Integrated Awakenings with Maria

Community (and genuine connection) is touted as a cure-all to modern day isolation and rugged individualism — but how exactly do you go about doing that? Building that? Especially when we have limited time and resources, how does one create a bank of community that feels sustainable, aligned and real? In this solo-cast we go through two major parts: clarifying for ourselves why we might feel a shift into holding space for more people through a specific intention (part one), but also the pragmatic who what when where how often we create momentum in the connections you are making. 

Let’s get cracking on one of the most fundamental concepts in self-development: Self! What is it? What’s our baggage with the definitions of it? Why is it so paradoxically real and not-real? In this podcast we tackle what it means to rebirth and redefine, combing through the common hang-ups of interrogating the self, internally, as well as extrapolating the self externally in your lived manifest life. A lot of folks tend to have a pull to re-make and re-birth, during spring, or during wide tides of change, which the world has plenty. 

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A focused solo-cast on everything mercurial: words, intention, sanctified communication and the very human sincerity of wanting to understand and to be understood. In this podcast ep Maria walks us through the common injuries of an injured throat chakra: whether it was your voice/words not being valued, or our inner storms/word-vomits being numb to it’s own powers. We go through very useful tips on how to tap the power of our VERY WORDS, and how to invoke intentions that help us receive, transmit, feel into what needs to be spoken, and the highest expression/music of ou...

85 ART TAMBAY: Creativity Acceptance & Community with Lilay and Kent

Welcome to our first live audience podcast ep! In this episode, si Maria Lilay at Kent ay nagkwekwentuhan tungkol sa mga virtues ng creative process at papaano tayo nakakapagheal at learn kasama ng isang community. Located at @odangputikpotterystudio we talk about our own journeys around our creative practices (inner children, stepping out of capitalism), and how necessary it is to consciously cultivate a village especially when modernism leans towards isolationism & personal greed. If times are tough, if creativity and art feel can feel like a classist privilege, if...

Another cafe episode drop! In this episode Maria and Ice walk through the highly underrated topic that is astral remediation, where tough/“hard” planets and aspects on one’s chart can be more supported ergo “remediated”. We go through popular malefic planets like saturn and mars, and go through houses with strong holistic health themes like 6H 12H 4H etc. We emphasize the uniqueness of each person in how they wield, work with and alchemize energies, and encourage folks to find outlets, and complimentary, sulit actions that will help you live out your best life. If you’ve always been frustra...

83 Grounding, Land Spirits, Belonging, how to do that in the Age of the Internet

This one has been a long-time brewing: an episode on Land Spirits, (advanced!) grounding, and how can we really energetically and meaningfully engage on the internet? Topics might seem disparate at first glance, but so much of the integration needed these days are multi-faceted: our minds have access to so much information, our sense of belonging can be diasporic, fragmented, everywhere and all at once at the same time. What is “grounding” really in a very aquarian age, where information and your food...

Welcome to our first cafe-atmospheric podcast, we have a wonderful guest @jupitergrace sitting down with us and walking us through the primary roles, lessons and integrations of our Human Design (HD) Chart. An accessible system that combines, the iching, astrology and the body, Grace walks us through the main centers of our HD chart and what it really means to be closed/open in these specific aspects of our bodies. We also talk about our personal journeys between receptivity-directedness, self-acceptance amidst projectors, manifestors, generators and reflectors amidst generations and cultures — all while having cake! If you enjoy the picking ou...

Back from a short break we have a solocast on one of the most underrated and quite frankly! misunderstood type of healing lineage. We often talk about ancestral healing, in the lens of our primary parental wounds, but this episode invites us into cultures, traditions and even concepts around land/minerals as A ancestor, to really make generous and wide our concept of family, ancestry and connection. The collective is the individual, the self/loob~kapwa is a porous chosen and surrendered thing. What does it mean to rectify themes of home/uwi/return, especially to the level of “he...

