What's The Matter With Me? Podcast

40 Episodes

By: John Hoppin

My name is John, I’m 43, husband and father of 2, KFJC radio DJ, small business owner, podcaster, and I have multiple sclerosis (MS). I created the What’s The Matter With Me? podcast to share what I’m going through. On the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast I share my experiences, challenges and triumphs as a person with MS. What's The Matter With Me? develops my Disability Consciousness and bridges me to my caregivers, doctors, the disabled community, and community-at-large. As the owner of Hoppin Hot Sauce, I experience firsthand the special challenges faced by disabled entrepreneurs.

Five Nights of Sweating
Last Friday at 9:23 PM

Welcome to “Five Nights of Sweating” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

A fever that doesn’t seem to want to go away; new music around the house; some terrible food. Maybe we can make the time pass quicker if we go to a grind core festival.

Is not wanted

I’ve got a fever that kept coming back


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Welcome to “Burnin’” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

In this episode, I’m still recovering from my last rhizotomy procedure, managing to get to get new footwear, and get out to a show in my wheelchair

Burn Victim

Chemical Burns melt your flesh. I have 5 Burns about as big as a dime each. I am using Medihoney, and I was initially confused by the name

They Look Like Sneakers

Before After

I got new shoes to wear when I’m on my wheelchair. For the past...

Rolling Around The TL

Welcome to “Rolling Around The TL” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

Lots of people use wheelchairs in San Francisco’s Tenderloin district, a pretty rough area between Union Square and Civic Center

Shout outs

Shout outs to rocky she’s listened to every episode Shout outs to the people listening through the past episodes Send me a n email via the contact form and I will give you a shout out that is quite possibly the best one you’ve ever received and the maybe best that you ever WILL receive

Poop Burrito

Welcome to “Poop Burrito” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

The tortilla is fine. Maybe you can save the lettuce. In a poop burrito, you have to go through the layers.

My trigeminal neuralgia pain came back and so this episode is a bit like a poop burrito. I was in the hospital last weekend, and they changed up my medications to get me out of pain. A couple of days ago I saw the surgeon and I’m going to have another rhizotomy next week.

Big Shoutouts

Shoutouts to Nathan...

A Pint Is A Pound


Welcome to “A Pint Is A Pound” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast


A pint is a pound the world around

Kids Are Gaslighting Me

What my car smells like My kids say I smell like poisonous chemicals They say my car smells like vomit They are the only people to vomit in my car, and I used cleaner to clean it up, so this is gaslighting and I should threaten them with cancellation

Know Your Cobbler

I went to the cobbler again and the parking lot was full <...

Multiplex and Talent Show

Welcome to “Multiplex and Talent Show” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

This week, I used my wheelchair to go to the multiplex in Dublin and the talent show in the auditorium at my children’s elementary school. The movie we saw was “Inside” with Willem Dafoe and the elementary school talent show had a few truly bizarre, fun memorable moments.. Using my wheelchair made it possible.

Spicy Nut and Pretzel Mix

Whipped up the David Lebovitz snack mix because our dinner guest brought an extra pie. I think you could say it was bu...

Car Accident

I got in a car accident where I got rear ended, wasn’t injured and the insurers agreed that I was not at fault. This is a blender episode, with lots of little segments that all go in there.

Blender Episode

This episode contains lots of different segments, all going into the blender like fruit goes into the smoothie.. Stay tuned for lurid stories of rampaging young adults and their dangerous car accidents, but let’s start our blender episode back in the 1990s at Jamba Juice.

Juicy Tale

Do you go to J...

I Got My Teeth Back

Welcome to “I Got My Teeth Back” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

I went to the dentist, and he attached some teeth to the posts the periodontist implanted in my jaw. It’s been almost two years since I had buck teeth in my mouth, and it is a big change. I made a lot of squash soup, adapting the method for one hand, and I’ve included the recipe in this post.

Shout outs

Shout outs to Klaudhopper, who asked about Hoppin Hot Sauce stickers Shout outs to Tall John who ca...


