SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
Documenting my notes verbally until I can get back to writing/reading/use of notebooks & working every day on a recovery of distracting, unrelenting & mentally taxing nerve radiculopathy that currently is hips down. Today is September 27, 2025 and things have significantly changed since use of Grok providing detailed analysis of a tweet. The methodology will be presented in short videos.This videos validate prolonged exposure therapy through video editing.The objective is to end the darkness of SI (& HI when people hurt they hurt others) and change society by teaching self-assessment tools that quantify behavior making it measurable & thus changeable, identify s...
END OF ADVOCACY.
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As I look for ONE THING IN PARTICULAR. A letter from my PCP who summed up all diagnoses & contained 10,000s of pieces of paper over how many years, I'm finding other things, too...
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Finally, advocacy can be a dialogue. Not a monologue.
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The thing I will not say & now is HOW I KNOW 100% I am no longer expressive with trauma, but can hear self is... (thinking: just write it)
I will begin writing & that THOUGHT will remain & represent the adrenaline (repeating thoughts), for 1) getting into the office 2) touching paper to dampen sensory in fingertips 3)
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1st 6 minutes (6x4 = 24) is where the VII (very important info) is, so just listen to that. The rest of repeat repeat repeat & notes are contained in "Episode Description." OK. DIVE INTO TECH. Let's go!
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FAMILY | the caretakers & then a behavior I just newly UNDERSTOOD with these “other” families. Right. The “other” which are those who don’t think like “us.”
There was something else I heard, prompting me to take notes, but lost it, but looking at the circle moving along & the number 23:25 so knowing in 1/4ths. At around 6 minutes or before, I could hear it again.
The shock is DISBELIEF & it stops me from talking—that’s what they want.
The food drive!!
“FAP” is FAPE. So pronounced w...
all of that to get to, "MOVING TO A BEAUTIFUL SPACE" like a showroom can instantly uplift mode.
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What about those icky places in contrast? Like a storage closet (the worst) instead of a classroom (the best). Make every day in every way a classroom. HMMMM
Ruh Roh. I'm thinking now!!!
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holy cannoli. It's over. There's nothing but typing, listening & evidence of regression at the exact date & then ask GEE. WHAT CHANGE?!?
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How do you treat people in these relationships & HAVE GRATITUDE. That’s right. Increase G to decrease "C word"/Complaints & why keep reliving it!!!! I GOT THIS!!!!
By the way, the image is a symbol for Neptune. Black & Blue Bruise Hue or animal abuse/DV/battering & all the spaces of advocacy I was doing, the origin truly is, IT. I am not losing the origin of things. EVER.
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& again. The black & blue bruise hue again & again until THE END.
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The right side? Using words for good. To end suicide instantly by saying ONE MORE DAY. MAKE IT ONE MORE DAY (usually nighttime is the worst) but the point, give them HOPE every day. Isn't that EDUCATION!?
I labeled this "first one is done for you" since FIRST TIME. It's my first time... my parents didn't teach me _____. Geez! How many more times & 3x in a row, so fast, like acceleration & why super sensory made it MAKE SENSE. #predator
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I am into the PROVE IT game. Rude behavior. These are "friends."
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REALLY?
A 2nd GO & a dinner relived where I decided to do nothing. Say nothing unless spoken to & no follow-up. Said ahead of time. I'll be different so you get it. How else to FULLY UNDERSTAND. Standing around in the cold not talking about what to do/go next. "How about we go inside?" & this memory just on replay 1x every 3 years, so no need to talk about it. It's weak so get rid of it in the description connected to writing as you listen to really say, but, it's still...
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felt COMPELLED to do so. Then realized when they did respond publicly (with their name...hmmm) it was really about...
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...that principal who acted differently in ONE ENVIRONMENT. The winter assembly & the evaluation. TOTALLY CONTRASTING BEHAVIORS. Now, that's "significant."
TY to the person who used this word while I was in duress biologically & let's just say, it stuck. Cool.
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I hear it! It's in the UK. Created a template when ptsd is removed like this injury. 2 years without PTSD.
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Purely physical & then...
What HELPS
What HARMS
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Listening to self. APRIL 18th PRIOR | all containers for ptsd.
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The behavior : INTERRUPT WHY? to limit that interaction.
I went from DV assessment to that extra time you take to dress up for church is worth it even if you get LESS SLEEP. That’s a giant change of topic mid-thought! CAUGHT IT. I made thinking 3-D.
Scott Pelley!! & the evening news. The traditions created by your parents. Talking about politics & a family that doesn’t talk about politics. ASK WHY? GOT IT.
Alcohol
Sex
Strip Clubs & that's the bachelor party. STATED...
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RIDICULOUS & DISGUSTING.
Welcome to the first day of a 365-day course. That means that every day there is a lesson & within this ONE COMPOSITION will be the other 9 in bits-and-pieces since EACH IS A BKACK WH:LE (whoops. Nerves went up). There is alternative spelling throughout & it may look like a familiar language from another time.
How did we get language at all? In addition to decomposition, data collection, serious advocation, dogs & cats, I am extremely interested in the origin of words. Start in UK. Howl at t...
LAST ONE
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Part I | TRUST & ACCEPTANCE & SUPPORT TEAM
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Just keep talking
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PART II | tick tick boom
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PART I
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The word is DISHONORABLE & when it pops up (auditory + contradiction*) repeatedly, you ADDRESS it like any “trigger.” When you see/hear that word, think SENSORY.
I will be asking you to identify the sensory Max. Is it audio? Is it visual? Is it smell? Is it taste? Is a touch? To me audiovisual together with touch because touch implies audiovisual like a movie. That’s the only way I can explain it.
