I'm joined this week by my new friend and fellow JET program alum Ian Chun, founder of Yunomi.life, a global tea e-commerce business based in Tokyo that offers the world's largest selection of Japanese tea and bridges the cultural and linguistic barriers separating Japanese tea farmers from enthusiasts around the world. We meet up at Ian's matcha shop in Tokyo and get into the messiness that is the journey of life and entrepreneurship. Without holding anything back, Ian shares the good, the bad, and the ugly of what it looks like to turn passion and purpose into a...

Why Pushing Harder Keeps Backfiring: The Five Elements and How You Actually Reach Your Goals

I'm solo this week with a framework from Ayurveda that quietly changed how I think about reaching my goals. We usually use the five elements — space, air, water, earth, and fire — to understand health and disease. But in this episode, I use them differently: to look at how we align our actions with what we actually want. I share how I realized I'd been over-relying on fire my whole life, pushing through everything by force, and what shifted when I finally added the...

I'm solo this week with a story that starts on a warm Saturday evening, walking along the river near my house in Tokyo with no phone, no clock, and nowhere to be. What began as an experiment — turning off every screen for a full weekend — turned into something that quietly rearranged how I think about time, urgency, and the life I say I want to live. I get into what surprised me, what I noticed when the devices went dark, and the uncomfortable questions that came up about how much of my own hurry is manufactured. This one is for...

I'm joined this week by Joseph Dowd — philosopher, professor, and one of my own Vibrant Visionary Collective members — for a conversation about what healing actually requires. Joseph has tried it all: pharmaceuticals, psychedelic-assisted therapy, cognitive behavioral therapy, ayahuasca retreats in Peru, IFS sessions, and years of daily meditation. And yet for a long time, nothing stuck. We get into why — the seductive trap of peak experiences, the philosophy of the hedonic treadmill, what Ayurveda says about the primordial cause of disease, and what seven months of real, consistent work in the Collective actually shifted for him. This one is for an...

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I'm back solo this week with something I've been reflecting on for a while — that the human desire for belonging is a double-edged sword. While fitting in can bring you acceptance into the tribe, it can also drive a type of self-silencing. This episode is built around a simple but challenging idea: that the parts of you that feel too different, too much, or not enough are not the problem. They're the key to your authentic voice and true sense of joy. I reflect on my millennial Asian-American upbringing and the internal war it cr...

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I'm sitting down with my friend and fellow dancer Shinjiro Tanaka — a Tokyo-based visual artist whose work asks a question most of us spend our whole lives avoiding: what do we do with the broken parts? Recorded live in his atelier here in Tokyo, this conversation traces how Shin moved from advertising suits to New York streets, from graphic design to live painting in the subway at Grand Central, and ultimately to his recent series Broken, Yet Still Golden — rooted in the Japanese art of Kintsugi, where broken things are repaired with gold and beco...

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I sit down with Nina Pullella, my former Ayurveda school classmate and founder of Living Ayurveda Hawaii, to explore her radical life transformation from free-spirited bartender to devoted healer. I get real with Nina about how watching her best friend Christa fight stage 4 breast cancer at 38 became the catalyst for everything — from starting her meal delivery business to discovering Ayurveda to creating the Wild Woman Collective. I reflect on the deeper patterns we see in chronic illness, including the mental health crises that often precede physical disease, and why giving ourselves permission to prioritize ou...

How One Artist Ditched the Popularity Contest and Start Creating for Himself...

I sat down with Vibrant Visionary member Alvyn Villanueva, artist and founder of Really Hueman, to explore his path from chasing validation in Hollywood's animation industry to finding authentic creative expression. We get real about the paradox so many artists face — understanding intellectually what needs to change but struggling to embody it in a world that constantly measures worth through follower counts, industry recognition, and getting hired. This conversation unpacks the slow work of separating survival from art, the importance of foundational stability before creative ri...

