Lucidesse - Inspiring Strokes of Genius

It's been a long time since I've had an overhaul this deep. Forgiveness is the catalyst. Here are 5 steps that I've recently experienced to deepen my understanding of this mysterious, vital, sacred process. 

From our best day to our worst. Which is better? Has more wisdom? Is the one that proves we are successful and have made it?! 

How does craving, desiring, daydreaming, affect my life? I found through meditation that it adds pressure and weight to my future, preventing me from living what is. 

Another 10 day silent Vipassana meditation. 
 

I am not your scapegoat. A great lesson I was taught by a tree.

Sorrow. Meet the forest. Meet Valonia. Meet Brego. Enjoy! 

Desire stains and dyes a human. Which one?! Live Book Reading.

The way we each grieve is as unique as our fingerprints. Many of us have more stages than the 'proscribed stages', or include lengthy stays in some while omitting others. And what about the biases and judgements we have about certain stages, how does this affect our ability to allow others to utilize those emotions and behaviors in order to process their grief? And where does respect for those we have passed fit into the grieving process? Can our need to grieve be disrespectful? Or...have those who passed grown in their capacity for compassion, love, forgiveness, and understand...

Your reality seeps in, through the cracks of my steel denial.
And I’m learning to breathe, though the air doesn’t fit,
The space you once were in.

Where did you go? And why?
I don’t know.
So close I can touch, and remember forever.
But do memories grow?
Without you.
Where did you go and why?

I spoke to a friend, told them all about you.
How you sang with a voice like thundering grace.
They said they believed me, by the tears on my...

The loss of my friend has been profound. As well as enlightening.  I’ve realized that I need a safety net. People who can help me if/when I can’t help myself.  So I’m setting it up. Asking for life. Saving my life. Should I need to.  Don’t know when I’ll die, but I don’t want to take away what has been given to me.

There are no words when someone takes their life. No understanding. No resolution. Just  questions. And so many of them are pointing inward, at me. Asking me to reevaluate my own mental health, my relationship with my mind and psyche, my perspective on life, worth, and why we matter. And asking if I’m able to say the words, “I am not safe with myself. I need help.”  And the receive the help.  Overcome shame and judgement, fear and despair.  And so much doubt. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

We meet our first human! And what do they say? Are they coming? Find out in chapter 13 of this epic book! It’s only just beginning! 

I finished my 1,000 piece puzzle! YAY!  And these are the last few pieces falling into place, including the LOST piece. BUT, where did I find it!

I’ve been wondering about a story that I might use to bring relationships into living, breathing, and directions and reminders so
  I can be successful. This is something that came to me  the spur of the moment and I thought it would be quite short, but it led me deeper into stories. And how they come alive. And how I come alive. And how they teach me through experiencing.  

in this, I speak of the story called The Toe Bone And The Tooth, or Raggedy Boy. It is found many places, I found it in the b...

This is a live puzzling of an octopus puzzle, while musing about the puzzling nature of life, and the ways I puzzle together a Life, not just a New Life, but one which incorporates and integrates parts of me I've lost along the way, or never dared to reveal, or didn't believe possible, or forgot how much I loved, and cared. 

Another bit from somewhere beyond the milky spiral. Wisdom that is well meaning but perhaps hard to translate into human words. 

We have finally arrived at Delphi, where Sorrow receives a vision. She solves the mystery of why the humans are dying, but leaves unclear about her actual question, and other parts of the vision. 

Chapter 10 of an epic story about the Seven Deadly Sins, who originally were known as The Eight Temptations. This is their story of being who they are, engaging with humans, and with their powerful but removed parents.  This chapter is a closer look at Envy, and reveals a few secrets and clues about the other sibling deities. So much yet to discover!!! 

Watch for it. When a yes is ready to transform, morph, change you and your life.  That's when it's time to hear, "No, Not Yet", and trust, believe, dream, hope.  

I am an octopus. 🐙 And it’s hard to explain. But here, I try. And in so doing, I understand a bit better what it’s like to be in relationship with one. 😂 Plus, all the glorious wisdom they offer. 

What is embodied presence? How is it found, discovered, achieved, done, become, learned, BE?  Well, I'm not sure. That's why I continue to learn what it is, and how it might be 'BE'. 

What happens when two rocks meet, and realize they are on the same team, and play a game so quick it takes only 57 minutes for a home run and game over? Well, clarity is what happens. The two rocks get real clear, real fast. And that's great because none of us has much time! So hurry up!

In this episode, I trace my humble beginnings of integrity--as a heavy boulder--to my beautiful pillar of integrity, today. I've worked hard to learn how to create beauty with integrity, while being immovable with it, like Ozen from the anime The Abyss (which I highly recommend everyone watch!) So, cheers to everyone who practices integrity, with themselves, with others, with life, with energy, with it ALL! Best of luck!

