Present Moment
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Manifestation can feel mysterious until you treat it like something you’re already doing every day. We talk about why the word “manifest” can actually distract you from your real power, then reframe it as “creating” through frequency and form. That small change tightens your focus fast: instead of asking for a result, you start noticing the signal you’re sending through your attention, emotions, and body.
From there, we move into a guided chair meditation designed to help you get out of your own way by practicing one core skill: staying right...
Manifestation Isn’t What You Think: How to Actually Co-Create What You Want | Manifestation Series Pt. 1
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What if manifestation isn’t actually something you do?
Welcome to Part 1 of a new Manifestation Series on The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast, where I’m taking my real questions about manifestation, abundance, alignment, divine timing and creating the life you actually want—and bringing them directly to my guides.
In this first episode, I channel answers to three big questions:
✨ What is manifestation, really?
✨ What’s the difference between desire, manifestation and alignment?
✨ How much of manifestation is energy—and how much is action?
Wh...
Trade The Grading Rubric For A Soul Compass
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That uneasy spiral of “Am I doing this right?” can hijack your creativity, your business, and even your healing. I’m pulling that feeling into the light and naming what’s really happening: when we ask if something is “good,” we’re often asking if we’re safe from rejection. And the price of chasing safety is high. We start editing our ideas before they breathe, building our lives around other people’s comfort, and mistaking likes, praise, or approval for truth.
I talk about why we’re conditioned to seek validation in the fi...
Coming Home to Yourself: Reclaiming Who You Are After Years of Healing
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What if healing isn’t about becoming someone new—but finally coming home to who you’ve always been?
After nearly ten years of healing, grief, forgiveness, shadow work, and rebuilding, I’m beginning to hear a new message: Julie, tell a new story.
In this episode of The Spiritual Shitshow, I’m talking about what it actually means to heal when healing takes much longer than you thought it would. I share a recent experience of moving through deep grief, realizing what was underneath it was lov...
What Am I For? (And the Song Only You Can Play)
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Have you ever held back on a dream, a creative project, or a career shift because you were too busy wondering: "Is this right? What will people think?"
In this episode, we dive deep into the paralyzing trap of seeking external permission and why we so easily let others put our unique, living gifts onto a linear path. We explore a beautiful visual shift: viewing the universe not as a test to pass, but as a grand symphony. Every single one of us was handed a specific instrument at birth. When...
The Survival Lag: Why Your Body Resists Peace (And How to Fix It)
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Have you ever finally gotten the healthy relationship, the peaceful home, or the stable life you prayed for—only to find your body waiting for the other shoe to drop?In this episode, Julie breaks down the concept of "The Survival Lag"—the frustrating gap between your mind knowing you are safe and your nervous system actually believing it. When you’ve survived chaos, peace can feel like a threat.Julie dives deep into why our bodies take longer to trust peace than our minds do, how to hold space for your messy...Grace After Survival Mode: Let Your Nervous System Learn Safety
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"Spirit always meets us with so much grace, doesn’t it?"
In this episode, Julie dives into a profound moment of realization that stopped her in her tracks. After years of doing the heavy lifting of healing, growth, and spiritual alignment, she looked around to find beautiful relationships, deep safety, and true lightness. But as she dropped out of her head and into her body, she realized a startling truth: her nervous system was still waiting for the other shoe to drop.
If you have ever felt a sense of anxiety or...
You Are the Authority: Stop Giving Your Power Away to Psychics, Tarot & Your Guides
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What if your spirit guides aren’t here to tell you what to do?
What if a psychic reading isn’t supposed to predict your future—but help you see yourself, your choices, and your path more clearly?
In this episode of The Spiritual Shit Show, Julie Wynn explores a message her guides have been practically shouting:
“Julie, you are the authority. We are just your team.”
When life feels uncertain, it’s incredibly human to search for answers. We ask our guides...
Guided Breathwork + Somatic Practice for Triggers, Emotional Regulation & Coming Back to Yourself
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Guided Breathwork + Somatic Practice for Triggers, Emotional Regulation & Coming Back to Yourself
When you’re triggered, it can feel like everything gets loud—your thoughts, your emotions, your body, your nervous system.
This guided meditation is an invitation to slow it all down.
Through gentle breathwork, somatic awareness, and the simple practice of naming what is coming in, I’ll guide you out of the charge of the trigger and back into connection with your body.
Rather than judging, fixing, suppressing, or imm...
Why Am I So Triggered? How To Work With Triggers Instead Of Fighting Them
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Why do we get triggered—and what if a trigger isn't something we need to immediately fix, suppress, or get rid of?
In this episode of The Spiritual Shitshow, Julie Nguyen explores triggers through the lens of energy, nervous-system awareness, somatic healing, and self-discovery.
A trigger carries information. And sometimes one of the most powerful things we can do is simply name what's happening: I'm feeling triggered.
That moment of recognition can create space between the emotional charge and our response. Instead of immediately reacting, suppressing, or ju...