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I'm back in solo format for a mini episode, and today I'm sharing something I didn't see coming when I took a part-time job at a café in Tokyo. What started as a challenge to get fluent in Japanese has turned into one of the most unexpectedly rich experiences of my life. My coworkers, ranging from 20-somethings to people in their 50s, are showing me what it actually looks like to live with curiosity, pursue what genuinely interests you, and find joy in the every day. This one is for anyone who's ever felt p...

This episode is a role reversal — I hand the mic to Tarna Fuller, Ayurvedic practitioner and founder of Lotus Honey Integrative Health, and let her interview me about one of the most overused and under-examined words in the wellness world: authenticity. I get real about what authenticity actually requires — why it isn't available to someone in survival mode, how our earliest coping strategies become the very patterns that sabotage our growth, and what I call the "not-self" and why facing it is non-negotiable. We also move into territory that doesn't get discussed enough: the Vedic concept of the observer self...

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In this conversation, I sit down with Michael Green, meditation teacher and Ayurvedic practitioner, for our third annual conversation exploring how self-study shapes our ability to navigate life's challenges. Michael shares his recent motorcycle accident in Bali and the moment his mind tried to spiral into catastrophic thinking — and how his meditation practice literally saved him from mental suffering. I open up about my experience returning to Japan after 13 years and discovering how much my relationship with myself has evolved through conscious self-observation. This episode is for anyone who's curious about the hidden ways we sa...

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I'm sharing something rare today — a complete transformation story from my Vibrant Visionary Collective member Tiffany Dyer, who gave us permission to share her vulnerably honest account with the world. This episode reveals what it truly takes — mind, body, and spirit — to fully transform and change your life, outlining the real challenges, setbacks, and triumphs over two years of deep work. While Tiffany's life looked successful on the outside, she knew something was fundamentally off after a profound retreat experience in Japan, and she chose to heed that call for change. This is for anyone...

After 65+ episodes, Valerie is done filtering herself. In this solo episode, she speaks freely about what she's actually been learning — living in Japan, stepping away from social media, and questioning spaces that promise transformation but deliver performance. This is part reflection, part honest reckoning with the goals she used to chase and no longer wants. If you've ever felt like you were succeeding at the wrong life, this one is for you.

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[00:33] — Talking into the void turned out to be freeing — Valerie opens up about why the silence pushed her toward more honesty, not le...

In this episode, I sit down with Cate Stillman to explore the intersection of psychedelics, Ayurveda, and what she calls "primal habits." We talk about how ancient biological rhythms, fasting practices, movement, and even controversial healing methods may influence the microbiome, the nervous system, and our overall consciousness.

Cate shares why she believes many of the practices we consider "alternative" today are actually rooted in deeply human, pre-cultural behaviors. From circadian rhythms and group detox practices to the growing conversation around micro-dosing and the Amanita mushroom, this discussion explores what happens when we return to the body's...

Some conversations feel like peeling back layers in real time. It happens when conversations are met with courage, curiosity, and vulnerability. 

My friend and colleague Tarna Fuller, Ayurvedic practitioner, respiratory therapist, mom of five, and founder of Lotus Honey Integrative Health — joined me for an intimate conversation about childhood trauma, survival patterns, shrinking, ambition, and what it actually takes to become fully seen.

We talked about abuse. Poverty. Spirituality. Marriage. Business. Motherhood.

And the quiet, ongoing work of recognizing the patterns that once protected us… but no longer serve us.

This episo...

I met today's episode guest a decade ago in a very different time in my life. Back then, I had decided to drop my dance career, sell all of my stuff, and bought a one-way ticket to New Zealand. I ended up working part-time at a parkour gym called Flow Academy in Pakuranga, where I spent most of my time training acrobatics, tricks and parkour with a bunch of young kids.

It was during this brief era that I met Tian, a fiery influencer personality and fellow martial arts tricking enthusiast. We didn't really get to know...

What does integrity look like when the world is burning—and the old frameworks no longer fully hold?