Mother’s Day is not easy. So many have lost their mother, to death or estrangement, and so many have lost a child, to death or estrangment. This isn’t a carefree day for many — it’s complex, complicated, emotional, confusing. And it want to acknowledge that truth. 

This is a fabulous episode with a wonderful update on my therapy sessions, along with a raw view into my process of creating and understanding the cosmos of my book, through the cosmos of our universe!

What if fairy tales are wise, and filled with great nuggets of gold? We just have to shake them up a bit, see what's beneath the veneer, and then the stain, and the warped wood, and the rough grains, and ... then we might find some really fun stuff. 

There are so many unknowns in life, the most simple being ‘what comes next’. Who can answer that question? Who can tell where exactly we are in this cosmic dust? And how do we make meaning of something we barely know? Or clearly don’t know. This episode is like scrambled eggs - so enjoy the mess. 

A slow walkabout, studying trees and all their wisdom, wondering about what works, what doesn't, and the mysterious why --and when-- because some moments it doesn't and then suddenly it does. Letting go. Holding hope. Trusting myself, trusting my nervous system, as it is today. Just being who and what I am. 

We are constantly transmitting information, so why not transmit what we really need to say? Transmit our needs, desires, wishes, and then show up for ourselves in that way, with the people who CAN and WANT to join us in doing that. How do we help therapists help us, while we help ourselves? How do we seek deeper intimacy in relationship AND honor that not everyone wants what we want? How do we exchange transmissions, exchange ideas and beliefs and hopes and dreams, such that our lives become food for our souls? I don’t know. But I’m hopi...

This is a story about the Seven Deadly Sins, and the Eighth who rules them. We have Wrath, Greed, Pride, Envy, Sloth, Gluttony, and Lust. But don't forget the Eighth Temptation, Sorrow. Perhaps she is the most powerful. After the Mother's of course, Destiny and Desire. But they are shadowed by their own Mother, Darkness. And she too is shadowed by her parents, Time and Space. Yet, who are their Masters? And who is giving the reader advice? What oracle knows more than this realm reveals? 

We all say we want to love full and deeply, but do we? I have found the eye of the needle to be quite small! Not love itself, but the eye! Every time I am threaded through, it burns away another part of me -- and can be painful! So... ask.  Are you ready?

I have a voice It speaks my story, my experience, my life. It doesn’t sound like anyone else’s voice. It doesn’t speak anyone else’s words. It speaks my voice. My voice, my words. My life. I once thought it was supposed to sound like everyone else's, But it isn’t. It’s supposed to sound like mine, because it is... 

I wrote this little ditty for a writer's party on St. Patrick's Day, and I challenged myself by using every prompt given!  Best of the Irish to you!

When we face challenges, or even better, when we choose to challenge ourselves, when is friction enough? Or is it always enough? Or are there times when fight is needed? I don't know! But explore these questions.

This is a story about the Seven Deadly Sins, and the Eighth who rules them. We have Wrath, Greed, Pride, Envy, Sloth, Gluttony, and Lust. But don't forget the Eighth Temptation, Sorrow. Perhaps she is the most powerful. After the Mother's of course, Destiny and Desire. But they are shadowed by their own Mother, Darkness. And she too is shadowed by her parents, Time and Space. Yet, who are their Masters? And who is giving the reader advice? What oracle knows more than this realm reveals? 

These are my final thoughts about offering advice to someone who is going through a rape trial. And I hope that, although my experience may not be directly relevant, perhaps the energies needed for such an endeavor are transferred and all can be just a little more well than it is now.

These are my final thoughts about offering advice to someone who is going through a rape trial. And I hope that, although my experience may not be directly relevant, perhaps the energies needed for such an endeavor are transferred and all can be just a little more well than it is now.

I have often told myself, during difficult times, that I hope to help others who may find themselves in such difficulty. Today I had a direct request for advice on how to navigate a rape trial. Not that I know the answer, nor that there is one, but since I tried, in my own way, perhaps sharing what I learned can help another. 

My initial doorway of learning was pain. Just the one. It was the only way to get my attention. I’ve since learned there are many other doorways available, if I pay attention. And yet, sometimes pan is still the way to deepest learning. So how do I learn from pain?

GREED! We finally get to meet Greed! This is a story about the Seven Deadly Sins, and the Eighth who rules them. We have Wrath, Greed, Pride, Envy, Sloth, Gluttony, and Lust. But don't forget the Eighth Temptation, Sorrow. Perhaps she is the most powerful. After the Mother's of course, Destiny and Desire. But they are shadowed by their own Mother, Darkness. And she too is shadowed by her parents, Time and Space. Yet, who are their Masters? And who is giving the reader advice? What oracle knows more than this realm reveals?