Unashamed Unafraid

In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, Austin shares how keeping a small journal of unfiltered “Dear God” letters for six months became a record of his recovery, transformed his relationship with God, improved communication with his wife, and supported about four months of sobriety. He describes feeling prompted to write “I’m a porn addict in recovery. Ask me anything.” on a poster board and sit at Utah Valley University; after three hours, one student approached, discussed shame and feeling unlovable, and later asked to keep talking. Sam connects this to his own prayer for guidance to expand the platform...

In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, Sam and Mason discuss sexual addiction recovery with their shared therapist, Jason Dausses of Accepted Therapy. Sam opens up about longstanding self-judgment rooted in verbally abusive coaches and bosses, and Jason frames healing as both rescuing past wounds and then empowering oneself to live from “zero to ten” through real-time choices, community, and effective communication of needs. They explore why “95% honesty” still leaves a hidden 5% that fuels shame, how to ask others for specific support to create safety, and how boundaries relate to unmet needs and validation-seeking. Jason emphasizes grieving lost time, widening one’s wi...

In this episode, Sam and James are joined by Dan Ostler to discuss their recent experiences at Warrior Heart Boot Camp. Sam shares a powerful, God-orchestrated moment of healing where confronting shame led to emotional breakthrough and support from God and his brothers.

The trio highlight Warrior Heart Boot Camp, the best resource for sexual addiction recovery, and how unplugging in the mountains for three days with Christ fosters healing. They also mention Glory and Heart of a Woman as equivalent programs for women.

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In this episode of Unashamed, Unafraid, Mason and Sam welcome Mike Farr, a rock photographer, Spartan racer, husband to Jenny, and father to Wesley. Mike shares how his father leaving early, conflict with a stepfather, and feeling unlovable fueled a “character” that chased acceptance through music, drugs, escalating sexual behavior, and crime. He describes immersion in the late ’60s–’80s music scene, cocaine dealing, and eventual heroin addiction, repeated arrests, rehab attempts, and a Salvation Army program that helped him rebuild sobriety and career. After a six-year relapse, an overdose coma, and another arrest, he surrendered, returned to meetings, and found...

Sam shares a previously unreleased conversation with Chris and Joshua about gratitude in recovery and healing through Christ. They discuss how gratitude helps overcome shame, challenges entitlement, and creates lasting change, while sharing personal stories of recovery, relationships, and faith.

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In this story episode of Unashamed, Unafraid, Sam and Mason interview Cam, a BYU construction management student preparing to commission as a combat engineer officer. He tells how his porn addiction grew out of achievement pressure, comparison with high-achieving siblings, and deep shame. After moving frequently and living in a high-performance community, Cam internalized “you’re stupid,” then attended a harmful youth program that taught him to see sexuality as evil and God as vengeful. Family stress, his dad losing a job, not getting into West Point, and later COVID intensified depression and escalated acting out, including on his missio...

This episode explores the emotional impact of criticism and how unresolved shame can fuel relapse in recovery. Sam shares a personal experience of being hurt by a negative review, which triggered old beliefs and led to a setback, while highlighting the importance of connection over isolation. Chris centers his comments on the concept of repair, taking accountability, seeking forgiveness, and asking others what healing looks like for them. Chris emphasizes that true repair is ultimately demonstrated through consistent change and living in alignment with one’s values. Lasting recovery is rooted in rebuilding trust, fostering connection, and pursuing ongoing pe...

In Part III of our series with returning guest Roxy Johnson, author of Forgotten in the Battle with Sexual Addiction, we dive deep into the role boundaries play in healing relationships impacted by sexual addiction and betrayal trauma. Roxy brings powerful insight and hard-earned wisdom on how boundaries protect peace, create honesty, and invite real recovery. Jasmine and Sam also open up about their own journey, discussing how surrendering a spouse to God while taking responsibility for yourself can transform a marriage. This conversation challenges the belief that boundaries are selfish and shows why healthy conflict can actually be...

In part two of the Unashamed, Unafraid series, the hosts discuss becoming unafraid to come unto Christ for healing in sexual addiction recovery by first learning who God truly is. He is kind, loving, forgiving, and relentless rather than judgmental. They explore how shame, secrecy, and “shame goggles” distort church, relationships, and one’s view of God, creating fear that keeps people from seeking healing. Chris shares a financial secrecy that nearly ended his marriage and how turning to God helped him accept support and accountability. Sam admits coasting in “manageable” relapse and delaying deeper healing. James identifies fear of God’s h...