Smooth Like Lotion

Welcome to “Lotion” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

In this mini-episode, we check out a new candidate for the theme song for Season 8, a song called “Lotion”, because it’s a smooth song, smooth like lotion is. Kind of G-funk, smoothed out 90s thing. Maybe it will be the theme song for next season.

Concert At Yoshi's

Welcome to “Concert At Yoshi’s” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

I went to see a jazz concert at Yoshi’s in my wheelchair, and it was pretty easy, for a change. I made a lot of vegetarian bean chili ahead of a trip to the ranch, and the vegetarians approved of it.

Shout outs

 Shout outs to Claude Hopper who listened to Wheelchair Dining Experience and wrote in to laugh about the banana salad My mom told me that I should have complained about the restaurant experience, but I have worked...

Wheelchair Dining Experience

I went out for a wheelchair dining experience and it was a comedy/tragedy of errors

Welcome to “Wheelchair Dining Experience” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

In this episode, I rolled out to eat with my wife for a wheelchair dining experience  and it was a comedy/tragedy of errors. It was supposed to be a fine dining restaurant but the experience fell short in a lot of ways. I’m so starved to get out that it didn’t stop me from having a good time, but I don’t think I will be back.<...

White Elephant Sale

Only Happens Once A Year

Welcome to “White Elephant Sale” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

In this episode, I went to the annual White Elephant Sale in my wheelchair and thought about my identity, identity politics and representation.

Fishy Yellow Mess

Turmeric supplement broken bottle Nami said getting an apology from a chatbot is unsatisfying. She said it’s because you don’t feel magnanimous accepting the apology of a robot.

Weird junk

white elephant sale was accessible in my wheelchair. Some parts were very tight, but I made it wor...

Happy New Yeast

Auto-correct keeps messing with me Welcome to “Happy New Yeast” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast In this episode, autocorrect keeps messing with me. After almost two years, I'll get new teeth on Friday. I drove myself to KFJC and did a lot of cooking. Buck Wild I lost my buck teeth in the Spring of 2021 and, at long last, I'm getting them back on Friday Live on KFJC I drove to KFJC and hung out with Jack tar during the Blues Collective and also picked up some records to review They had this year's new years card a...

Gum Scrape

Body Horror, Part Two Welcome to “Gum Scrape” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast In "Gum Scrape," I'm finally on the verge of completing my dental implants. I went to the dentist and he got after me with an X-acto knife. Tube-Tying I cut the cord in 2012 And now I have cable in 2023 and I don't ever want to be without live sports. Probably I don't really feel that way but my son does and my wife certainly disagrees rafa lost to mackenzie mcdonald rafa had rf procedure on his foot for nerve pain mcdonald trained at the Cl...

Disabled Business Owner

Disabled Owned & Operated Welcome to “Disabled Business Owner” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast In this episode, I'm going through the books and wrapping up 2022 for my business when I discover that I've totally spaced and forgot to bill for the biggest order of the year. It happened last year, right around when I was about to go into surgery. Shout Outs Shout outs to KFJC's Klaud hopper who was on the air on kfjc filling in for lucky j Sunday morning 6-9 Kid's Game I'm obsesssed with World Chase Tag On The Flipside I got a fully...

Cooking While Disabled 2023

NEW YEAR'S MIRACLE: A rotisserie chicken Welcome to “Cooking While Disabled 2023” on the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast In this episode, I find myself doing a lot of cooking while disabled which involves adaptation and interpretation of recipes that generally aren't written with disabled people in mind. We've got to eat, regardless. There's an influx of produce at the house because we sized up our weekly vegetable box in the new year. The kids are home from school which compresses the day, as they come home from camp in the afternoon and from then on it can be pretty...

New Year’s Epiphanies

Welcome to "New Year's Epiphanies," Episode 1 of What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Season Seven This episode marks the transition to a new year, new theme song, and hopefully some new ways of thinking. The Season Seven theme song is "Beast" https://soundcloud.com/hot-mops/beast Listeners grew 144% from 2021 to 2022 I advised my son not to brag on his presents and I think he heard me https://twitter.com/johnhoppin/status/1610105614755311616 Weird Al = Weird AI? Maybe Weird Al should play Superman I made pot roast and ate it the same day, Christmas eve. burnt some cookies Christmas wars New sleep...