In this episode of From the Ashes, I sit down with Telfer McConaghay (formerly Veda Dave) for a grounded, unfiltered conversation about rage, grief, privilege, and the responsibility of choosing right action in chaotic times.

I’ve waxed poetic about Telfer on my podcast before—because he is the real deal. Telfer is known for pushing the edges of the Ayurvedic world, bringing trauma‑informed, indigenous, and politically aware conversations into spaces that often resist them.

We talk ab...

Our first interview episode of From the Ashes comes in hot, following this year’s intention to hold bold and courageous dialogue. I sit down with healing justice practitioner, organizer, and bioregional herbalist Asia Dorsey for an unfiltered conversation about burnout, activism, and the moment you choose to stop sacrificing your body for the work.

Asia shares her journey from decades of frontline organizing to a profound reckoning with depression, depletion, and the culture of martyrdom embedded in social change movements. Together, we explore what it means to lay down the sword, reclaim the body as a si...

Season 4 of From the Ashes begins with intention.

After more than 60 episodes of this podcast, something has become very clear to me. The magic isn’t in how smart or accomplished my guests are. It’s not only in the depth of wisdom they carry or the titles they’ve earned. The real magic lives in the conversation itself, and in what happens when two people are willing to listen deeply, challenge assumptions, explore the tensions of real life, and come out of the dialogue feeling clearer, more connected, and more alive.

That realization is shaping this entire season.

This season marks a shift. From the Ashes is moving intentional...

Season 3 Finale: Rising, Reflecting & What’s Next

with Valerie Hwang Beck & Maddy Reede

We made it to the end of Season 3! 🎉

 This special finale episode of From the Ashes is a heartfelt, behind-the-scenes conversation between me and my incredible podcast producer, Maddy Reede — Vibrant Visionary Collective member and creative force who helped bring this entire season to life.

Together, we reflect on the journey of Season 3, the power of storytelling, personal evolution, and what it truly means to rise from the ashes — not once, but over and over again.

In This Episode

Valerie and Maddy dive into Valerie’s move to Japan and what it unlocked emot...

What if healing isn’t something you learn—but something you remember?

In this crossover episode with Dr. Charlie Trinh, we explore a journey that moves from engineering and gaming at Disney… to ancient temples, spiritual awakenings, and the rediscovery of ancestral medicine.

Charlie’s story mirrors so many purpose-driven visionaries who wake up one day realizing the life they built—no matter how impressive—no longer fits the truth of who they are.

Together, we unpack what it means to move from player to creator in your own life, how intuitive knowing gets buried under survival conditioning, and why real sovereignty in health begins when you stop ...

When the world feels like it’s falling apart, it’s easy to slip into survival mode — waiting for something external to change before we take action. But empowerment begins when we remember that as long as we are breathing, we have the ability to move forward.

In this short, grounded episode, Valerie shares how to shift out of victim mindset without gaslighting yourself or forcing positivity. Through breath, awareness, and small intentional actions, you’ll learn how to reconnect to your power, regulate your nervous system, and create movement even in uncertain times.

In This Epi...

If Divine guidance comes to us in whispers, are you willing to quiet your mind enough to listen?

In this soul-stirring conversation, I sit down with storyteller and creative director Tom Sun to explore what it truly means to rise from the ashes — to rediscover faith, purpose, and service after seasons of loss and burnout.

From a career collapse that brought him to his knees to a life-changing phone call that awakened his connection with the divine, Tom shares how his rock bottom became the foundation for his purpose. Together, we dive deep into spirituality, ob...

What does it mean to decolonize mental health?

In this solo episode of From the Ashes, I share some raw reflections fresh from the Colorado Ayurvedic Medical Association’s annual conference on Indigenous Ayurveda. What started as an invitation to teach primal movement in the context of capoeira turned into a deep reckoning with my own dharma, identity, and the systems we unconsciously give our power away to.

Through my personal journey—woven through hip hop, capoeira, Ayurveda, and the quest to understand mental health beyond institutional models—I explore what it really means to decolo...