This one is a certified banger, we have the lowdown on an often vilified but potent planet: Ms. Saturn. Maria has invited the wonderful integrative astrologer, Thea of @soulsoiltlc to walk us through what it really means to have a Saturn Return, lessons, and the elemental aspects of it’s cosmic-stuff and phases. We cover somatic expressions of these energetic integrations and talk about the soupy time of Pisces in Saturn, Kairos vs Chronos, and why is it Really that time feels so weird lately? It’s easy to lug around the word “quantum”, but with this podcast we have myt...

Let’s talk about the year of the snake and the archetype of shedding. Themes of collaboration are coming up for the Chinese New Year, and it becomes important not only to be honest with ourselves with our own needs but to be lucidly clear with what we can expect and exchange in our various relationships. We also cover plenty of learnings with regards to relating to crystals: choosing quality over quantity, caring for our mineral companions, and allowing crystals to teach you when they emit certain qualities of alchemy, or even when they bend or break.

78 Domestic Magick & New Year Purging

WELCOME TO THE FIRST EPISODE OF THE NEW YEAR! Fresh from our little break we have a very conveniently timed episode: How to purge (the different ways of it), and How magick and wisdom is so available our everyday environment. Let me hang out with y’all as you reset for the new year, and how we so easily miss the present and blooming wisdom that can be right in front of our eyes. For a lot us, we can relegate spirit in only! specific places/practices that seem more “spiritual/holy”, not re...

By the end of the year we usually take stock of the past, and meet maybe (with some disappointment and frustration!) the gap between our previous new year’s intentions, goals, and maybe our own personal expectations. The energy of innocence, hope, youth, dreams, vigour is something that will always co-exist and lie in contrast with the energy of salt, mud, wisened protection, aged bitterness, the rubber meeting the road. 

Maybe what’s stopping us from a real fresh start, or fresh feeling with life, is the closet of old dreams, deflated, when the wind, “was knocked...

For our second outdoor episode! hang out with Maria and Charm Aradia (@charmaradia the practitioner behind @kandeladia), and some park cats as we talk about Charm’s wisdom journey, and some basic invocation techniques. Charm has a lineage of closed practice, so what is disclosed is a curious peek into a muddy, elemental and rooted practice that is not only local but is also respectful of the sensual and the transitions of ash/death. Very hilarious park-events-bonus-only-done-in-live recordings happen and I can assure you that if you want a very easeful talk, that speaks frankly but also directly about th...

A long overdue episode! Maria takes everyone on a tour of books, lineages and wisdom bodies that are good foundational starting points for spiritual practice. We cover the major categories of: Personal Development, Psyche Adjacent, Spiritual, Podcasts and Special Mentions to present a wide base of development that is most appropriate and integrative for every person/soul. Maria basically does a really good synthesis of each lineage mentioned, and “contraindications” of why something may not “work” for a certain person in their specific path. Wisdom is something that is very difficult to steal from you and has a very prescien...

In this episode of Integrated Awakenings we have a Philippine functional mushroom pioneer Jillian Sagum talking to us about her relationship with nourishment, and trusting synchronicities to manifest access to wild, ethically sourced, and the heart aligned business that she has today. She walks us through her unique experiences of sharing a lot of food wisdom during the height of the pandemic, as well as some more familiar experiences around Ayahausca, dream downloads and discerning the integration and call to spirit. Jillian has a steadying patience and quiet willingness to show up for what would be “muddy” work, that migh...

OUR FIRST OUTDOOR Atmospheric podcast ep! Come hang with Maria and Lilay habang pinaguusapan ang mga bagay tungkol sa pagagawa ng sining tungkol sa ating mga puki, pagtatahi, at ang simpleng kapasidad ng pakikineg sa mga istorya. I personally feel really expanded by this conversation, as a very real practice of pakikinig at pagpapakilala sa sarili, at pagsasabuhay ng mga intention mo sa paglilikha at paghahabi kasama ng mundo. We talk more about her previous and current works, and trade stories on how we came about accepting our creative natures. If you’re up for company sa may sunken ga...