Chris and Sam sit down with Ryan Carnahan from King’s Core to explore the deeper layers of addiction recovery. From relapse and discouragement to identity shifts and emotional resilience, this conversation dives into what actually creates lasting change. Ryan shares his personal 15-year journey through pornography addiction, the turning points that led to healing, and the core framework he now uses to help other men break free. Together, they unpack the difference between surface-level sobriety and true transformation—highlighting the role of identity, community, and mindset in recovery.

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Sam, Chris, and James discuss what it means to be “unashamed” in sexual addiction recovery. Shame thrives in secrecy, silence, and judgment and that speaking openly breaks isolation. They explore how context and boundaries matter when sharing, distinguishing healthy vulnerability from “vomiting,” and noting that relapse often intensifies shame. Sam shares how he’s become able to admit recent relapse without spiraling, crediting safe community, repeated honest conversations, trauma therapy, and a spiritual experience that helped him accept he is still good even when he relapses. The group encourages listeners to cultivate emotionally safe relationships, face fear within that community...

In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, Sam and Mason welcome Drew Boa, author of Outgrow Porn and founder of Husband Material Ministries, who explains inner child work as understanding sexual temptation and intolerable emotional pain as implicit “body memory” rather than mature adult desire. Drew shares how recognizing his own sexual imprinting and connecting it to childhood trauma replaced self-hatred with self-compassion and inviting Jesus into wounded places. Using the cave rescue documentary as an analogy, he outlines a process of locating, loving, and leading multiple “inner boys,” emphasizing connection over control, co-regulation, curiosity-based questions, and identifying attachment needs be...

In this Live Unashamed episode of Unashamed Unafraid, the hosts discuss the impact of sharing honest, raw stories in sexual addiction recovery and how storytelling combats the shame that fuels isolation and acting out. They explain that people connect through stories, and that naming taboo experiences with courage and vulnerability can break shame and bring healing.

In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, we return with Roxanna Johnson for a second recording as she explains how spouses are changed by the “dance” of addiction, why both partners have parallel recovery paths, and how hope can emerge over years of work. She teaches surrender as releasing control to God, addressing fear and hypervigilance, and emphasizes grieving, emotional regulation, movement with breath, journaling, and a step-by-step surrender practice, urging those struggling with addiction to “see” and validate their spouse’s pain while seeking the God who knows their name. Roxanna is the author of Forgotten in the Battle with Sexua...

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Nathan Maxwell returns after a lost recording to share updated perspectives on recovery and marriage. He recounts early exposure to pornography in fourth grade, his parents’ divorce, his half-brother’s suicide, and how shame and suppressed grief fueled compulsive porn use and a growing need for validation from various sexual partners. Nathan describes how religious culture, lack of sex education, and scrupulosity shaped a belief that God hated him, contributing to misery and suicidal ideation. Recovery began when a church member introduced him to Unashamed, Unafraid, 12-step meetings, and boot camp. Nathan now lives with a changed view of G...

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In this episode of Live Unashamed, the hosts discuss the importance of slowing down in the journey of recovery from sexual addiction. They explore how rushing through recovery can lead to overwhelming feelings and failure, whereas taking time to pause, reflect, and integrate new practices can lead to more sustainable progress. The conversation covers practical strategies such as focusing on one or two recovery tools...

This episode dives deep into the raw truth that sobriety is vital, shame is a battle, and authentic recovery requires honesty and courage. Listen as Troy shares his powerful story, struggles, and how God's grace rewrites everything.

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In this episode of Live Unashamed, we discuss a pivotal quote from The Stick of Joseph podcast about resisting temptation not by direct confrontation but by turning towards positive actions and thoughts. Our conversation covers the importance of connection with others, honesty, and creating a lifestyle centered around connection and healing. Listen as we share our experiences and practical advice on turning the light up in recovery.

In this enlightening episode of Unashamed Unafraid, we delve into the challenging yet transformative journey of porn addiction recovery with Dr. Trish Leigh, a cognitive neuroscientist. Dr. Leigh shares her unique approach of using EEG technology to understand and regulate the brain's functioning, helping individuals overcome compulsive sexual behaviors. She discusses the impact of dopamine dependency and the importance of unwiring, rewiring, and hardwiring the brain for long-term recovery. This episode is packed with insights and practical strategies for anyone struggling with or supporting someone through porn addiction recovery.

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In this episode, we introduce Madi Davis, host of 'Sisters on the Front Lines', who brings a fresh perspective on women's struggles with pornography. Join hosts Sam, James, Chris, and Madi as they discuss the unique challenges women face, the impact of shame, and the importance of connection. Madi shares her personal journey and highlights valuable resources that support women in their recovery. This episode is a must for anyone looking to understand and support women dealing with pornography addiction.

