Amma Brown Girl

Happy pride month peeps! 

On this week’s episode I talk about the queer community; how I could really do with more queer friends, the Indian culture recognising third genders through history, how we still have a long way to go, and even a little about how I’m doing as a queer desi girly after coming out. 

I hope you enjoy today’s episode as much as I enjoyed creating it, stick it on in the background, and let me know what you think! 

Sending all my queer pee...

Lavender marriage this lavender marriage that, I’ve lost count of how many times I said lavender marriage, but I can sure tell you this style of marriage is back. 

To the girlies showing off their cute hot gay husbands, to Hollywood stars concealing their sexuality to avoid scandal, this form of marriage has caused a stir. 

On today’s episode I talk about the future of lavender marriages, whether if my aunties would take it up as an option to get rid of their husbands who clearly hate them (closeted), if I would...

We know how ugly it can all get when we hear about jealousy, have you ever felt jealous? 🫵🏼

On today’s episode I talk about jealousy, what it means to feel jealous, why we feel jealous, how we can work through it and how jealousy can look through a brown lens. 

Have you considered jealousy to be an invitation to look inwards, is it as bad as it sounds? 🤔

You tell me, I hope todays episode challenges you to question yourself, perhaps you can relate, feel free to share your sto...

I’m glad I set the record straight with my parents early on and let them crash out sooner than later because I don’t have the capacity to be dealing with their crash out in my 30’s. 

Anyways, today it a chill one, yappa yappa yappa. identity is a weird, one minute I’m pretending to be the perfect Indian housewife in front of my relatives the other I’m shaking ass with my home girls and crushing on that fine girl with short hair. 

If you need something in the background...

EPISODE 14: DESI’S ON THE ✨SPECTRUM✨

On today’s episode I attempt to self-diagnose myself, talk about the importance of acknowledging neurodiversity, invalidate my brain ANDD try to figure out if I’m on the spectrum. 🙃

Imagine if our desi parents had access to the knowledge and education we have now, I wonder if they would’ve had an easier time understanding their brains. Being more aware of my parent’s mental health has helped give them more grace and allow for forgiveness. It only took 25 years :) 😗

I’m not a doctor, but I hope this...

Sat Sri Akal! On today’s episode I’ll be talking about the expectations of taking care of the elder generation and parents in the south Asian community. 

Firstly, has anyone realised I’ve uploaded a day later? No this wasn’t intentional and very unlike me, blame my WIFI :( To be honest it’s a happy accident to see what works better in terms of upload days. 

Being 25 has made me really appreciate the time I have with family and relatives because suddenly everyone is dying their grey hairs and adamant I need to star...

It’s nice to finally see my parents enjoying life after waking up at silly hours of the morning! 

In todays episode I cover the conversation of brown people working overtime; never taking breaks, not receiving enough credit for their efforts, how different work life is in India and how I’ve truly enjoyed unemployment, what a blessing!!! ✨✨✨

Thank you for all the engagement, enjoy! ❤️✨

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Yes, you did read that right.😅

Imagine being told you look fat before saying good morning in the house of GOD! Oh get a grip.😒

The thing is, I’m not really surprised but I also wonder if gossip culture is common in most places of worship? 🤨

Have a listen and let me know what you think, oki byeee! 😜

Enjoy ! ❤️

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I’m unsure if anyone reads these but if you do thank you ! ❤️

I talk about my dating experiences how important it is for parents to encourage their children to date safely and progressive Indian film and tv has come when it comes to showcasing complex themes of sex and relationships. ✨

Today was a hard day but this podcast keeps me going. 🩵

I appreciate your engagement. 

ENJOY! 

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On today’s episode I talk about the ins and outs of friendship breakups, how we met, how things ended, what I learnt and what I wish I knew ! 

GO CHECK IT OUT NOW, ENJOYYYY ! 💔

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This episode is for anyone struggling with complicated family relationships, believe me I know how ugly it gets. 🥲

I thought the day would never come where I get to actually say that out loud… so me and my mum are now besties and we can finally sleep at night in peace. 🥹💤

After years of blocking, fighting, arguing and ghosting, my relationship with my mum has reached a point of acceptance, that we are no longer the people we once were and it’s comforting to know we both cared enough to move forward with forgiven...