When Tiffany first reached out to me, she was exhausted—mentally, physically, and spiritually.

She’d hit that point so many of us reach when success on paper no longer feels like fulfillment in the body.

In this conversation, I sit down with Tiffany Gozali—one of my long-time clients and pioneer members of Club Phoenix—and now, a living embodiment of what it means to rise from the ashes. From feeling disconnected from her energy and body to becoming a disciplined athlete, leader and motivational voice, Tiffany’s transformation turned out far beyond my expectatio...

What happens when the “bullet train” of success derails your health and forces you to choose between life and lifestyle?

In this episode of From the Ashes, I sit down with my friend Mark Richard, whose story is nothing short of extraordinary. From a rough childhood in Los Angeles to becoming a top-producing San Francisco real estate agent, Mark drove himself to the brink...until stage 4 non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma stopped him in his tracks.

Instead of following conventional treatment, Mark turned toward natural healing: juicing vegetables, meditation, and radically changing his life. Against all odds, he rev...

In this heartfelt conversation, I sit down with Kirsten Lane, a resilient woman whose journey through motherhood, loss, chronic illness, and transformation reveals the power of sovereignty and rebirth. From surviving a controlling relationship and the grief of losing her partner, to navigating menopause, Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, and burnout, Kirsten shares how she turned pain into power through daily rituals, body awareness, and embracing joy. Her story is one of radical self-listening, reclaiming vitality, and shining unapologetically.

Together, we explore what it means to truly live—beyond survival—and how small, intentional practices can create monumental shifts. By the...

During my adventures in Amsterdam at Mindvalley U this summer, I had the opportunity to meet the wonderful Paul Gotel, former music industry mogul turned inspirational speaker and author with an incredible life story to tell. What struck me about Paul is his dynamic energy and loving spirit, and his unapologetic mission to help people start their own inner revolutions towards authenticity.

During our conversation, I was deeply moved by his radical honesty about success, burnout, and the illusions we trade for authenticity. We unpack what it really means to live in alignment. Not chasing approval, not...

In this inspiring conversation from Amsterdam, I sit down with my new friend Kiki Fukai, an ikigai coach and digital nomad from Japan, whose life changed dramatically after a devastating snowboarding accident. With her entire face shattered and her life hanging by a thread, Kiki chose not to remain a victim but to rise stronger—embracing her pain as fuel for transformation.

From surviving multiple surgeries to rebuilding her identity, she now empowers others to discover their ikigai, or life purpose, while living with freedom and authenticity. Together, we explore resilience, positivity, Japanese cultural challenges around self-expression, an...

I had the privilege of interviewing some remarkable souls during my adventures at Mindvalley U this year in Amsterdam. From world-class DJs to wandering nomads, hundreds of soul-seeking travelers from all around the globe gathered for two weeks of connection and personal growth. I knew that there would be people with incredible stories to share, and I was not wrong!

In this episode of From the Ashes, I sit down with Karms Fung, who shares her remarkable journey from a high-achieving corporate career to rediscovering purpose and alignment through Vipassana meditation and deep inner healing. Together, we...

In this week's episode of From the Ashes, I sit down with writer and former Silicon Valley leader Sabra Meretab, who shares her deeply personal story of navigating burnout, imposter syndrome, and what she calls “hero syndrome.” From excelling in corporate at Stripe to writing her first memoir, Sabra opens up about the inner reckoning that changed her life, and how she chose to heal from within rather than run away.

We talk about the hidden roots of burnout that start in childhood, the cultural glorification of overachievement, and how self-doubt can actually be a signpost toward your...

In this solo episode, I share my raw, reflective experience completing a 72-hour water fast—something I once thought I’d never do. From initial skepticism to Ayurvedic insights, I walk you through the why, how, and who should or shouldn't try this powerful practice. We explore fasting as a spiritual and biological reset, and how our motivations—survival vs. thriving—deeply affect the outcome. I also get real about how trauma, dosha imbalances, and hustle culture can dangerously distort our relationship with fasting.