Check out Madi's podcast & connect with her here: https://www.instagram.com/sistersonthefrontlines

In this special episode of Unashamed Unafraid, we welcome Madi and Douglas, who share their experiences with pornography addiction and recovery. They represent the Un-Alone Club at BYU, a student organization aimed at supporting individuals struggling with pornography and other related issues. Douglas discusses his personal journey with addiction recovery, including how he overcame shame and learned to communicate openly with his wife. Madi shares her efforts in starting a podcast focused on helping young women struggling with pornography. Together, they emphasize the importance of community and connection in overcoming addiction. Tune in to hear their inspiring stories and...

Join the Unashamed Unafraid crew for a Live Unashamed episode where they openly discuss their experiences with sexual addiction, recovery, and the journey to self-forgiveness. Through heartfelt conversations, they explore the immense challenges of forgiving oneself despite being forgiven by others, the power of brotherhood and support, and how spirituality plays a crucial role in healing. Dive deep into personal stories, struggles, and moments of divine revelation that helped shape their paths to redemption. Whether you're in recovery or supporting someone who is, this episode is a powerful testament to the transformative power of grace and self-compassion.

In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, we delve deep into the journey of sexual addiction recovery with professional coach Austin Hamilton. Austin shares his personal story of overcoming pornography addiction and infidelity, emphasizing the importance of truth-telling and courage in the healing process. Highlighting how hidden struggles can impact relationships, Austin outlines his methods for guiding clients through recovery using story work, journaling, and compassionate self-reflection. Join us for an inspiring conversation on embracing vulnerability, understanding the roots of addiction, and fostering authentic connections. Don't miss valuable insights on how to live unashamed and unafraid.

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In this episode of Live Unashamed, Sam, James, Joshua, and Chris discuss their daily struggles and steps taken to live unashamedly. From setting boundaries with close friends to grappling with honesty in social situations, the group shares their personal experiences. The conversation explores the hardest aspects of being open about addiction and recovery, the fear of judgment, and the importance of brotherhood. They also emphasize the significance of being transparent with loved ones and the ongoing journey of recovery. The episode ends with a call to action for listeners to share their own fears and experiences.

In this episode, we introduce Rick and Christine Dixon, owners of Renaissance Ranch, a mental health and substance addiction treatment center. The Dixons share their powerful story of overcoming addiction within their family, discussing their personal journeys, professional insights, and the critical role of family in the recovery process. They emphasize the importance of addressing shame, working the 12 steps, and fostering a supportive family environment. This episode offers hope, practical advice, and a testament to the miraculous transformations that can occur through recovery and faith.

To contact Christine, send her an email Cdixon@theeftclinic.com, Christine@renaissanceranch...

In this episode of 'Live Unashamed,' Sam introduces Mason, a close friend with a similar background, to discuss their shared experiences and the difficulties they've faced in connecting with a loving, non-transactional God. The conversation explores the challenge of reconciling a shame-based relationship with God, integrating genuine prayer, and finding peace in the midst of spiritual turmoil. Throughout the discussion, they emphasize the importance of understanding the true character of God and share personal experiences and strategies for deepening one's faith. The episode concludes with an invitation for listeners to contribute scriptures that reflect God's love and a...

In this engaging Q&A episode of Unashamed Unafraid, the hosts dive deep into various questions sent by listeners surrounding addiction, recovery, and spirituality. The discussion ranges from whether God withholds recovery to teach lessons, to healthy masturbation, and coping mechanisms. They also address difficult topics like coping with pornography addiction while having autism, and the realistic timelines for a successful recovery journey. Tune in for an insightful and honest conversation aimed at tackling tough questions and fostering deeper understanding.

In this deeply moving episode of Unashamed Unafraid, Chris and Sam discuss some of their worst moments in recovery, confronting actions driven by addiction and the deep shame associated with them. They share personal stories of betrayal, lying, and the immense pain caused to loved ones. Through these confessions, they aim to provide a voice of compassion, understanding, and hope for those struggling with addiction. Tune in to hear how they have worked through their darkest moments, made amends, and found grace and redemption on their journey to recovery.

In this heartfelt episode of Unashamed Unafraid, join hosts as they sit down with Kyle and Madison, a couple who bravely share their journey through Kyle's pornography addiction and their path to recovery. From childhood struggles to marital challenges, Kyle and Madison discuss the impact of addiction, the importance of honesty, and the role of faith in their healing process. They candidly talk about the hurdles they've faced, the steps they've taken to rebuild trust, and how they found hope. Their story serves as a powerful testament to the power of vulnerability, resilience, and the commitment to walking the...