I’m back from traveling and reflecting on what feels like a never-ending checklist. AM I THE ONLY ONE FEELING THIS CHAOTIC??

Since 2024 has felt like Gotham City in real life—and let’s be honest, it’s a bit of a write-off—here are three lessons I’m taking into this year:

1️⃣ Listen to your intuition—it will guide you away from toxic situations.  

2️⃣ Time keeps ticking; don’t wait for the ‘perfect’ moment, live NOW! ⏳  

3️⃣ You can’t outrun your problems—they’ll catch up. Face them head-on!

What’s one lesson...

ITS CHAA NOT CHAI FFS. I bet you’ve never tasted what real chaa tastes like, made on a chulla (open flame) with fresh cow’s milk off the cow on my left. Yeah, that’s a real village experience I had the other day. (see IG highlights for proof) ☕️ 🐄

When I tell you I’d love to live in India, I mean it. The village life is a simple life and on today’s episode I talk about just that. I share all the things I’ve learnt, how you must be grateful for what you have, and importa...

YOU VOTED, I DELIVERED! 🙌 NEW EPISODE ALERT!

A tie in my Instagram poll led to a tough decision, but I’m excited to share with you all what I’ve learned!

From boosting confidence to finding your own travel style, this episode is packed with insights to help you grow and explore. 🎧💖

Enjoy!

#ammabrowngirl #travellessons #selfdiscovery #solotravel #india #mumbai #southindian #southasain #veitnam #thailand #podcast

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🎙️ New Episode Alert 🏳️‍🌈🇹🇭

At least once a day I’ll sit there and think aha I genuinely love being a lesbian. 💭 I honestly knew it when I was staring a tad too hard at the M&S bra section models, whilst trying to find my first ever push up bra… 👙 

ENYWAYS, in this episode of Amma Brown Girl, I’ll be talking about the experience of being a lesbian in Thailand. 🇹🇭 From the vibrant LGBTQ+ scene in Bangkok, to the not so open villages, it’s nice to be in a country where being queer is celebrated and respect...

A huge thank you to everyone who contributed ideas for today’s topic! Your voices matter! 💬❤️

In this episode, we’re addressing the often-overlooked issue of racism and colourism within Indian society. We’ll explore how historical factors, societal norms, and media representations contribute to these attitudes. 

Together, let’s uncover the roots of these biases and discuss how we can challenge them in our communities. It’s a conversation we need to have! 

Join me for an honest discussion, and don’t forget to share your perspective! 🎧✨ #AmmaBrownGirl #RacismInIndia #Colourism #culturalconversati...

🌟✨ *Ignorance is bliss*—but is it really? Today’s episode was produced in Quin Nhon- Vietnam, on a beautiful rooftop, blue skies and ocean waves. Despite the scenic location, ya girl still got trauma! So today I explore the difficulties of sharing our truths with family and the weight of unspoken feelings. Join me as I reflect on my personal journey while navigating family dynamics during my travels in India. It’s a deep dive into the bittersweet reality of selective sharing and mental clarity. 💭🧳💕 Let’s talk about how sometimes keeping certain truths to ourselves can be an act of kindness. 

Welcome back to Amma Brown Girl! In this raw and heartfelt Season 2 opener, I dive into the much-needed decision of going no contact with my mother. To make matters worse I’m currently on holiday with her… yes this was out of my control… 🙃 It's an emotional journey filled with moments of clarity, pain, and deep reflection.

Join me as I share my thoughts on setting boundaries, preparing for an upcoming trip, and the delicate balance between love and hurt. 💔💫 Have you ever felt the need to step back from a loved one for your own well-being? You'r...

✨ That’s a wrap on Season 1 of Amma Brown Girl! 🎉 What an incredible ride it has been, sharing my highs and lows while connecting with so many of you. From breaking free from toxic environments to discovering my true self, every episode has been a piece of my journey. 

A massive THANK YOU to all of you who listened, shared, and engaged with my podcast. Your support means the world! ❤️

Get ready for the exciting news I have for Season 2, dropping on October 28th! Mark your calendars, because I can’t wait to share what’s next...

No matter how independent I become, the expectations of how my parents, culture, and society want me to be is something I think will never leave me.  (Expensive therapy bills pending!). 