Year In Review

Taking a look back at the year on the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Welcome to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast "Year In Review" Season Seven will begin in the new year. Tune in for the year end wrap-up of Season Six, the biggest season we've ever had. Listen for a year-end run down of all the things that crossed the bow of WTMWM? in 2022. It was a big year, a good year. Let's get into it. Holiday In Cambodia https://youtu.be/-KTsXHXMkJA Essential coming-of-age My wife doesn't know "Holiday In Cambodia" by the Dead Kennedys...

San Diego Trip

On the road again Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast S6, Ep. 45 “San Diego Trip” In this episode, I'm on the road again for the first time in what feels like a long time. My wife and I flew to San Diego to attend her company's year-end holiday party. For the first time, I flew with my wheelchair. I got frisked and swabbed lot, but I didn't miss my flights, so it evened out and I made it home in one piece. It was not without hiccups, but we managed to have a pretty good trip overall, and I...

Pot Roast and Polenta

Working in the kitchen, making dinner, simple syrup, roast beets, and more. Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast S6, Ep. 44 “Pot Roast and Polenta" In this episode, I cook pot roast and polenta. Recently, I've been spending a lot of time in the kitchen, laying low and taking care of my self. I'm having some anxiety but I'm trying to work with it. I'm taking a plane trip to SoCal and having a holiday party at my house later this week, so it makes sense that I am a little stressed. There's a lot of killer sound effe...

Thanksgiving Autopsy

Thanksgiving is over, happened and done but BBQ parts are still in the mail. We smoked the turkey. Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast S6, Ep. 43 “Thanksgiving Autopsy” In this episode, it finally happened. Thanksgiving is over and it went fairly well after all, even though the rotisserie parts never arrived. We adjusted more or less successfully by smoking the turkeys. It took a little longer because of the slower cooking method, but it was tasty, and we had enough appetizers to tide everyone over until the food was ready. Let's conduct the Thanksgiving Autopsy in order to fin...

Thanksgiving Warmup

It’s coming.. I can feel the gravity.. Space-time is starting to warp, because Thanksgiving is happening soon. Welcome to What's The Matter With Me? Podcast S6, Ep. 42 "Thanksgiving Warmup" In this episode, I'm getting ready for Thanksgiving, roasting chickens, buying barbecue parts, checking out tactical wallets, and more. I went to my friend's birthday party and I managed to hang around and put in a pretty decent appearance. Disabled culture this week: Alice Wong, Leon Fleischer, and Daniel Romanchuk. Kayaking through the wastewater outside the tomb of salt Bae Had a buddy over and we had Mississippi roast and wa...

Turkey Order

The turkey order’s in, and I ordered two. We’re going to use the rotisserie. I had pretty eyes at the Halloween party Welcome to "Turkey Order" on the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast In this episode, I put in the turkey order at the butcher shop. This year, we're having Thanksgiving at the house again, and we're planning to cook the turkey on the rotisserie. I ordered two smaller birds instead of one big one, and I'm hoping it'll be more manageable that way. Also in this episode, we went to a Halloween party where my wife made...

Disabled Americans Are Going Back To Work

Remote work and labor shortages have increased the number of disabled workers & experts say it may be permanent. Welcome to "Disabled Americans Are Going Back To Work" on the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast There are plenty of sound effects in this week's episode, like a xylophone and a noise like, "Fweet!" that we hear while reading through "For Disabled Workers, a Tight Labor Market Opens New Doors" by Ben Casselman in the New York Times to find that changes ushered in by working remotely during the pandemic might have positive effects for the disabled workforce, and these changes...

Doctors Admit They Don’t Want Patients With Disabilities

Doctors admit hey don’t want patients with disabilities. Plus, one-page term papers, specialty jeans. and more. Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, "Doctors Admit They Don't Want Patients With Disabilities" In this episode we read about visiting the doctor in a wheelchair, how it affects the doctor-patient relationship, and ideas for appropriate reforms. Thank you for tuning in- I admire you! Shout outs to Cobra Verde for being down with the WTMWM? Listener Convention Going to call the vivarium to set up a wild animal demonstration for the Listener Appreciation Party. Silk Sonic https://www.youtube.com/w...

