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Isn’t it time for a fresh take on Medicine? Welcome to BSFreeMD where the content is raw, real, and honest when it comes to healthcare issues that matter most to physicians and their patients. If you’re in the mood for a good time and intriguing dialogue, join this physician couple on a fun and engaging ride every week. There is even the occasional cocktail hour toasting to great stories and shared wisdom. Join the fun. See you there. Want more? Find and connect with us on our FB and IG pages @BSFreeMD or on our website at www.bsfr...
492 — Dr. Mike Simpson on What Special Operations Teaches You About Being a Better Doctor (Rerun)
What can the world of Special Operations teach us about practicing better medicine?
In this BS Free MD encore episode, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh revisit their conversation with Dr. Mike Simpson, exploring the intersection of military experience, medicine, leadership, and decision-making under pressure.
From high-stakes environments to everyday challenges in healthcare, this conversation examines the importance of preparation, adaptability, teamwork, and staying focused when the stakes are high.
Whether you're a physician navigating an increasingly complex healthcare system or someone interested in leadership and personal resilience, this episode offers a different perspective...
491 — Sofia Karstens: The Scientist Who Warned About the Polio Vaccine (Rerun)
What happens when a scientist discovers a serious safety concern, but the institutions responsible for protecting the public fail to act?
In this BS Free MD rerun, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh welcome Sofia Karstens for a revealing conversation about scientific integrity, medical accountability, and the courage it takes to challenge powerful institutions.
At the center of the discussion is Dr. Bernice Eddy, a government scientist whose research raised concerns about early polio vaccine safety. Her warnings preceded the infamous 1955 Cutter Incident, when improperly manufactured vaccines exposed children to live poliovirus.
Sofia explores...
490 — Fentanyl, Inc. with Ben Westhoff | Part 2 (Rerun)
In Part 2 of our conversation with investigative journalist and author Ben Westhoff, we continue exploring the hidden world of synthetic drugs and the global business behind the opioid crisis.
Ben shares how he created an online identity on the dark web and infiltrated a Chinese drug lab while posing as a drug dealer. We discuss the risks he faced, the realities of illicit drug manufacturing, and what his investigation revealed about the people and networks fueling the fentanyl crisis.
We also examine the ongoing “war on drugs,” lessons from other countries, and potential approaches to addr...
489 — Fentanyl, Inc.: Inside the Deadly Opioid Crisis with Ben Westhoff | Part 1 (Rerun)
An undercover investigation. A global drug trade. A deadly epidemic.
In this BS Free MD encore episode, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh revisit their eye-opening conversation with investigative journalist and Fentanyl, Inc. author Ben Westhoff, whose reporting exposed the hidden networks behind the rise of synthetic opioids.
Westhoff takes us inside his extraordinary investigation, which included creating an online identity on the dark web, posing as a drug dealer, and infiltrating a Chinese drug laboratory. His research reveals how rogue chemists, international suppliers, and illicit drug networks helped fuel the fentanyl crisis.
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488 — Financial Health for Physicians with Dr. Brent Lacey
Financial health is an essential part of overall well-being, yet many physicians receive little formal education about managing money, building wealth, or planning for financial independence.
In this episode of BS Free MD, Dr. Brent Lacey joins the conversation to explore the importance of financial literacy in medicine and how physicians can make more informed decisions about their financial futures.
From managing student loan debt to budgeting, saving, and investing, this discussion highlights why financial education matters for healthcare professionals at every stage of their careers.
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Why financial literacy matters...487 — Eat Sh*t and Live: Dr. Sabine Hazan on Gut Health and the Microbiome
What if some of the biggest answers to human health are hiding in our gut—and even in our poop?
Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh welcome Dr. Sabine Hazan, gastroenterologist, researcher, and microbiome expert, for a fascinating conversation about the trillions of microorganisms living inside us and their potential influence on our health.
From the science of stool and the gut microbiome to fecal microbiota transplantation (FMT), Dr. Hazan's work challenges conventional thinking about how we study disease, digestive health, and the complex relationship between bacteria and the human body.
In true BS Fr...
486 — Near-Death Experiences, Consciousness & the Afterlife with Dr. Eben Alexander
What happens to consciousness when the brain shuts down? Can science explain near-death experiences, or is there more to human awareness than we understand?
Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh welcome Dr. Eben Alexander, a former Harvard Medical School faculty member, neurosurgeon, and bestselling author of Proof of Heaven, to explore the extraordinary experience that transformed his understanding of life, death, and consciousness.