Today’s episode was difficult to record, and I felt very vulnerable sharing my story about how I struggle with balancing the perfect Desi daughter act with authentic Amma.  

I talk about my struggles with becoming a compulsive liar, feeling feral during my first taste of true freedom, and how picking a side is no longer an option.

I hope th...

🌼✨ "Happiness comes in waves." 🌊💖 Just wrapped up a heartfelt episode of Amma Brown Girl, EPISODE 22: "The Power of Gratitude: Finding Joy Amidst Hardship." 🙏🏽  If you’re battling tough times, remember that even the smallest moments of gratitude can help shift your perspective. 

Let's embrace the waves of life together! 🌈💪

Check out the full episode on YT / Apple Podcasts / Spotify (all platforms) for stories and practices that might just inspire you to find your own moments of joy! 🎙️💕

ENJOY!

#AmmaBrownGirl #Gratitude #MentalHealth #FindingJoy #Resilience #Podcast #Community #SelfLove

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Today’s episode talks about betrayal; what it means, the different types of betrayal, personal experiences and how to overcome these heavy emotions.

Having experienced a recent betrayal of working with snakes, it was only right to share that story and hopefully help anyone out there having experienced similar situations. 

Betrayal is an unfortunate part of life, but it teaches you to trust your yourself. Your intuition is very powerful! 

Have you experienced betrayal? 

Drop me a DM and let me know. 

ENJOY!

PSA: If you don’t watch/listen to this episode I’ll be offended because this is possibly my most favourite episode!!! :) Check out the visual on YouTube

On today’s episode I really want to spark a conversation about what home feels like.

I recently moved house again for the 8th time and I couldn’t help feeling the heavy emotions of how home has never felt like home. I talk about my family home, how renting has never given me true peace and how my future home will have a frickin gas hob because who the hell enjoys roti on an induction hob. 

Have you thought about what you would like your space to feel like? Let me know ! 

As if life isn’t long enough, then you’ve got a chat shit auntie telling you to lose weight but they’re still carrying the “BAbY wEIgHt” for 30 years. 

On today’s episode, I’m a tad triggered but we get straight into the history and culture of chat shift aunties, what they really like to gossip about, why they gossip and some of my awful experiences. 

Drop me a DM if you’ve had any chat shit aunties talk about you!!! 

ENJOY! ❤️

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Get ready for a candid conversation about body hair, self-acceptance, and spirituality! In this episode of Amma Brown Girl, I'm sharing my personal experiences with waxing, lasering, and ultimately, embracing my natural body hair. I also open up about my decision to dye my hair after 2 years since I felt pressured to conform and ‘look professional’. 

Let's break free from societal pressure and redefine what beauty means to us. Listen now and join the conversation! #bodyhair #selfacceptance #haircare #podcast

(The intro is intentional, this episode was recorded super late into the night with minim...

NEW EPISODE ALERT! This week on Amma Brown Girl, I'm talking about the elephant in the room - alcoholism in our community. From my own experiences growing up around it to the stigma around south Asian women drinking, I'm sharing my story and hoping to start a conversation. Don't forget to check out the resources I mentioned in the episode and share your own stories with me! #Alcoholism. #SouthAsianCommunity #MentalHealth

Book mentioned: Dopamine Nation by Dr Anna Lembke. 

Support groups: Alcoholics Anonymous 

Online platforms: Drink Aware - Alcohol Change UK

He...

TERRIFIED WAS AN UNDERSTATEMENT! 

On today’s episode I talk about the before, during and after of my skydive, some of the things I’ve reflected on, and how I’m now able to give even less of a shit about the stresses of life. 

I can now say it was the best moment of my life, I’d do it again in a heartbeat. 

Would you try skydiving? 

@Northlondonskydiving

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Since it’s pride month, in this week’s episode I talk about my coming out story; the messy after math, what prompted me to come out and what I’ve learnt. 

Queer people have existed from the beginning of time, so have South Asian queers. I strongly believe there needs to be better representation, so that my 12-year-old Amma self doesn’t think something’s wrong with her, and future generations can feel safe and confident enough to live authentically. 

If you’re brown/ ethnic/ have a troubled relationship with your parents, you’ll know th...

Gusa in Punjabi means anger and it’s something I’m no stranger to.