Midwestern Concepts

At the first What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Listener Appreciation Party, everyone gets their own booth Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, “Midwestern Concepts” Continuing my transition away from the protracted intense pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia that my successful rhizotomy has brought me. In this episode, I explore Midwestern Concepts such as the work of the artist Marc Fischer and holding a listener appreciation party/convention at a hotel ballroom in Chicago. I think the thing is, it's centrally located, and I've never hung out there. Sending huge geographical shout outs to listeners from 32 states in the la...

No More Painkillers

NO MORE PAINKILLERS: After successful surgery, I’m off of painkillers for the first time in seven years. Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, “No More Painkillers” It's a big day for me because I'm finally free of trigeminal neuralgia pain after successful rhizotomy surgery last month. It's been seven years that I've been battling the disease and it feels like a major victory. Shoutouts to Jersey Girl who told me about the Superfest Disability Film Festival happening in Berkeley & San Francisco later this month. Claude Hopper wrote in to say he had a Chubb Rock record Year Of...

Gary Cannone Interview Special

Artist Gary Cannone was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in 2013 Welcome to the Gary Cannone Interview Special Gary Cannone Interview Special live and direct, in the fleshh, 100% active and happening. Thank you for tuning in to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast, the Godcast, the Dad bodcast. 💪🏼🎅🏼🎅🏼 Gary Cannone is a Los Angeles-based artist who was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in 2013. His work examines being an artist with multiple sclerosis through his absurdist sense of humor. Gary grew up as an Italian-American in Chicago, and he was the drummer in a punk band, so its about that, too. Interview 9/21/22 I had the chance to...

Body Horror

I made it through surgery- artist Gary Cannone preview- Helen Garner on fate- awkward dinner party conversation. Welcome to What's The Matter With Me? Podcast, "Body Horror" Cool episode! I made it through a surgery with all the hallmarks of body horror: zombie anesthesia, facial electricity and a burning nerve. David Cronenberg will be perfect to direct the movie version. Plus, artist Gary Cannone interview preview- Helen Garner on impositions- an awkward dinner party conversation. We are running out of Hoppin Hot Sauce on the zon, because I misread a figure on the inventory report. Gary Cannone Gary Cannone interview...


I am getting ready for surgery. Welcome to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Season 6, Episode 34, "Pre-op" In this episode I'm getting ready to go into Stanford next week for surgery to help with trigeminal neuralgia. In the meantime, the kids are playing soccer, there's heat dome, and the podcasts that kids are making. Shout outs to mom who wrote in to make a correction that she was not actually a Registered nurse But I tell people that she was so so I guess if you're one of them watch out you've been fooled geographical shout outs My daughter...

Wheelchair Tipped Over

I went for a walk with Koko and I got more than I bargained for Welcome to Season Six, Episode 33, "Wheelchair Tipped Over" My wheelchair tipped over. I was on a walk with my daughter but it didn’t seem to scare her too much– we went to the swings and she had a good time. My name is John Hoppin, don't wear it out. My wheelchair tipped over https://twitter.com/johnhoppin/status/1567558019155906560 deplatforming hits home Death of a Statesman My wife was like, “I don't think I knew that Gorbachev had died. I was like, “We did that last wee...

Disability Consciousness

I said something ableist to someone I admire Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast Season 6 Episode 32, “Disability Consciousness" In this episode, I reflect on the time I said something ableist to someone I admire, the drummer in deerhoof, what I might say (or not) now that I've spent some time working on my disability consciousness. I hope I might come up with something better. Also, Botox, falling and the first law of success, "Do You!" Disability Consciousness One time I ate with deerhoof and I said something ableist  Because I didn't yet have disability consciousness How it is in...