After a rare bacterial brain infection left him in a seven-day coma, Dr. Alexander emerged with vivid memories of what he describes as a journey beyond physical reality. Once a firm believer that...
485 — The 4 F’s That Keep Life in Balance: Faith, Family, Finances & Fun
What actually matters when you strip away the noise?
In this early BS Free MD episode, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh break down the four priorities that have helped guide their marriage, careers, and life together: Faith, Family, Finances, and Fun.
From navigating the demands of medicine and raising a family to making smart financial decisions and remembering to actually enjoy life, May and Tim share why balance isn’t about doing everything perfectly—it’s about knowing what deserves your attention.
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Why faith provides a foundation when life gets c...484 — Dr. Marcy Larson on Losing a Child: Grief, Healing, and Supporting Bereaved Parents
How do you navigate life after losing a child—and how can others offer meaningful support?
Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh welcome pediatrician Dr. Marcy Larson for a deeply personal conversation about the loss of her son, Andy. Marcy shares how grief affected her family, her ability to practice medicine, and her path toward helping other bereaved parents.
They explore why conversations about loss can feel so difficult, how well-intended words can miss the mark, and the importance of compassionate support. Marcy also shares the inspiration behind her podcast, Losing a Child: Always Andy’s Mom...
483 — Calling BS on Medicine, Media & AI with Jenna McCarthy
What happens when a humor writer starts questioning the stories she once took for granted? Bestselling author Jenna McCarthy joins Tim and May to talk about the shift in her writing during the COVID era, her collaboration with Dr. Pierre Kory on The War on Ivermectin, and the experiences that changed how she views medicine and media.
The conversation ranges from Jenna’s approach to skepticism and her coverage of the Lindsay Clancy case to a lively disagreement about artificial intelligence. She also shares what she has learned from writing for decades and offers simple advice to as...
482 — Road Tripping Through 15 States: Montreal, NYC, the US Open and More
Road Tripping Through 15 States: Montreal, NYC, the US Open and More
Tim and May take the podcast on the road as they return home from a 15-day adventure through 15 states and one Canadian province. In this episode of Dog Tails with No Cocktails, they recap the memorable destinations, unexpected surprises, great food and travel mishaps that defined their trip.
Their journey included Savannah, an Air Force base visit in South Carolina, historic Philadelphia and a drive around Montreal’s Formula 1 track. They also cycled along the St. Lawrence River, explored Old Montreal and sampled French pa...
481 — Postpartum Psychosis, Polypharmacy, and the Lindsay Clancy Case
What happens when postpartum mental illness, multiple psychiatric medications, and an unthinkable crime collide?
Dr. May and Dr. Tim discuss the Lindsay Clancy case and the difficult questions surrounding postpartum depression, postpartum psychosis, criminal responsibility, and the effects of psychiatric polypharmacy. Drawing from both personal and professional experiences, they examine the seriousness of postpartum mental illness while debating whether it can fully explain—or excuse—a deliberate act of violence.
They also explore pregnancy-related changes in the brain, the dramatic hormonal shifts that occur after childbirth, and whether progesterone deserves greater consideration in treating postpartum and...
480 — Still True: Why Fun Is Not Optional
When did having fun become something you have to earn?
In this rerun, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh talk about how easily work, responsibility, and the push to be productive can crowd out joy. They explore the trade-offs we make with our time and money, and why the moments that make life feel full are often ordinary ones: laughing together, connecting with someone, or making room for an interest you’ve missed.
It’s a conversation about paying attention to what makes you feel alive—and giving it a place in your life now.
In t...
479 — Sunlight vs. Statins: The Surprising Science Behind Mortality, Cholesterol, and Heart Health
What if avoiding the sun carries health risks of its own?
In this episode, Drs. May and Tim revisit the relationship between sunlight, cholesterol, statins, and longevity. They unpack a large Swedish observational study linking low sun exposure with higher mortality and question whether conventional advice has oversimplified the role of sunlight in human health.
From vitamin D and cholesterol to skin cancer concerns and cardiovascular risk, this conversation explores why the full picture may be more complicated than “sun bad, statins good.”
