Honest Vibes Only

i am back! here to give you guys a little update about my 2024 and what's to come. let's catch up!

in this episode, i share examples of struggles i dealt with throughout childhood growing up around someone that had multiple issues, and advice i would share to take care of yourself and remember if you are currently in or healing from a similar situation.

as my 22nd birthday rolls around the corner, i reminisce about birthdays and holidays i've had in the past and reasons for the way i view and celebrate them today. i talk about how my trauma shapes how i prefer to experience special days now and i provide a glimpse into the current state of my emotions towards navigating my early 20s.

in this episode, i dive into my perspective on the topic of grief. specifically, grieving someone still alive and how it ties into my past.

It has been two years since I have moved out. I reflect on how the past two years have been and how I have grown in multiple aspects of my life to be where I am today. This is a very special episode for me. Thank you for your support, it means the world. 

diving into the topic of self awareness, i reflect on what it means, how it looks to have or lack self awareness and tie it to my past to explain some realities of how it affected my childhood. 

as the end of the year approaches, i take some time to reflect on what i've done in 2022 and what my goals are for 2023. happy new year!

everyone has a different experience when it comes to the holidays. i share my thoughts on this holiday season and what the holidays mean to me for my inner child and as an adult.

The trio dives into our own experiences of how our parents impacted our journeys in and outside of chess. We share the good, the bad, how it affected us when we were younger and what we’ve learned from our journeys as adults reflecting back.

Before we jump into specific topics, get to know our journeys of how we stumbled into the chess world and how we got to the positions we are in today where chess is a big part of our career! We all bring a different perspective and path to this podcast project and we're looking forward to sharing it with you.

Branching out of my solo segments, I join forces with Keaton Kiewra and Kevin (KDLearns) to bring you episodes where we shed light on topics related to chess, mental health and content creation. Our aim is to discuss common issues that players and creators in the chess community face throughout their journey.

life is always throwing a new challenge my way. short life update, hope to be back more consistently soon. love you all.

after a tough week and some saddening news, i decided it's time to open up about those struggles not spoken about enough. i talk about my battle with depression, struggles with suicide, difficulty fighting mental health alone and how important it is to reach out and be there for one another.

A little different from previous episodes; I quote notes I took from an episode on the Matthias J Barker podcast in 'Forgiving Your Parents' and relate what he says to my personal experiences growing up. His profound ways of explaining forgiveness in relation to parental debt has helped me on my journey with healing and I am happy to pass on some of what I have learned through him in this episode.

Today officially marks one year of moving out of my parent's place and being on my own. I recap how I've grown throughout the past year, experiences I've had, what I've learned about adulthood so far and more. Today is a special milestone for me. Thank you for all the support the past year, it means the world.

In this episode, I dive into how important it is to have a voice. This is especially true having come from a background filled with trauma, where my perspective was shut down and invalidated whenever it was expressed. This past week, I describe an enlightening experience, and I express how refreshing and powerful it was to have my voice heard.

It has been two months since I posted an episode so to get back into the swing of posting, in this episode I talk about my goals with the podcast and in general for the new year!

Content full speed ahead with weekly episodes!

I delve into the process of creating my own moral code. I start talking about the code I grew up with and how that affected the way I would make decisions and live my life. Recently, I've had a big realization: Being an adult living on my own has allowed me to rethink that belief system. I talk about my process on breaking down the previous belief system I grew up on and how I am slowly creating my new system today. I talk about the pros and cons of living by my own code and how it relates...

What is an inner child exactly? I dive into the literal definition of it and how my childhood trauma affected my own inner child. I talk about the steps I take to insure that it gets expressed in my life today as well as the societal taboos of adults indulging in their inner child.

What does feeling safe mean to me? A term I only recently came to understand and experience. What is safety to me, why have I not been able to experience it, and how does my childhood trauma neurobiologically affect my sense of safety in adulthood? I dive into a conversation of my journey to understanding and experiencing safety and how crucial it is for me to experience it in order to function.

This episode I dive deep into my past and how I came to realize what I had actually experienced. This is not for the purpose of venting or outing people, but rather so listeners have a better idea of my background before I go deeper into mental health topics in future podcast episodes. I hope this episode will help give context to future ones. To visit my GoFundMe: https://gofund.me/9546eadb

Welcome to my podcast about my journey to self-discovery and anything and everything to do with mental health! Here each week for honest vibes only. If there are any questions or topics you would like me to talk about in future episodes, send them to @DDevinaDev on Twitter or via email at devinade@att.net