Why Am I So Triggered? 3 Ways to Regulate Your Nervous System
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Why am I so triggered—and what is my nervous system actually trying to tell me?
In this follow-up episode of The Spiritual Shitshow, Julie Nguyen breaks down emotional triggers, nervous system activation, and how to use your triggers as information instead of immediately reacting to them.
A trigger can show up as anxiety, anger, shutting down, people-pleasing, overthinking, wanting to run, feeling rejected, or suddenly feeling emotionally overwhelmed. But being triggered doesn't always mean the story your mind is creating is true. Sometimes your nervous system is responding to...
Why Healing Feels Scary And How To Reframe It
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That hot, sweaty, “please don’t look too closely” feeling before therapy or a healing session is not a sign you’re broken. It’s a sign you’re human. I’m Julia Nguyen, and I’m naming the fear so many of us carry into coaching, energy work, and even honest talks with friends: What if they see what’s actually inside of me?
We tend to treat inner work like a horror movie, as if opening one locked door in our psyche will reveal something shameful that proves we’re beyond help. I wa...
Family Estrangement: Channeled messages and Q&A
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Hope can be the most exhausting part of family estrangement. The hope that they’ll finally understand. The hope that they’ll apologize. The hope that one day the relationship will feel safe again. I sit with five listener questions and channel guidance that challenges a popular idea: that acceptance is the end goal. Sometimes acceptance just becomes a new way to carry sadness, betrayal, and abandonment.
We move toward a different frame: soul accountability. That means asking what you came here to learn, how your triggers are pointing to your grow...
Family Estrangement:Permission to grieve someone who is still alive
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Family estrangement can make you feel like you are doing something wrong just because it still hurts. We sit with the real question under the question: why does a boundary that protects my peace still come with grief, longing, and that strange ache for a family that never quite existed?
We talk through how common estrangement actually is, then zoom out to family systems theory and the roles that get assigned in every family. The “peacekeeper,” the “caretaker,” the “free spirit,” the one who “doesn’t need anything” can show up again in seconds...
The Sadness that Comes with Family Estrangement and a Path Towards Healing
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Some grief doesn’t come with flowers or a funeral. It shows up as a hollow space where love was supposed to live: the mothering, sisterhood, protection, mentorship, and unconditional care you kept hoping would finally arrive. If you’ve ever grieved someone who’s still alive, felt the sting of family estrangement, or wondered why “just let it go” only makes it worse, this conversation is for you.
We talk about what it means to claim your story without guilt, shame, fear, or the old roles that kept you quiet. I share ho...
I wonder what would happen if I allow.... a reframe for goal setting
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I woke up with one word on my mind: commitment. Not the tight, controlling kind that lives in color-coded plans and “try harder” speeches, but the kind that says, “I’m here. I’m paying attention. I’m willing to participate in my own life.” If you’ve been feeling the pressure of the calendar, the weight of goals, or that familiar end-of-year panic, this conversation offers a calmer, truer path.
We talk about how New Year intentions can inspire us and also quietly turn our lives into endless self-improvement projects. When you’re alwa...
The Power Of Being Witnessed
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Someone can’t heal what they’re not allowed to say out loud. We sit with a simple but radical idea: sometimes the most powerful thing you can offer isn’t a solution, a reframe, or a spiritual lesson. It’s a witness. I talk about the difference between being “observed” and being truly seen, and why that kind of seeing can soften the inner distortion many of us carry around our bodies, our work, and our worth.
I share a story from years ago in China when a friend stopped me mid-spira...
The Remembering You Channeled Message and Guided Meditation
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Something shifts when we stop brushing off love and actually let it in. We start with a quiet, heartfelt thank you and a moment of honoring, then move into a guided meditation designed to help you come back to yourself, especially if your energy has been scattered across people, problems, and old stories.
Together, we call your awareness back into the present moment through breath, grounding, and a protective orb-of-light visualization that supports real release. We let gravity do the work, soften the places that feel tight or heavy, and invite...
What If Self-Care Is Learning To Fly
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A dream can be thrilling right up until it comes true. I’m recording the morning after I bring “Remembering You” to life, a women’s gathering that felt like an initiation and a closing of a long loop in my own spiritual journey. The room is full, the energy is real, and the day is bookended by uncanny signs a feather in the car, Fleetwood Mac on the speakers, a praying mantis on my altar. I call it a thin place, that rare moment where intuition, grief, joy, and the divine all feel clo...
Just For Today
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Forever is a lot to ask of yourself. Today is something you can actually hold.
We’re practicing a deceptively simple Reiki-based mantra: “just for today.” It’s a small phrase with big nervous-system benefits, especially when you’re stuck in overthinking, chasing the next version of yourself, or waiting for some future milestone to finally let you relax. We walk through the Reiki principles, just for today I will not anger, just for today I will not worry, just for today I will be grateful, just for today I will do my work...