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What a Swedish study found about sun...478 — The Keto Cure: How Dr. Boz Reversed Chronic Illness—Starting with Her Mom
In this encore episode, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh sit down with Dr. Annette Bosworth, the internist behind the Dr. Boz YouTube channel and bestselling author of Anyway You Can and ketoCONTINUUM. After decades of telling patients to eat low-fat and load up on "heart-healthy" grains, Dr. Boz hit a wall when her 71-year-old mother's cancer treatment failed. Out of options, she put her mom on a strict ketogenic diet—and watched her cancer markers drop without chemo, along with several other chronic conditions. That experience reshaped her entire practice, from managing symptoms to reversing disease at the metabolic ro...
477 — Speaking the Truth, Facing Fear & Challenging Modern Medicine
In this repurposed episode, originally recorded for Dr. Charmaine Gregory’s Fearless Freedom with Dr. G podcast, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh step into the guest seats for a candid conversation about medicine, marriage, burnout, courage, and the creation of BS Free MD.
May opens up about the personal challenges she faced during medical school, including depression, an eating disorder, and uncertainty about her future in medicine. Tim shares how his experiences with action sports and skydiving taught him to view fear differently—not simply as something to escape, but as a powerful tool for preparation, focus, and...
476 — Is It Anxiety—or MCAS? Understanding the Highly Sensitive Body with Michelle Shapiro, RD
Mast Cell Activation Syndrome can affect nearly every system in the body—and its symptoms are often dismissed, misdiagnosed, or mistaken for anxiety. In this deeply personal conversation, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh sit down with integrative and functional registered dietitian Michelle Shapiro, RD, to unpack MCAS, histamine intolerance, and the experience of living in a “highly sensitive body.”
Michelle shares how rapid weight loss, nutrient depletion, mold exposure, long COVID, and an injury left her increasingly ill and eventually bedbound. She explains why common wellness protocols can make highly sensitive patients worse, how mast cells interact with t...
475 — From Breast Cancer Patient to Healthcare Disruptor with Chloe Harrouche
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What happens when the healthcare system built to treat illness leaves patients feeling unsupported, overwhelmed, and responsible for coordinating their own care?
At just 23 years old, Chloe Harrouche was diagnosed with breast cancer. Although she had specialists guiding each part of her treatment, no one was managing the complete picture. After treatment, she encountered another major gap: little meaningful guidance on prevention, n...
474 — Doc Tales with Cocktails: Salad Mafia Debates, Crazy News & KFC Jellybeans
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What happens when the Salad Mafia comes for Tim, cockroach milk enters the conversation, and KFC decides fried chicken should be a jelly bean flavor?
In this episode of Doc Tales with Cocktails, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh are back with another round of unfiltered conversation, questionable food choices, bizarre headlines, and plenty of rabbit holes.
They kick things off w...
473 — Are We Medicating Normal? Psychiatric Drugs, Trauma & Resilience with Dr. Roger McFillin
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BS FREE MD REWIND
Are we treating mental illness—or increasingly medicalizing the normal struggles of being human?
In this BS Free MD Rewind, Drs. May and Tim revisit a powerful conversation with clinical psychologist Dr. Roger McFillin, host of the Radically Genuine Podcast and founder of the Conscious Clinician Collective.
Dr. McFillin challenges conventional approaches to mental health care, from the...
472 — Salad Mafia, Crazy Taste Tests & The Truth About Seed Oils
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The Salad Mafia has spoken—and apparently Tim’s anti-salad rant struck a nerve.
This week, Drs. Tim and May Hindmarsh turn the studio into a highly questionable test kitchen as they taste their way through some of the strangest processed foods currently sitting on grocery store shelves. Dill pickle baked beans? Kansas City barbecue ramen? Dye-free Flamin’ Hot Cheetos? Unfortunately, yes.
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471 — Dr. Mike Simpson on What Special Operations Teaches You About Being a Better Doctor
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What happens when the lessons learned in combat follow you into the exam room?
In this repurposed episode of BS Free MD, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh sit down with Dr. Mike Simpson, whose path to medicine was anything but conventional. Before becoming a physician, Dr. Simpson spent years in military Special Operations, working in environments where decisions had to be made q...
470 — Dr. Jason Giles: Addiction, Redemption & the Power of Saying Yes
What happens when the person who’s supposed to be saving lives is quietly fighting to save his own?
This week, we’re revisiting one of our most powerful conversations with Dr. Jason Giles, whose story takes us behind the white coat and into the realities of addiction, burnout, recovery, and redemption.
While training in anesthesiology, Jason found himself caught in a devastating fentanyl addiction. From the outside, he was a successful physician-in-training. Behind the scenes, he was struggling to survive.
Then came a moment that changed everything.
In this deeply pers...