Conference Call On Steroids

Misunderstanding at the bathroom Welcome to What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Season Six, Episode 31, "Conference Call On Steroids" In this episode, the lady was pretty loud on the phone when she hosted her conference call on steroids. S6e31 I'm learning how to use adobe character animator Misunderstanding at the bathroom misunderstanding Using the bathroom at Trader vics The bathroom at Embarcadero/ Ferry building john john sat in the wheelchair I'm woozy Since I increased dosage, I've been falling a lot I reluctantly cut back to one glass of wine at dinner Jacques Pepin met his wife Gloria Evelyn...

Birthday Dinner

In this episode I battle face pain to go to a birthday dinner, take a family train trip, and have a date at the movies. Welcome to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Season 6, Episode 30, "Birthday Dinner." In this episode I battle face pain with varying levels of success to go to a birthday dinner at Trader Vic's, take a family trip to the Embarcadero, and have a date at the movie theater. Shout outs Shout outs to Jersey Girl who used to work with Judy Huemann Birthday Dinner at Trader Vic's Friends birthday dinner at trader vics Made...

Doors Of Perception

Doors are being installed at our house- I went to see the surgeon- I had a nightmare about Thanksgiving. Welcome to What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Season Six, Episode 29, "Doors Of Perception." In this episode, the door men are at my house installing the Doors Of Perception. They are noisy, but because I'm feeling better, I don't have to whisper anymore. I was still feeling pretty tough yesterday when I went to see the surgeon to discuss RF Rhizotomy surgery. “If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, Infinite. For man ha...

The Whisper Episode

I can’t talk at a full volume but I can whisper about Judy Heumann on PBS and Terry Wahls’ diet study. Welcome to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast Season 6 Episode 28, "The Whisper Episode." In this episode, I can't talk with my full voice because it makes my trigeminal neuralgia flare up. So I whisper, more or less. Go on a journey with me through a study about MS & diet, a talk by disability activist Judy Heumann, LOL One of my family was on social media saying "So there are reports of Bruce Springsteen tickets going for outrageous amou...

The Return Of Trigeminal Neuralgia

Small electrical slashes and flashes come back Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, Season 6 Episode 27, “The Return Of Trigeminal Neuralgia” Small electrical slashes and flashes come back, but a lot quieter since I had micro vascular decompression In this episode, the return of trigeminal neuralgia: TN discomfort came back. PLUS, Masonic Auditorium accessibility review, autonomous vehicles for disabled riders, and accessible furniture. Great minds think alike, stupid ones too I said last time that all my friends came over, but that was an exaggeration people are leeching the thing, especially episodes about MVD TN slashes: 2 on Tuesday 7/19, 5 on 7/20...

We Had A Barbecue

My friends came over and I got some much-needed support. PLUS, more adventures in Cooking While Disabled. Welcome to What's The Matter With Me? Podcast, Season 6 Episode 26, "We Had A Barbecue" When in doubt, grill it out In this episode, my friends came over to have a barbecue and I got some much-needed support. PLUS, more adventures in Cooking While Disabled. Gangnam Style was 10 years ago on July 15, 2012 Record review: "Gospel drone trance screaming blues minimalism" Reverend Charlie Jackson, God's Got It Shout outs to Kevin Global Shout Zone- geographical shout outs Irish people say "fert" Somethin from the DJ...

Are You Here By Yourself?

Welcome to What's The Matter With Me? Podcast, Season 6 Episode 25, “Are You Here By Yourself?” are you here by yourself? People keep asking me, "are you here by yourself?" I’m not sure when I should have someone with me when I go somewhere alone. Whether I'm OK to go or.. Didn't even want too say anything but what did I tell you- he dumped that nerd and he's going to the prom with Kelly. I went to the butcher shop and I got some good looking red snapper filets. Anthony B Getting snapper reminded me of the time Anthony B & hi...

Fourth of July

Going places in my chair- Hit my head again- Barbecue using the tray method- The Pepper Show is back. Welcome to the What's The Matter With Me? Podcast, "Fourth of July" In this episode, we take stock of the busy Fourth of July holiday week that was full of wheelchair rolls, head injuries and new grilling setups. Plus, we got a new Pepper Show! Statistical shout outs to places far and wide and thick and thin where people listen to the show. Have you heard of the disorder where people take s**** in their sleep? Yeah it's called sleep crapnea. ...