Whether you’re curious about how fasting can improve immunity, reduce inflammation, and sharpen yo...

In this episode of From the Ashes, I dig deep into one of the most universal blocks on the journey to personal transformation: getting out of our own way. I share personal stories, cultural reflections, and the mindset shifts I’ve experienced—and continue to practice—to move beyond self-sabotage.

We unpack why so many of us know what we want but stop short of going after it, and how invisible “rules,” survival programming, and old belief systems keep us stuck. I also walk you through powerful journal prompts and four essential tools that can truly shift your traje...

In this episode, I reflect deeply on a truth many of us avoid: that waiting until the brink of collapse before taking care of ourselves can be devastating. I explore how burnout creeps in, often disguised in small, overlooked symptoms, and how ancient Ayurvedic wisdom can help us recognize and reverse imbalances before they manifest as serious disease. I share personal stories, client experiences, and candid insights into why we push ourselves to the edge—and how we can choose differently. This is a call to reclaim our energy, trust ourselves, and courageously prioritize well-being in a culture that gl...

This week’s episode is a real-time reflection from the floor of my office, sparked by something I’ve been unpacking in my own life and in Club Phoenix lately: joy.

More specifically—why I’ve been choking my own joy, even while teaching others how to live in alignment.

In this solo episode, I explore my Flowstate Framework and how each pillar (purpose, abundance, freedom, and fulfillment) feeds into the others. Joy is an aspect of fulfillment, where we derive pleasure from doing something meaningful in our lives. I unpack how easy it is to choke...

What does it mean to heal at the root—not just to feel better, but to become whole again?

In this deeply resonant episode, I sit down with Elizabeth Stauder—somatic transformation coach, quantum healing guide, and fellow rebel soul—to explore what it means to return to the wisdom of the body, to grieve and awaken simultaneously, and to walk the long road of self-healing with curiosity and courage.

Elizabeth’s story is not linear—and that’s exactly what makes it powerful. From navigating a life-altering autoimmune flare triggered by a vaccine injury, to unravelin...

From running nightclubs with the mob in Chicago…

to curating a culinary bookstore in Long Beach built on dialogue, not hype—Matt Miller has lived some stories.

In this episode, I sit down with Matt—writer, food obsessive, and founder of Kitchen Lingo—to talk about the messy, meandering, totally unscripted path to building something that actually fits.

What struck me most? He didn’t rush it. He sat across the street from the space for months before deciding what it should become. No grand launch. No five-year plan. Just coffee, curiosity, and the courag...

In this episode of From the Ashes, I sat down with Human Design and nervous system guide Akary Busto  for an open, honest, and eye-opening conversation about how Human Design can help you reconnect with your true nature and unlock your full potential.

To make the most out of listening to this episode, I highly recommend downloading your free personal Human Design chart at https://uhkare.com/ 

Akary didn’t start her journey in the wellness world—she was an international banker. But it wasn’t until she began facing the physical and emotional effects of her o...

What if the path to your purpose isn't about following a formula—but listening deeply, leaning into fear, and saying yes to what lights you up?

In this solo season premiere of From the Ashes, I share the story of how a spontaneous decision to attend a retreat in Japan reignited a long-lost part of me—and reminded me that reclaiming your unique potential often starts with one bold, intuitive leap.

From journaling breakthroughs and digital detoxes to multilingual dinner parties with strangers and a renewed global mission, this episode is an invitation to reflect, real...

In this powerful season finale of From the Ashes, I’m joined by Sambo Sak—a Cambodian American community leader, poet, and educator based in Long Beach, CA. Sambo uses storytelling and creative expression as a path to healing, identity, and collective liberation.

Together, we explore how creativity becomes a lifeline in times of darkness, how generational trauma can quietly shape our beliefs about ourselves, and how reclaiming your story is one of the most radical acts of healing you can take.

⚠️ Content note: This episode includes candid conversation around suicidal ideation. Please listen with care.