Hot off the press we’ve got a very important solo-cast with Maria: talking about Life Transitions and the cycles of time. A lot of folks have a lot of tangled up grief and emotions around transitions: from being a child to a teenager, to what does adulthood even mea? what and where are the elders supposed to look like, why even bother looking forward to aging? The thing is most of these life cycles, are paradoxically, not going to change! They are an eternal constant, visible in the iching, the tarot, the way seeds are planted, grown, fruit an...

In this new solocast on Integrated Awakenings, we have Maria walking us through a new way of thinking about the energetic body. Instead of thinking of chakras specifically or thinking of auric layers, we talk about the major systems that make up and fuel our energetic body, referenced and synthesizing multiple energetic body systems. We talk about major considerations with: natal energy, land/ecosystem energy, relationship energy, the “pregnant” energy of projects and intentions. If you are someone involved in bodywork or simply want to have an integrative and energetic view of what “feeds” your system, then this podcast is sure...

Have you ever felt a violence possess you and felt overwhelmed, bad, unacceptable? let’s Unpack that. In this juicily thorough episode we have Vicky Marquez, a great thinker and friend to walk us through why is it really that we feel uncomfortable about power, justice, gender, oppression and all manners of Systemic Violences, and what it has to do with both our personal and collective healing. We touch topics both personal and collective, around neurodivergence upto violence portrayed/normalized in genre/gendered media and arrive at such vast viewpoints with how to consider feeling so viciously violent.💥

Hello and welcome to a thorny banger! This is honestly a very tricky topic to discuss as most folks can have a lot of built-up trauma around money, systemic power struggles, and perceptions with income classes that’s just got it good. As much as spirituality and Love steeps all things, very “societal” constructs: like classism and privilege are these very real karmic-imprints/thought-forms/collectively-shared-baggage that can’t be just philosophized away but is something that needs to be seen with utmost clarity, compassion and alchemy. A very human integration to say, spiritual experience.

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Today we have a long-awaited guest, a long time collaborator of Maria, Anna Dominique Santos, an artist-healer from Bulacan comes to talk on the show about the spiritual aspect allowing yourself to be a conduit of Art and a creative force. We also talk about the usual hang-ups of student’s and client’s she’s come to address and talk about the power of a radically compassionate and authentic art practice. If you know a side of you that’s a frustrated creative then this is very much a potent podcast for you.

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Hi! This episode doesn't have an ep intro so that it's optimized to be looped when you're sleeping or resting, or when you feel like you want to actively journey/visualize reclaiming your own energy.

This is specifically designed to help folks recharge, outside the bounds of time, as well as to tap to their original frequency, supportive energies, and their innate magick, dimensions/levels/versions that are wildly and innately magickal.

This is a multi-layered recording so it is more enjoyable with headphones/earphones. Feel free to "lean into" whatever energy bed...

Hi and welcome to an exciting episode from Integrated Awakenings, we have a special guest Amara Strand, a wonderful contemporary example of enlightened living, talking to us about Advanced Dreaming techniques. We both share expanded experiences, immense downloads, and specific technique developments when transitioning and weaving alongside the different dimensions of the dream realm!

Whatever the level of exposure one has to dreamwork, this episode is sure to expand and empower your authority and capacities in whatever level, portal, dimension of dream state. If you've ever wanted deeper sleep, better energetic hygiene, relatable (or maybe not...

It’s been a while since we had a magick episode so let’s do comeback with a banger: Let’s Interrogate What Really Is The Source of Magick, and what is really holding you back from having an infinite tap to it? Is it a thing you buy off the shelf? Something specially gifted? Something unconditionally and totally faced? Are we sapped of it by the dredges of bad thought-loops, and vampiric societal assumptions? What does it really mean to be aligned with your magick or to become magickal? Why is the Summary Full of Questions and Interrogations? 

