Don’t call Me
Don’t Call Me is a raw, poetic, and darkly humorous podcast for women, soul-seekers, trauma survivors, and creatives seeking spiritual healing and transformation. Hosted by a woman who has come back from the brink, each episode offers a piece of her journey – stories polished by pain and time like stones from Avonia Beach – told with unapologetic feminine authority and intuitive insight. She shows that by sharing our truth, we become story healers , guiding one another across the threshold from despair to hope. Her dream-fueled wisdom and dark humor serve as an unexpected lifeline, finding light even in the heaviest moment...
The Hidden Exit
What begins as a strange walk through a train museum becomes something much deeper—an unmarked map of the self. Curated by someone who once helped me find my voice, this dream wasn’t just memory. It was movement. Misdirection. And a confrontation with power disguised as silence.
I flew through houses that weren’t homes.
I tried to call out and got called something else.
And still—there was a way through.
This episode is about being seen, about refusing shame,
and about learning that the...
The Ones Who Forgot I Was Sacred
This episode is a return.
To grief.
To silence.
To the shoreline that held me when I couldn’t hold myself.
It’s a story carved across Charlotte, Carbondale, Avonia, and Rochester.
Across eclipses.
Across motherhood.
Across memory.
I speak about Shiv—not as a romance, but as a soul-recognition.
About the stones I collect at Avonia Beach after dropping off my children.
About grief that rides in the passenger seat.
And the moment...
She Who Walks Between
She thought she was just visiting a cave.
But the stone knew her name.
The water anointed her hands.
And the darkness remembered her before she remembered herself.
In this episode, Em returns to a memory buried since childhood—
a dream of stairs behind a door,
a temple beneath the surface,
and a life lived in service to something ancient and sovereign.
This is not a story of seeking.
It’s a story of returning.
Of s...
He Stayed Still
Don’t Call Me: Dreams Between Lives
Not all healing comes from collapse.
Some begins in a room that asks nothing of you.
No story. No apology. No performance.
In this dream, I was exhausted. Unwashed. Unfiltered.
And for once, no one looked away.
He stayed still.
Not to rescue me.
Not to possess me.
But to hold his shape long enough
for me to lay mine down.
This is...
The Ones I Never Had
Some dreams don’t come to shatter you.
They come to show you what you almost forgot.
They come quiet.
They come soft.
And they stay.
The night before the eclipse,
I dreamed of the ones who loved me without needing to hold me.
The ones who saw me without asking me to disappear.
I almost missed the weight of it.
I almost called it nothing.
But it was already rewriting me,
...
The Threshold
In this opening episode, I take you into the dream that broke me open.
A wedding I didn’t want.
A weight I was never meant to carry.
A torn gown, wet hair, and the truth that stillness isn’t danger—it’s freedom.
Under the light of a total lunar eclipse, I was forced to face the roles I played, the silence I obeyed, and the lie that holding it all together made me worthy.
This isn’t just a dream.
It’s the threshold.
The place...
The Blanket
Some objects carry more than just weight, they carry history. They hold memories, emotions, and the echoes of past versions of ourselves.
Tonight, I pulled out a blanket. A thick, high-quality throw that has been with me for fifteen years. But I didn’t buy it. I didn’t inherit it. I picked it out on my first day at a women’s shelter, when I had nothing but the weight of my own heartbreak.
At the time, I felt guilty for taking something nice like I didn’t deserve warmth or comfort. But that...
The Blackwater Sanctuary
Not all sanctuaries have walls. Some exist in the hush of midnight, in the weightless drift of water, in the space between the stars and the earth. This is the story of a Midwest farm, a dark pond, and a moment of stillness that felt like sanctuary. A summer night where the world disappeared, and for the first time in too long, I felt free.
What’s Inside This Episode:
Rebuilding a life after divorce and trauma
The heartbreak of separation from my children
Finding unexpected friendship in a qu...
Aligned by Amaya
In this episode, I share the serendipitous story of how life brought me back to two incredible people, Reema and Ramneesh, and their restaurant, Amaya Indian Cuisine.
Years ago, in Carbondale, Illinois, I found comfort and connection at their first restaurant, Reema’s. Their warmth, kindness, and unforgettable food made a difficult time in my life a little easier. But one day, they disappeared… no explanation, no goodbye.
Fast forward to now: After moving back to Rochester, New York, I discovered they were here too. Out of all the places in the...
Coffee, Chaos, & Mr. Jones
Sometimes, the right person enters your life at exactly the right moment, and for me, that person was Ann.
In this episode, I share the story of how Ann and I met as medical secretaries, both navigating devastating circumstances and rebuilding our lives. From morning coffee chats on a rusty backyard table to Jeep rides blasting Mr. Jones on winding Midwestern back roads, Anne’s friendship brought laughter, freedom, and light into some of the darkest times of my life.
Ann wasn’t just a friend, she became family. She showed me w...