In this episode, hosts delve deep into the unique journeys of personal recovery. They discuss the diverse paths different individuals take towards recovery, emphasizing that what works for one person may not necessarily work for another. They explore different camps such as trauma,  therapy, church, and the 12 Steps program, and stress the importance of finding a personal approach to recovery. With heartfelt conversations and personal anecdotes, this episode encourages viewers to identify what truly works for them and persist through the challenging recovery process. Don't miss this inspiring and honest discussion on forging your own path to recovery. 

In this episode, hosts Chris and Sam welcome Duncan and Gina, authors of the book 'Lower the Bar.' They share their personal journey through Duncan's struggle with pornography addiction, Gina's involvement in his recovery, and how they co-authored their book. They discuss the importance of openness and transparency in their relationship, the evolution of Duncan's addiction, and the steps they took towards healing. Highlights include Duncan's battle with addiction, the turning points in their journey, emotional challenges, and how they ultimately found strength in each other. Gina emphasizes the significance of messy conversations and mutual support in overcoming...

In this episode of Live Unashamed, Sam shares his personal struggles with the fear of 'doing the work,' fueled by shame and external pressures to perform. The conversation explores the importance of creating safety, setting personal goals, and building effective systems to maintain sobriety. Chris underscores the significance of consistency and the power of support networks in the journey toward recovery. Whether you're battling addiction or looking for motivation to make positive changes in your life, this episode offers invaluable insights and practical advice.

In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, we are joined by Jeni Brockbank, Executive Director of H.E.R. Wings Unfold, founder of T.S. 12 Anon and the lead host of Relational Trauma SOS. Jeni shares her journey through relational trauma and recovery, providing insights into the importance of addressing deeper issues such as trauma and abandonment in addiction recovery. Jeni discusses her innovative trauma-sensitive 12-step program designed to meet people where they are in their recovery journey. She emphasizes the necessity of creating safety and stabilization, processing grief and mourning, and integrating and growing from these experiences. Jeni also...

In this episode of Live Unashamed, Sam and James delve into personal battles with shame, insecurities, and addiction. Sam shares his journey of overcoming his fears of inadequacy to take over the podcast, while he discusses his struggles with pornography addiction and how his relationship with God has played a crucial role in his healing process. They emphasize the importance of viewing God as a relational being rather than a transactional one, and explore how faith, reliance on God, and embracing discomfort can lead to personal growth and recovery. Join them in this candid and inspiring conversation and learn...

In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, join us as we delve into the journey of Jeremy Lipkowitz, an ICF certified coach and meditation teacher, who shares his personal battle with porn addiction. Jeremy explores the root causes of addiction, the impact it had on his life, and how mindfulness and meditation played a vital role in his recovery. Through his story, learn about the power of awareness, the importance of self-compassion, and the concept of equanimity. Whether you are struggling with addiction or simply seeking a more fulfilling life, Jeremy’s insights offer valuable guidance. Tune in to discover ho...

In this episode of Live Unashamed, the hosts dive deep into the complexities of codependency and support in relationships. Josh shares his personal journey of recovery and the challenges he faced in understanding the balance between supporting his wife and being codependent. The conversation shifts to the guests discussing their own experiences and strategies for maintaining honesty and connection while avoiding the pitfalls of self-abandonment and manipulation. Key insights include the importance of self-awareness, honest communication, and understanding one's motivations in acts of support. The episode concludes with a call to viewers to share their thoughts and experiences on...

Join us in this powerful episode of Unashamed Unafraid where we talk with Roxanna Johnson, the author of 'Forgotten in the Battle with Sexual Addiction: The Journey of a Spouse.' Roxy opens up about her personal experiences with her late husband's sexual addiction and the profound impact it had on her life. She shares insights from her book, explaining how she navigated betrayal trauma, found healing, and learned to set boundaries. Roxy also discusses the importance of finding oneself, understanding the influence of trauma, and the pivotal role of community and therapy in recovery. Whether you're a spouse...

Join us for another Live Unashamed episode, as we talk about the importance of self-compassion and taking pride in your recovery journey. James shares his experience about being unashamed of his story and how self-compassion has played a pivotal role in his recovery. The team also discusses key moments from their own journeys, including revelations about emotional transparency, honesty, and the significance of changing one's identity as a part of recovery. Dive into this heartfelt conversation that underscores the power of vulnerability and self-acceptance in overcoming addiction.

In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, Sam, James, Steve and Ian discuss the imminent release of the new Unashamed Guidebook, a comprehensive recovery tool that integrates principles from therapy, church support, and peer-facilitated groups. They share personal anecdotes and insights into recovery, highlighting the importance of safety, community, and individualized approaches to healing. The episode emphasizes the guidebook's collaborative creation, featuring contributions from various recovery experts and emphasizes its unique, self-guided process. Listeners are invited to pilot the guidebook and share their experiences to enhance its effectiveness.

*If you want to pilot test the guidebook, send an...