Continuing an old series (since feb pa!) — the creative process as spiritual discipline. In this episode we’re talking about how to feel very enabled and liberated to translate our curiosities and creativities in between creative mediums and expressions. We’ll talk about how that might just bust you out of a creative rut, and also activate parts of you that have felt dormant or under stimulated and raring to be expressed and wonderfully integrated. We also walk ourselves through some simple processes and frameworks that would help enable us to straddle different modes of creativity easefully and talk about...

Manifesting! Money! Miracles! Is always a high priority for so many of us. In this episode, we tackle alongside our guest Azaza, common blocks, belief systems and nuances that usually brings practitioners out of alignment. Wether it’s your definition of abundance-plenty, generosity, or perceptions about fate/deservingness, we’ll definitely be introducing shifts into that language. If you’ve ever wanted to hear us walk around the topic of “manifesting”, or in desperate need of a miracle, then this is the episode for you! thanks for being in resonance, with such generous realities.

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I CANT BELIEVE I HAVEN’T HAD AN EPISODE ON THIS. In this ep of Integrated Awakenings Maria covers a few unexpected examples of how spirits/god/love “sees you” and your truth. Often times, a radical self-knowing and acceptance, is cushioned with out accountability, or the emphasis of being able to advocate your gifts and your work. Maria covers the necessary labor of coming into really knowing oneself, and finding the language of temperance to meaningfully participate in the world around you. They also cover some recent collective initiations around the HARA-it’s potent shadows, as well as being ab...

In this solo-cast of Integrated Awakenings, we’ll be covering very useful developmental concepts with regards to how and why parents seem to be such a source of disappointment, trauma and unhealthy patterns we bring even to old age. Is adulthood always marked by this loss of innocence? Does anybody ever really grow up? What if our parents still act like children, what grief is that now? This episode offers a spiritual dimension to the natural projection and individuation of the psyche, and how our early symbols of divine mother/father/parent/love always have a fall from grace wh...

In this new podcast episode we have as our guest, Nix, a practicing korean folk-shaman and anthropologist sitting us down and easefully combing for us the core differences in thinking around western and eastern mystical-spiritual practices. We have a holistic discussion on how western philosophy may relate to things via pictures (the snapshot of a situation - eg: a tarot spread) versus the dynamic and relational philosophy of taoist-confuscian-shamanic iching reading of the same situation. ( a moving picture, eg: fengshui, an iching cast). 

In this episode she also shares some of her unique practices, as someone w...

This is not a podcast ep! THIS IS A POWERFUL SESSION. In this episode we have Maya Banawa conducting a healing ceremony for Maria’s voice, intuitively feeling into, and sharing her process of guiding people into unlocking their authentic voice. For this session, what was released were warrior chantings, ancestral rememberings, child embracings — and meanderings around frogcroaks and what is really considered “a bad romance”. If you feel like you are drawn to creatively express and heal via your voice, AND/OR you want to listen into the navel root songs of a warrior heart tribes arriving, then this is...

In this very special episode we have Puki Maanawhari, a punong babaylan (with 11 years of experience) residing in metro manila, binabaylan mother of the coven of modern babaylan and alabays (babaylan in training) and very important resource with regards to babaylang history and experience. We cover very important and a wide range of topics with regards to babaylan terminology, initiation, their traumatic history, it’s accessibility, and it’s aesthetic appropriation in the arts and in queer terminology. This is a very candid approach with regards to having a working relationship with land spirits, rituals, and the realities of guar...

In this podcast episode maria goes through one of the most underrated skillsets for holding space, group workshops, and institutional dynamics: the grace of excellent facilitation. Maria walks you through an easy to follow framework of priming, generating, guiding, closing and enabling to make sure that folks feel seen and involved in the many instances that group dynamics, cooperation and education is sorely needed. If you ever feel overwhelmed with handling groups, or feel like you’re not deeply engaging your clients and/or groups then this is the podcast for you!