469 — Health Under Fire: Inside Canada’s Fight for Freedom & Autonomy with Rebecca Mello
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What happens when conversations about health, personal autonomy, freedom of conscience, and free expression become harder to have?
This week, May and Tim are joined by Rebecca Mello, a Canadian law student and organizer with Think Canada, to talk about the upcoming Health Under Fire conference in Scarborough, Ontario.
After launching its first conference under the theme Freedom Under Fire, T...
468 — CFL Hot Takes, Trad Wives & the South Florida Duck Lip Epidemic
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What do Canadian football, the trad wife movement, lip filler, gym culture, and climate change have in common? Somehow, Tim and May connect them all in another unfiltered episode of BS Free MD.
The conversation kicks off with a nostalgic tribute to the Canadian Football League before taking a detour into bizarre climate headlines, including whether changing temperatures could threaten bird populations. F...
467 — The Truth About Raw Vegetables, Parasites & Gut Health
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Could your salad really make you sick? In this lively DocTales with Cocktails episode, Dr. May Hindmarsh and Tim Hindmarsh tackle the headlines surrounding a recent Cyclospora outbreak linked to fresh produce—and separate legitimate concerns from media-driven fear.
The conversation dives into foodborne parasites, dehydration, gut health, and why not every alarming headline deserves a panic response. They also explore whether coo...
466 — Pulling Back the Curtains Behind Widely Accepted "Facts" with Dr. Jeremy Ayres & John Gusty
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What if some of the most widely accepted ideas about health deserve a second look?
In this rerun episode of BS Free MD, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh welcome Dr. Jeremy Ayres and John Gusty for a wide-ranging conversation that challenges conventional thinking about medicine, chronic disease, and personal wellness.
Drawing from decades of experience in natural health, Dr. Ayres s...
465 — Long COVID, Spike Protein & What Medicine Still Isn't Measuring with Dr. Peter McCullough
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Why are so many patients still struggling with debilitating symptoms years after COVID—and why does conventional medicine seem to have so few answers?
In this encore presentation, Drs. Tim and May Hindmarsh sit down with internist and cardiologist Dr. Peter McCullough for an in-depth discussion about long COVID, persistent spike protein, chronic inflammation, and the growing number of patients experiencing symptoms tha...
464 — The Scent of Sargassum, Ultrasound Breakthroughs & July 4 ER Secrets
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Happy Independence Day—and Canada Day! 🇺🇸🇨🇦
In this festive Doc Tales with Cocktails episode, Drs. Tim and May Hindmarsh share hilarious travel stories, bizarre medical news, and practical health advice for one of the busiest holiday weekends of the year.
From the unforgettable smell of rotting sargassum seaweed in Key West to an astonishing new ultrasound treatment that may eliminate opioid cravings...
463 — Truth Bomb: Are You Married to Someone Who's Actually "Sponge-Worthy"?
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Are you with someone because they're truly the right partner—or simply because it's comfortable?
In this Truth Bomb episode, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh take a candid look at what it really means to choose a life partner. Inspired by the idea of being "sponge-worthy," they move past surface-level attraction to discuss the qualities that actually sustain healthy, lasting relationships.
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#462: Breakdown of Kitchen Table Medicine, Drive-Thru Crimes, and 60-Year-Old Secrets
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This week on BS Free MD, Dr. Tim Hindmarsh and Dr. May Hindmarsh tackle another round of bizarre headlines, questionable medical practices, and stories that leave more questions than answers.
From a McDonald's employee facing prison time after contaminating food, to an inmate claiming his life sentence ended when he briefly died, the conversation quickly shifts into much deeper territory—including an exp...
#461: Cutting Through the Finance BS with Jeff Sekinger
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Physicians are constantly pitched the next "can't miss" investment opportunity—but how do you separate legitimate strategies from financial hype?
In this sponsored episode, Drs. Tim and May Hindmarsh sit down with Jeff Sekinger, founder of NURP, to unpack algorithmic trading, quantitative investing, and where alternative investments may fit into a physician's overall financial strategy.
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#460: Spiritbox's INSANE Screams at Concert, UFC, Menopause Barbie & Colonoscopy Cocktails!
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What do heavy metal screams, UFC on the White House lawn, AI-generated Menopause Barbie, and colonoscopy cocktails have in common? Somehow... they're all part of this week's Doc Tales with Cocktails.
Drs. Tim and May Hindmarsh take listeners on another unpredictable ride through music, medicine, culture, and internet absurdity. From discovering the incredible vocal talent of Spiritbox's Courtney LaPlante to debating why h...