* just talking to self. No conversation. Let’s call this spontaneous conversation. That’s when a child just sort o...
Part II
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Music : “All My Love” by Coldplay.
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SUICIDE & how to assess.
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Also, the voice that always enabled me to "stay on track" as a way to say. I know things you don't know, little kid. There is this huge age difference between my siblings & I. Lucky to have the guide/how-to/sage & why looking for veterans in their field of study or interests to be the experts.
Also, not ALL VETERANS have the best intentions. ptsDUH.
tick tick boom. Let's make those museum labels to a) face a fear b) remove an audio & visual memory --two people talking openly connected t...
Keepting data on SLEEP & why "every day is no longer a new day."
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3 days GREAT ZZZ. 1 day not so great, but that's also connected to weekly routine to get out of house on WEDNESDAY (The best day! The Principal's Meeting!) but then back on track so the goal is to make the best [muscle] memories in preparation for NEXT WEEK. So there will be a next week? Yes. SUICIDE IS OVER & the first conversations with doctors were about zzz.
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#14 | We have #s back fo' realz! THE END OF ADVOCACY IS HERE!
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AGREEMENTS & CONSENT!
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Dropping the seed for the artist who abandoned their work because I attached "museum label" to in order to get into the office.
FIND "bits of paper" to write on. At the time, I couldn't do it, symptoms worse since I was FORCING myself to do so. Now, ask why?
You will be able to figure it out, I promise, as long as you trUst your gUt or you!
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In the classroom. Tick Tick Boom!
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The hum of the refrigerator got me to the word "humiliation" which I could not say before since this is #mentalAbuse portion starting now. I unplugged the fridge because it was so bad---since abusers' need to take FULL SHAME. Why this is about those that enjoy the suffering of others & target individuals with vulnerabilities. They get full credit for giving me full awareness & that BEING EXPRESSIVE AFTER TRAUMA IS NOT GOOD FOR SURVIVAL SO CHANGE. How to turn off something that makes you vulnerable automatically? It's not instantly, but first time in a...
Getting nearer to writing or Museum Label.
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The weight of these headphones now feel great!
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It's really obvious that if I'm questioning you & there's a BEHAVIOR, I STOP. That is what IT stated in therapy. "I take whatever I know about a person [like previous sexual assaults specific acts] & throw it at them until they stop questioning." & the thought was (DBT) "that's what you did to her" & why all this anxiety.
#anxietySobriety & all the ways a family DENIES. Makes excuses & learns to do the same. BREAK THESE GENERATIONAL CYCLES.
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Listening to these & EZ to delete [many] since I say, "Hey ____" [insert name] making it easy to quantify the worst triggers.
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Worst Goes First & in this case it's a trio. Tick Tick Boom.
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WORST FIRST | Christmas Letter!
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The Plan is INTACT since I do not want to lose my phone & yet that's where PTSD resides.
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When there's a distraction every time ONE conversation keeps popping up.
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Helping others helps GAIN NEW WORDS.
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The deadline is 6 PM to know with 100% certainty since they're obviously reading the message all stemming from non-consent.
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ADVOCACY is LIVE.
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How to help anyone to get back on track in life? REMIND THEM, "YOU. MATTER!" Matter is... any substance that takes up space. These students, kids with special needs, exist for a reason. To remind them, they matter & have evidence of humanity. A level-playing field for the necessities in life. JOY. LOVE. PEACE & CONSENT (that's everything!)
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Norman & Ida Stone Institute | this is an origin of ME LEARNING SOMETHING NEW. This care is monetized not on how much you can help, but a unit/hour.
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I said "unit" because at one point they removed hours to say units & those units are not even full hours. They diminished it. Took away instead of giving more to a collection of people who were very clear about what the problems were so from early on, I absolutely was warned of what to look out for.
Stone is part of the IEP due to being "materials" and also the first step in "Neptune's Castle," the ultimate offense/defense.
I suppose when I said poetry in this, I meant so...
The HOW-TO to ending *ptsd. You have to sit with it.
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24 hours in this case.
HOW-TO SURVIVE *people.
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TO : the lovely individual who sent me "fan mail." I'm on it!
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The universe truly does put you in the right place & right time [to help end symptoms of traumatic brain injury].
What's TBI? Perhaps, "trauma" & how to behave around it can be something the majority automatically understand & do the "best thing" automatically. Let's see.
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LISETNING TO NOTES in their entirety.
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WRITE IT VERBATIM
FIRST LETTER IS "B" & she became associated with "beat dOWn" & the only IEP meeting where there was only a dad present. Now, this is different! TAKE NOTE
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A restaurant in CHICAGO is definitely IN!
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As a whole, this is a little confusing.
WHY THE IMPORTANT THING IS TO CONTINUOUSLY REPORT/RECORDING is automatic #ptsd.
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the name is Eugene Lipov and first charity & attached to due to diagnosis of ptsd.
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2 rounds TBI/chronic pain & nerve radiculopathy THEN ptsd ~ 2 years late. Specifically 1 year 11 months later
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HEAR SELF SAY THE WORDS OVER & OVER. OK!
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Thx!
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"I forget if today is the day to record things."
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It just goes on & on & on.
Why I documented it.
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OPINION vs. FACT & creating that momentum for kids/people.
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drinking water all the time now.
trudging through snow to start sweating.
Old Cabrini Green. now Near North & slapping a name on something, like "college prep" or "_____ positivity" group.
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Have background noise. Sounds like I'm moving through the house.
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