On today’s episode I talk about the ways I’ve dealt with anger in my desi home, my recent experience of feeling angry and how you can manager your emotions better. 

Life is too short to be in a constant state of rage or distress. 

Stop, breath, reflect. The moment will pass. 

Enjoy ❤️

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This translates to ‘You Look Fat’. Awful I know…

On today’s episode I talk about how normalised it is for our society to say such wild comments, and how I overcame a lot of my insecurity. 

I also mention my relationship with health, nutrition, and fitness and how I wish this subject was taught better in schools to educate young minds about being more aware of the benefits rather than it being forced and seen as a chore.

Remember, be kind, move your body and tell that chat shit aunty...

EPISODE 11: BLAME 

AM I TO BLAME FOR LEAVING? 

In today’s episode I talk about blame and how I, as a south Asian woman was made to feel like everything was my fault, when in reality I escaped an abusive home. 

I see this happen an awful lot in my culture, and it’s not spoken about enough. I wonder if It happens in other cultures too? 

So as always, let’s talk about it. 

Enjoy! 

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I MADE IT TO 10 EPISODES WHOOP WHOOP! 

(DISCLAIMER: Really struggled to get the audio crisp, yes a cried about it TWICE, will learn to get better soon x)

The hardest part has been starting but I’m so glad to have put out my podcast :)

On today’s episode I talk about 10 things I’ve learnt since starting and how it has helped me heal, such as; growing my confidence, not caring to seek validation, and appreciating my strength through the highs and lows. 

As always, thank you for...

I came to the recent realization that no matter how hard I try to salvage a complicated relationship with family members, no matter how much I try to be the perfect daughter and seek validation, the list of expectations will forever be unreachable.

Rather than trying to fit into a box and feel bad for MY choices, I made the decision to limit access to the beautiful parts of my life (friends, relationship, dreams, goals aspirations ect.) for those family members who simply refuse to love me for me. 

This week’s episode was...

One minute you’re being told off, the next your being served fruit. Being served fruit by your Indian parents is their equivalent of them apologising, of course without taking any accountability. 

On today’s episode I talk about hot and cold parents. No matter how much time passes their old negative habits/ opinions creep up here and there leaving you feeling confused and disappointed. Since I feel like not enough people speak about this topic, it’s important to remember our parents are people, and people say awful things. It just hurts more when it’s a paren...

I can't help but wish I had watched this video 3 years ago. 

Moving out was a major decision in my life, and while it didn't solve all my problems, it was definitely the best choice I ever made. 

In this week's episode, I dive into the nitty-gritty of the moving out process, sharing insights on dealing with landlords, offering practical tips for a smooth move, and venting about the challenges of house shares. 

I would love to become a landlord myself one day and be a source of support for tho...

“When will you marry”, asked my mum who would faint at the thought of me dating BUT, “I must find a life partner” she said. 

Welcome to the all too familiar and common reality of south Asians like myself who feel the sudden pressure to get married because apparently 25 is the prime age, otherwise I’ll expire by 29, God forbid 30. 

In today’s episode I talk about the stigma and ideas our community has around marriage such as the pressure; the need for families to be heavily involved, the lack of open conversations around dating...

TW: PLEASE NOTE THIS EPISODE INCLUDES SENSITIVE TOPICS.

If there’s one thing I’ve always screamed at all my friends is don’t care what people think, they don’t care as much as you think. Now this is a lot easier said than done and insecurity naturally creeps up in waves. What’s important is how you manage it. 

In todays episode I talk about some the of issues I grew up with as a brown women such as: 

My relationship with body hair.

Being under/over weight...

Mental health is a lifelong relationship, it only gets more spicier if you have chat shit aunties and you’re the eldest brown girl. In this week’s episode I talk about how my current circumstances are making me feel, how I wish there were more spaces for the older gen to process their feelings, and how important it is to fall in love with your own company. Solo dates for the win

Since my mum is my biggest hater towards my podcast, and I’ll post it anyway, todays episode is quite special to me, and I hope you can understand or relate to some of the guilt I feel as a result of leaving home; being outspoken and putting myself first as a brown person.

Having to put your own needs second and staying compliant to your parents/ societies expectations is not a fair way to live, and the guilt which follows can be awfully painful. 

Tell a friend to tell a friend, ENJOY!