#459: Dr. Keith Ablow on How AI Is Stealing Our Minds & Souls
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What happens when artificial intelligence begins replacing not just our work—but our thinking, relationships, and sense of identity?
In this thought-provoking episode of BS Free MD, Dr. May Hindmarsh and Dr. Tim Hindmarsh welcome back renowned psychiatrist, author, and executive coach Dr. Keith Ablow for an eye-opening conversation about artificial intelligence, human connection, and what it means to remain fully human in...
#458 — Steve Feldman on Addiction Recovery, Mental Health, and Breaking the Stigma of Substance Use Disorder
In this repurposed episode of BS Free MD, Dr. May Hindmarsh shares a powerful conversation with Steve Feldman, CEO of Feinberg Consulting, whose personal journey from addiction to more than three decades of sobriety transformed his life’s mission. After achieving sobriety in 1992, Steve dedicated his career to helping individuals and families navigate addiction, mental health crises, and the complex road to lasting recovery.
Together, they have a candid, stigma-free conversation about substance use disorders, emotional pain, family dynamics, treatment misconceptions, and what true recovery actually requires. Steve offers a deeply human perspective on why addiction is no...
#457 — What Your Doctor Doesn't Know About Health and Longevity with Emma Tekstra
What if many of the answers to better health have nothing to do with another prescription?
In this thought-provoking episode, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh sit down with Emma Tekstra, actuary, global health consultant, and author of How to Be a Healthy Human, to challenge conventional assumptions about modern healthcare. Drawing on decades of experience analyzing health data and employee health programs, Emma shares why she believes true wellness requires a broader perspective than symptom management alone.
The conversation explores personal responsibility, critical thinking, chronic disease trends, the business side of healthcare, and the often-overlooked...
#456 — Breakdown of Kitchen Table Medicine, Drive-Thru Crimes, and 60-Year-Old Secrets
In this lively episode of Doc Tales with Cocktails, Dr. May and Tim Hindmarsh tackle everything from bizarre fast-food crimes and questionable healthcare practices to a decades-old vaccine lawsuit making headlines.
They discuss a McDonald's employee facing criminal charges after tampering with a customer's food, explore the dangers of social media-fueled decision-making, and break down the legal case of a convicted murderer who argued his life sentence ended when his heart temporarily stopped.
The conversation then shifts to a controversial lawsuit involving an experimental RSV vaccine from the 1960s and broader concerns about medical ethics...
#455 — Dr. May Hindmarsh on Hotflash Inc. | When Hormones Don’t Work Histamine Epigenetics and Trusting Your Body
In this special replay, BS Free MD host Dr. May Hindmarsh steps out from behind the microphone and into the guest chair.
Originally recorded for the Hotflash Inc. podcast with host Anne-Marie McQueen, this candid conversation explores Dr. May's personal journey through menopause, hormone therapy, histamine intolerance, epigenetics, and the unexpected challenges she faced when conventional solutions didn't provide the answers she was seeking.
After more than 30 years practicing medicine, Dr. May found herself navigating a complex health journey that included severe hot flashes, migraines, sleep disruption, anxiety, panic attacks, elevated heart rate, and symptoms...
454 – Kyle Busch's Shocking Death, 34 Years of Marriage & Epic Triumph Concert Stories
First up, the team walks through the Kyle Busch timeline — from his ask for a "shot" at Watkins Glen three weeks before he died, to the orthopedic PA who likely administered it, to the cascade of bad decisions and biology that turned a viral illness into fatal sepsis in someone too tough and too fit to take his own symptoms seriously. May and Tim unpack why young, hyper-conditioned athletes are uniquely vulnerable to missed diagnoses, why the pneumonia vaccine isn't actually what most people think it is, and why MRSA — not strep pneumoniae — is the bug worth fearing when sepsis...
453 – Strongman Pulls 2-Ton Car With Penis… On Fire!
In this outrageous episode of BS Free MD, Drs. May and Tim Hindmarsh dive headfirst into one of the most absurd headlines they’ve ever covered: a man attempting to pull a 2-ton police car with his penis… while on fire… all in the name of prostate cancer awareness.
But the chaos doesn’t stop there.
The conversation spirals into pharmaceutical “awareness” campaigns, toxic chemical exposure in artists, questionable modern healthcare practices, pig semen-based cancer research, and the growing tendency of medicine to mask symptoms instead of asking why disease is happening in the first place.
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