Do The Thing
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Your feed is full of perfect words, perfect angles, perfect advice and somehow it can leave you feeling less alive. So I take the mic outside and let real life into the recording: cars passing, birds chirping, wind moving through the trees. From that grounded place, I start asking a question that cuts through the noise: what happens when we actually step into our gifts?
We talk about gifts in the widest, most human sense not just talents you can sell, but the ways you naturally bring something to the world...
Put The Bags Down
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You know that feeling when you finally sit down, and your brain whispers, “You should be doing more”? I talk about that voice, where it comes from, and why it keeps so many of us stuck in hustle culture even when we are exhausted. If you have been carrying emotional baggage, chasing goals that never feel like enough, or tying your self worth to productivity, this is a gentle but honest reset.
We get into the idea of spiritual minimalism: the belief that real growth is often subtraction, not accumulation. I shar...
The Third Option
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Your brain loves a clean, dramatic choice when you’re stressed: stay or go, push harder or give up, control everything or avoid it completely. That’s not always wisdom. A lot of the time, it’s a nervous system that’s convinced everything is an emergency and is hunting for certainty like it’s oxygen.
I share a very real, crunchy week where I swing between being lit up and totally tanked, and how that spiral pulls me into binary thinking around work, money, rebuilding, and “getting it right.” Then we slow it dow...
The Women We Become in Community
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Healing can look like a solo grind until you realize what’s missing: a witness. I’m sharing the shift that’s changing my life right now, the moment healing stops being an individual sport and becomes a celebration of remembering who you truly are. When the right people see you clearly, they don’t “fix” you. They mirror you, and that reflection becomes medicine.
We dig into why community can feel hard, especially if you’ve learned hyper-independence or carry abandonment wounds. Then I offer a simple, powerful relationship filter I’m practicing...
From Penthouse Living to Divine Feminine Rising- a recap
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The most frustrating “why can’t I get there?” moments usually aren’t about money, timing, or luck. They’re about the quiet places we leave ourselves behind. We sit down and connect the dots between penthouse living, abundance, allowance, and the rise of the divine feminine, then land on the uncomfortable truth that changes everything: self abandonment is often the real block between you and the life you say you want.
We talk frequency as a lived identity, not a vibe you post about. Penthouse living becomes a mirror for where you...
What If Empowerment Means Union Not Dominance
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Feeling the ground shift under your life lately? I am too and when it hits me that way, it usually means something bigger is moving through all of us. This conversation picks up the thread of self-abandonment and takes it deeper, because “stop abandoning yourself” is not just a personal mantra. It changes how you parent, how you love, and what you allow.
I talk plainly about the divine feminine rising and I also name what it is not. It is not trendy spiritual jargon. It is not man bashing. It is n...
Never Underestimate the Power of a Woman's Love
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The moment you stop keeping the peace at your own expense, everything changes and not in the dramatic way people assume. I’m sharing a real, ordinary argument with my husband that turned into a pivotal line in the sand: I’m no longer willing to abandon myself just to make the home feel calm. What happened next caught me off guard, because my 13-year-old daughter noticed the shift, asked what was wrong, and when I told her “nothing is wrong, and everything’s gonna be different because Mom has decided that she is no lo...
Stop Self-Abandonment
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If you’ve ever wondered why you can visualize the dream, do the affirmations, and still feel stuck, I want to offer a gentler, sharper possibility: the real block might be the quiet ways you abandon yourself. Not just in big dramatic moments, but in the everyday edits, the swallowed truth, the dream you downplay before anyone can judge it, the “I’m fine” you use to keep love stable. This is a deep dive into self-abandonment and the cost it quietly charges.
We talk about abundance mindset in a way that goe...
Stop Forcing The Wrong Dream
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If you’ve been calling yourself lazy, unmotivated, or “behind,” I want you to consider a sharper possibility: you’re not stuck because you’re broken. You’re stuck because you’re trying to force a door that was never yours to walk through. I share a personal reckoning that hits hard, the kind that makes you stop mid-thought and go, “Oh… wow.”
We get real about inherited dreams and conditioned goals, the ones we absorb from family, friends, social media, past relationships, or pure survival mode. I talk about what it feels like to grie...
Your Dream Life Starts With A Belief Audit
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You can want your dream life with your whole heart and still keep stopping one button short. The wild part is that it often isn’t laziness or a lack of discipline. It’s a protective story you learned long ago that says, “That kind of life is for everyone else, not for me.”
We get real about what the Penthouse Life practice reveals when you actually do it, not just journal about it. I walk through the moment I noticed my own “Ninth Floor” pattern and the fear underneath it: who do I beco...
Penthouse Living
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You can meditate, journal, manifest, and still quietly stop one button short of the life you say you want. That’s the tension we’re naming today with a simple image that lands fast: an elevator to your “penthouse life.” If you’ve ever felt like abundance is for other people, or you catch yourself saying “I’m fine right here” even when you want more freedom, money, joy, or space, this one is going to feel uncomfortably accurate in the best way.
I walk you through why so many of us get into the e...