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In the second installment of creative process as spiritual discipline we talk about somatics and dancing! The podcast gives a brief overview of mystery traditions that relate to ecstatic release and cultures of movement in communities. We then segway to artistic containers and explorations, of authentic movement, allowing dance (and a bit of theater) to alchemize experiences that can be often so hard to verbalize. Maria traces the mechanics of why bodywork, curiosity and awareness is important and translates what an everyday, allied relationship with the body can look like and how to easefully get there. If you've always...

In this very special episode we’ve got not one! But TWO people talking about what it’s like to live a life as a multi-soul (they/themz) magnificence, and what’s the deal on how it is similiar and dissimilar to queerness, neurodivergence, DID (dissociative identity disorder), parts work/internal family systems and just overall! expanded notions of being. So many spiritual circles keep interrogating a singular self — when a lot of local cultures (we talk about this in podcast) have such a multiple/twinned notions of our spirits and we’re really here to weave prod and walk aroun...

This has to be one of my favorite podcasts ever and one I’ve wanting to talk about for so long we talk about: kink, consent, a lot of sexual healing via such “lower” chakra practices. We talk about sex as an energy, as creativity, as about control, power, release and we cover even a few sacramental practices with regards to offering sexual/jing energy and the like. We also relate the rituals of learning consent, actually sitting down and sifting through our desires, and many modes of constant checking-in and considerations done to make any kind of kinky or even...

In this special episode we have azaza or more commonly known as Brialanae talk to us about her path of shifting labels from trying to be a “witch” to actual priestessing. Azaza has been in the awakening, and energy healing path since 2016, and has some supremely practical advice about incorporating everyday sanctity (altar, ceremony, offerings) to your everyday life. They have physical health challenges as a long-time healer and thus have a relatable, and refreshing take on simple intentions, to amplify and transform your life. (PS: we also talk about deities and other entities, and maria geeks out about chin...

Welcome to a multi-series episodes that covers the nature of the creative process and how it naturally is also a, spiritual discipline, practice and process in itself. This is accessible to folks who perceive themselves as hobbyists to professionals, to genuinely explore ACTUAL! PROCESSES! AND! STEPS! that make art-making more emotionally aware, spiritually potent, and radically inclusive. If you want to give yourself more compassionate spaces to hear your stories and what wants to be spoken through you, then definitely this is the page-of an episode that you’ve been seeking for

Decolonization, Intersectional Privilege and Healing Collectives

A lot of people encounter healing via personal development or simply trying to relieve their own suffering. Where that is so powerful, just as powerful is also being able to speak about group stories, histories, and collective experiences, to feel in belonging with, solidarity with, and healing with a group. Wether it’s from imperial history, sexism, ableism, it can be very fruitful for everyone to have a lens of intersectional privilege/rank, to really allow us to digest and integrate the realities of healing but also meeting life sometimes face to...

In the longest episode to date yet! We have Guada and Miqo coming back to the podcast to give a robust and holistic primer with how to think about and safely go about the basics of channeling. We talk about some common pitfalls, fears and practical tips on how to commune with spirit to the degree and manner that best works for you. Even if you are a seasoned channeler, with three unique filipino perspectives on this episode, you’ll hear more first hand experiences from people who have been doing this, for all of their live(s) and wi...

In this episode of Integrated Awakenings, we have artist-priestess Ea Torrado candidly speaking with us about the present, but also the labors and fruits of a creative journey. We talk about the common fears, creative burn-out and self-compassion that comes with living an authentically creative life, and how to increasingly gain trust in one's inner calling and becoming brave. If you're someone who always been curious of what it's like to be a full-time artist, or always dreaming, or wanting to reckon with the title of "artist" or "creative" this heart opening podcast, really opens up the definition of...